Dear Spacestrawberry
A love letter to my wonderful girlfriend, IB: Spacestrawberry
Dear Spacestrawberry
You asked for love story but I'm sad to say that I can not come up with a proper love story for us despite how well of a writer you think I am. I say this because I can think of no better love story then the one we've lived out together.Through out the many years we have been together, it has been wonderful. It has not always been perfect and I have not always been faithful but you have forgiven me and I am grateful to have you.
I thought, for days how to fulfill your request after making this beautiful icon for me and I struggled. I find little trouble when it comes to writing sexual or comedy stories but none seemed to fit how I felt about you. I know you love poetry but let's face it, I stink at it.
In the end it came to me one night. If I were to write something for you I must do what I always do, write what makes me feel. I've written Twilight and Tiny Eros feeling what I thought was sexually beautiful and I've written Order of Pengu feeling what I thought was funny. What follows is how I feel about you.
There have been many that have told us we are not good for each other or that it would not work. Some have treated our relationship as an after thought as I have had to remind several people who are supposedly close to me that yes, we are still dating. You've told me stories of the people you know that have contradicting actions that confused me with what seemed like double meaning in their words as far as we go.
To them, I pay no mind because I know there is one fact that out shines all others. I am happy knowing I have you in my life. Some would say our silly routines and habits are juvenile but they just don't get us. Every morning when I wake up and I see a text message with just my name, I know what you are going to say next. That does not prevent me from always asking "What?" and smiling regardless if you say "I love you." or something random I never see coming.
You've changed me for the better. It's no secret I used to be a lot more angry and violent before I met you. It took time but I'm getting better and I know a big portion of that is due to you being patient with me. You've also helped me believe in myself. No matter how low I've been, you've been there to help pick me up in the exact way I've needed. Some times you've been slow and tender, other times you've been quick and aggressive. Regardless, you know what is needed when.
I wouldn't not have made as much progress with my writing if not for you. There is no question that we have both doubted our art and writing respectively. At the same time we have both been there to give feed back to each other and never stirred the other wrong.
Most importantly, you remind me to take care of my personal health, mentally and physically. It's not something that I was always concerned with. A mistake that eventually caught up with me. You pestered me and bugged me for I don't know how many times. And you were right to be worried. It took longer then I should but eventually it sunk in and I'm taking care of myself. It's not just for me but for you as well.
I could go on forever but I don't want to ramble. I wish I could shower you with gifts everyday. I wish I could spend every second with you so that you were never alone. Sadly, I know I can't do these things.
But I do know I can declare my love for you to anyone that will listen. I also know that I will never stop loving you no matter how crazy we drive each other at times.
I will love you forever Spacestrawberry, and I will do every thing in my power to make you happy and keep you safe. That may mean we have to spend time apart to better prepare ourselves for when we are together again but I want you to remember something. No matter how long or how far apart we are, I think about you everyday and every night. There is not a moment that I don't miss you, even when we are having disagreements.
If you ever feel down, lonely, or doubt yourself I want you to read this and remember something. You are an incredible woman and there is a reason that I love you. You are stronger then you think and I believe in you. Try not to doubt yourself and push forward as often as you can.
Love always
SpecterHSC