Teaser: for upcoming story

Story by Ajinx on SoFurry

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Hey everyone I'm back, this as you could tell is a small piece of a story that I have coming in the next days/weeks. I'ts will be longer than usual but I gained some inspiration from personal fears of mine and decided to make it into a small story that I've come to love writing about.

This is about personal fears of mine about as you can soon guess my sexuality, I'm only out to you beautiful people so I thought this could help me a little bit (and possibly others?). The main character Jake shares a few of my qualities such as being shy( although I'm not as much as him) and not really knowing who he is.

P.S THIS WILL BE SAD but when the full story is released I hope to give you a warm feeling. I'm finishing last few pages up. Cough and possibly a romance scene .

Without embarrassing myself further here you go.


Jake knew something was up as soon as he left his dorm room. It started out small, a few glances here and there, quiet snickers, or complete silence when he passed some people who were just talking. This was all it was until colby, a big bison who as always was sitting with his pal Barry a grey wolf. Decided to say something. "Hey Jakey!" Colby called out across the school grounds his deep voice easily carrying the short distance. "Is it true that you were at that fag bar yesterday?" Those two were always looking for girl(s) or something to torment.

What a way to get everyone's attention. Everyone in Jake's vision turned toward him, no telling how many muzzles were pointing at him behind his back. As far as he knew Colby just announced this over the intercom making everyone stop eating their breakfast and look up from their last minute studies to stare at the brown otter, now clutching his books to his chest as if they were a teddy bear. Jake slowly tilted his head up to look at the bison and wolf getting up from their seats and walking toward him, he then thought "Wait he was at the bar?" To "Holy shit who saw me at the bar?"

There couldn't have been anyone in his college there, he takes an hour bus ride so no one notices him. They are just messing with him right? It's in their nature to embarrass someone in the most open part of the school where what felt like almost everyone was at at the moment. Jake could feel his fur turn into molten lava under his light blue tank top. Was it his outfit, did it look too gay? No a lot of aquatic animals dress like this, yeah he wore shorts that might be a little too short to subtly well... dress "gay" in his opinion but he could pass it off as if they shrunk in the dryer or something like that. What felt like thousands of eyes were upon him, if he could he would have curled his tail around his leg in fear but otters can't do that.

He could feel his blunt claws dig into the books he carried which will definitely leave marks in the hundreds of dollars of pages. He could just keep walking and pretend he didn't hear the bison or just ignore him, but he could only form the previous three thoughts as the bison, in Jake's opinion thirteen foot frame cast a shadow over his short one with the wolf nearing the otters side. Jake couldn't form any words only try not to shake too hard. Was he surprised that he wasn't outed as gay earlier in his college life, YES, yes it did but no matter how many times he planned what he would say and do in his head none of those plans were coming to him now.

"You know, once we found out it wasn't that hard to believe it. Our little gay otter growing up so fast." Colby barked. " I've always seen you checking me out when you thought I wasn't looking, I just thought I'd let you. Not too many sexy bison around here."

Jake now quickly looked down at the floor only able to stammer out "I..I..I've never checked." But was cut off by Barry.

"You too? I thought I thought I was the only one. looks like he's been busy."The stares of the other students were being burned into his soul. He knew practically none of them he stuck mostly to himself only occasionally did he make a few friends, but at this moment none of them were here to stick up for him. "Mary said she saw you there, she told us she didn't want to worry about any guys hitting on her while she was on vacation with a friend so they went to. What was it called? The indigo booth or the indigogo plaza, anyway she said she saw our little otter getting hit on by a small group, I didn't believe her until she showed me the pictures." Colby loudly exclaimed.

"So...so what? Who cares what or who I like?" Jake whispered possibly loud enough for the wolf to hear.

"So it's true!" The wolf belted out laughing slapping Colby on the back. "We got what we wanted isn't that right Colby. Let's let him off the hook for now then again he may enjoy being on it." The bison let out a chuckle and a small smile.

"See you back at the dorm, oh yeah and by the way don't suck any one's dick, we call first dibs fag." They started to walk away leaving Jake stuck in place by himself watching the bottoms of their paws walk away. Slowly he left the center of attention, no one chased after them to tell them to apologize, no one went to Jake to help him, they just went back to the talking and studying. Jake was okay being somewhat of a loner, but for the first time he felt truly and utterly alone.

His legs slowly became unstuck and he could tell himself start to walk, he could feel a few people stare at him as he walked past them still clutching his books. This had to be the most humiliating and embarrassing day of his life and it was only morning. He started to walk to his appropriate class but couldn't focus on the right path so he got lost. Jake's phone rang from a text message taking him away from his thoughts. The message was from his group partner Seth who was in his writing class. "Where are you? Are you sick? Do you need me to take notes for you?"

The weight on Jake's shoulders grew smaller, He's not alone, he has Seth and Cassie his other partner, hell even his digital arts director Mr. Jason(who he suspected was gay and all of whom he's not even 'friends' with). Jake stopped and moved over to a bench that was close by him to sit down. He put his books down next to him to respond back to Seth."I'm sorry something came up" he wondered if he should say more"Please can you take the notes for me, I just can't deal with class right now :(." He was about to pick up his books when he got a message back."Okay remember partners stick together. Stay in your room and rest. P.S Mr. Jason says hi."

So Seth heard what happened? He got a small smile on his face at the last part, one's acting like my mom the other like my friend he chuckled softly. No use in staying out here when he could take a now needed nap. Feeling emotionally drained he picked up his books, got off the bench and started making his way back to his dorm with a very little extra spring in his step.

He got to his co-ed dormitory with only a small amount of self doubt inside of him. When he arrived inside the building he checked every corner just in case Colby and Barry were waiting for him, he knew they wouldn't be but he couldn't escape that fear. He finally got to his door that read 425 Mr. Logan,Jake Mr._____. He reached into his shorts to grab his key and put it inside the hole, when he opened the door he slipped on something on the ground which almost made him fall down if it wasn't for the doorknob he was holding onto. "What the?" He said to himself

reaching toward the floor to pick up a few sheets the sheets of paper. When he had them in his paws he knew it wasn't paper, he looked at one of them which read "Told you Jakey" in green marker. He froze instantly not wanting to turn them around. With a quick burst of adrenaline he turned the pictures revealing their secret to him. The pictures showed him,HIM at the bar with the group that he was getting hit on by the other night with a huge rainbow flag on the wall behind him and the name of the bar on it. The last picture showed Jake kissing a tiger on the lips while getting groped all at the same time.

This made him freeze, was this on the internet? Who else did that big mouth tell? What does it matter anymore? What he felt earlier returned to him, he still felt scared that people knew he was gay. But having the chance to tell his friends, well friend, and others face to face that he was gay was taken from him, this personal thing about him that made him different was being told by rumors and two bullies. Not by an otter that didn't care what other would think, an otter that could kiss a boy on the lips in public and not only surrounded by people like him or alone,that's what he wanted.

But Jake couldn't do any of that. He ripped up the pictures except for the last one and threw them away, he put the intact one on his dresser it was a flattering and sexy pic after all. he stripped off his tank top and dropped it to the floor, shorts following them soon after he was then left in his short, tight, pink underwear that couldn't be any gayer or hotter and slipped into bed trying to dull out the world with very little success.

He woke up from his nap from quick tapping noises filling his ears. He lifted his head up from his pillow and blinked his unfocused eyes. Another set of taps filled his ears,"Hello, Jake it's me Seth." What's he doing here? How does he know where my room is?

"O-one minute!" Jake called out quickly putting on his shorts and tank top again. He looked around his room putting away things that he didn't want Seth to see (or you to read about).He did a quick glance around the room double checking, the poster! There was a poster of a kangaroo's lower thigh up to his abs only covered by a similar underwear he was wearing, but he couldn't take it down without ripping it.

Jake loved that he didn't have a roommate to share the room with he could have the entire room to himself without the annoyance of someone else and he took advantage of that by covering the entire room with his personality. And his personality was plastering the room with his things and what "things/parts" that interested him, after all he had no plans on bringing anyone in here.

"You okay?" Seth called out, wiggling the handle. Fuck, well he already knows right? Jake opened the door a crack to see Seth's furred face looking back at him.

"Hey Seth... what do you want?" He asked hopefully not sounding rude.