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I am back in school now, walking down the hall to get to my fourth period class which has been moved down to the fifth floor due to the top floor being closed after the incident that had occurred there the previous week

I am walking with one of my friends, Dee, she is a tall skinny orange tabby, the complete opposite of my nurse the previous week. I am recounting my days in the hospital to her, much to her amusement, when I hear someone calling me from down the hall.

"Sheath! Hey, hey Sheath!"

"Oh no," murmurs Dee, "I know that voice."

I flinch, picking up my pace, I recognize that voice too, and it wasn't the voice of someone I'd prefer to speak to at the moment. I have far too much to do today to explain things to him, maybe tomorrow, or the day after, or never...

I turn to her, "Shhhiit" I growl.

She laughs, "I'm gonna go now, cus I'm sure some definite shit is about to go down."

"Dee wait!" I yelp, reaching for her hand, but I am too slow, she is already running down the hall in the other direction.

"Sheath!"

I turn to the husky running in my direction, his eyes are alight, and he is obviously very determined to talk to me. I have no intention of speaking to him, I mean, we are friends, but now just isn't the time.

"SHEATH!" he shouts louder.

I flinch, he's attracting attention now. People are looking at me. I look at the floor and walk faster.

This is so stupid, I think, all I have to do is tell him the truth!

I try to walk even faster, refusing to turn around and acknowledge him. I don't even know if he is prepared for the truth right now, but I'd have to tell him at some point. I can't keep it from him forever, or could I? I hesitate as I reach the corner of the hall, pondering the possibilities.

After a while of contemplation I finally decide that tomorrow would be better, so I turn to head down the next hall. Sadly, by then it is too late. I groan inside as he jumps in front of me, all five adorable feet of him.

"Hey David," I sigh, meeting his eyes cautiously.

Now is not the time, now is just not the time. I just got out of the hospital; I'm technically still in a drug haze. There's no way I can get everything across the right way, not without looking like an idiot, or an asshole, or both.

He smiles, "How have you been Sheath?"

Forcibly I try to smile back, but I feel like I am failing. "Fine, thanks for asking," I murmur, looking around him, hoping to spot someone or something I can use as an excuse to leave. "Damn you Dee for leaving." I mutter under my breath.

"What was that?" he asks.

I look back down at him and my entire body twitches, "How about you?" I murmur, my voice scarily even.

"Ah, about that..." He says, "I was wondering..."

I whimper softly, knowing exactly what is coming. I try to think of something appropriate to say, but there is nothing.

Everything had happened without warning, even for me! How could I explain to him the scene he came in on without sounding like a blithering fool?

I twitch again, quite obviously this time.

"Is something wrong?" He murmurs.

"Um, no," I lie, meeting his eyes again.

Dammit you fool, I think to myself; David is your best friend! He is the only guy who has stood by your side after you decided to tell everyone your stupid little secret, he's the only person who didn't run away out of fear that you'd attempt to violate him in some way. He's been there for you through thick and thin, and he knows just about everything there is to know about you!

To tell the truth, I'm pretty sure there isn't anything that the two of us hadn't done together up to date.

"Really?" he says, his voice full of sarcasm.

I shiver, me and David have been friends for as long as I can remember, but there has always been something else. I've felt it for the longest time. Our friendship wasn't simply a friendship, not to him at least. There was something else in his eyes every time we were together. Something tender, something hungry. It made me glad that he was around, glad that I had another option. But now that I have Felix, it makes me fear for the worst. This friendship, something that I thought could and would last forever, could come to an abrupt end. Here and now.

I look David up and down, shivering with nerves. Now that I think about it, he really is quite dashing. He has a very nice build and a nice face. His sense of style is also very adept, right now he is wearing a rather form fitting shirt complemented by a very flattering pair of skinny jeans. I find myself tracing the definition of his abdominals with my eyes, mentally comparing his physique with Felix's.

"So how's your boy?"

"Hm?" I murmur, looking up at his face again, snapping from my thoughts.

"Felix, how is he?" David presses.

"Oh he's good, darling and dashing as usual" I reply, "Maybe a little more so after the last couple of weeks being the way they were. If you know what I mean."

David nods, "So is it true that you two are, you know, an item?"

I twitch again, yelping as the tender muscles in my back contract.

He blinks at me evenly, saying nothing. I now know there is no way of getting around this. I might as well make the truth known now.

I meet his eyes steadily, "Why do you ask?" I croak.

"Just curious, when I heard the news I found it hard to believe that the most popular jock in all of Animi University would truly hook up with the one openly gay guy in the school." He says, giving me a pointed look, "I mean he's gone through so many girls in the last few months I find it hard to believe he could truly love you."

"Oh really," I mutter, narrowing my eyes, "Is that what you think?"

He nods, keeping my gaze.

"Well you don't know my Felix," I reply icily, "He would never do anything to hurt me. I promise you that, so any sick hopes that you have of scooping me out of his arms can be dispelled right here, right now."

"What about that attack in the alley?" he says pointedly.

"You know that wasn't him!" I growl, "Don't pull that shit with me!"

David recoils, looking hurt, "I was just saying Sheath! You never know, he's still on the Rugby team! The guys are already making fun of him; I mean, he could change his mind at any moment, especially with his popularity involved!"

"Shut up David," I growl, crumpling a fist, "I don't want to hurt you."

"Sheath, I'm your friend," He croaks, "There would be no reason for me to be saying any of this if I weren't truly worried about your feelings."

"I don't need you worrying about me David," I growl, "I have Felix now and you know how much this means to me. You know how long I've waited for him to admit his feelings."

He sniffs, looking away from me, "Sheath, you have no idea how much this means to me. Have you ever wondered what I've been longing for, what I've been thinking about all these years?"

"Now David," I sigh, "you know this already. I've told you enough times. I don't like you like that. Never have, never will. I'm sorry."

He nods weakly, turning to walk away. "I'm sorry I bothered you then."

"D-David, wait," I stammer, "don't take this the wrong way, we're still friends. I mean, I don't know what I'm going to do without you and your sense of fashion. I mean, who's going to plan my wedding? Who's going to design my dress or whatever?"

I turn him around and he smiles at me. "Sheath, you have no idea how much you mean to me," he says, "I always thought you were the one. From the first time I set eyes on you. You're beautiful, smart, talented..." He shakes his head, "I never knew I was really going to lose you to him."

I take a deep breath, feeling tears pushing at the corners of my eyes, "David," I sniff. "You know I need you, you're my best friend! We're supposed to be a pack forever, remember? The dynamic duo!"

He shakes his head, "I won't be able to stand it Sheath, seeing you with him. It absolutely breaks my heart. I don't want it to, but it does, and there's nothing I can do about it."

"Come on David," I whimper, "you can't do this to me."

"No sheath,you come on!" David snaps, "You tell me that you don't remember how you felt when Daffodil went out with Felix. Don't you remember how hurt you were when you found out that one your best friends had taken to the man that you loved?"

I shake my head, "David, this isn't the same. Come on man."

"Sheath, just let it go, this was never going to work out," He chokes, pushing me away. "You and I both know it's the truth."

"David," I whine, still trying to hold back my tears, "David."

"No Sheath," He growls, "That's enough. I can't take any more of this. Dogs don't belong with wolves anyway."

"David, please," I moan, "I need you!"

"You have Felix now," He mutters, "Isn't this what you always wanted?"

I nod, and then I shake my head, "But I never knew it would mean losing you."

"Well maybe you should have thought it through just a little more, huh?" He barks, furious.

I whimper, taking a step away from him, "David, I'm sorry, I really am."

"Shut the fuck up Sheath." He mutters blocking my face with his hand, "I've had enough of this torture."

I stare at him, shaking my head, broken, hopeless, completely at loss for words.

"I always knew you were weak," He says, "You could never get over that stupid cat, no matter how many times you tried. I should have given up ages ago. I don't know what I was thinking."

I blink, tears streaming from my eyes.

"Don't expect to hear from me again," He growls, "Don't expect to even see me ever again. Don't expect anything of me. Don't look for me, don't think about me! I don't want any of that! You have gotten what you want. Now I have nothing."

I reach out to him, closing him in my arms, laying my chin on his shoulder, "David."

"NO!" he shrieks, pulling out of my arms and shoving me to the floor, "It's OVER Sheath!"

I stare up at him, brokenhearted. He was like a brother to me. He was all I had after Zach was taken away by the government. I had thought that we would be close forever, but now this...

I stay on my knees as he turns away and struts unsteadily down the hall, shrieking mournfully before turning the corner. I whimper, wiping my eyes. This is not what I wanted.

I had never known that I'd be losing so much in getting the guy I had desired more than anything else in this world, or so I thought. Already I've lost my brother, and my best friend. Now I'm left wondering, what else could go wrong?

As I get to my feet Felix appears down the hall, almost as if on cue. He spots me and, seeing my disoriented appearance, hurries to my side.

"Sheath, what's wrong?" he asks.

I shake my head, "Nothing Felix."

He turns me around to face him, "Sheath, you know and I know that's a lie. Now tell me, why are you crying?"

"It's nothing, okay." I sigh, pulling out of his grip.

He folds his arms, "Sheath, come on. You know I don't like to see you like this."

"Please Felix, just let it be," I whimper, feeling my tears returning.

"Not until you tell me what's wrong," He says, stepping into my path.

I glare up at him, feeling the strings of my heart tearing with every strangled breath I take. "You want to know what's wrong?" I growl bitterly.

"Yes Sheath, I do."

"You're what's wrong," I snap, pushing him aside, "I need to get to class now, don't expect to see me after school. I need some time to think. Don't call me either."

I can feel his eyes boring into the back of my head, it is a terrible feeling. I can almost see the pain in his expression. Felix has already given up so much for me, and here I am being a bitch to him only weeks after we got together.

"Do you understand?" I mutter, not daring to turn around.

"Whatever." He growls.

I flinch; the tone of his voice carries a heavy curse. I know that it is going to be hard to make up for this, but I am telling the truth. I need some time. Too much is happening for me to keep up with. This is the only way I can be sure.

I sigh, looking at my feet and starting to walk away. I can feel his eyes boring holes into the back of my head all the way down the hall. As I leave I can't help thinking that I am the worst person in the world. Losing one guy and ditching another, all in one day, a truly pitiful circumstance.

Now all I can do is hope with all my being that Felix won't hold this against me. I've already experienced enough heartbreak losing two of my loved ones. I can't stand the idea of losing another. I know I'm not going to get off easily. I have hurt him, it is obvious, and when hurt, Felix isn't one to hesitate before making very final decisions...