Lonlyness and Stress
Loneliness an empty feeling when no ones around or available to talk to. Stress things and people, friends and family, and job hunting. These are two of the biggest things that make me who i am but also break me down. I am who I am no one else can change me but me.
Hello for those of u that don't know me i'm weredragonj if u are reading this then u have taken interest in apart of my personal life. The prologue that will be explained later on. For now hopefully any of you that read this will have a better understanding of me.
I am just a simple person but in a complex way i'm dependent in ways yet independent in others. I like being around people yet I don't some people see me as weird lazy and fat leecher others see me as kind hearted tactical smart and loving. My uncles see things differently then me. You see my mom me and my brother and sister can't afford a place of our own so we live with grandma whose had problems with her hip and back lately, and we had a bed bug problem. I know ewe gross they must be dirty people, but thats not the case we are quite clean in fact. The bed bugs came from my sisters dads place and we didn't know they had them. So one of my uncles after hearing that the doctors at the hospitable say they thought grandma had scabies. So he got pissed came over and took picture without consent, and said the place was diplorible "aka unable to be livable in if u don't know what that means" when we had just cleaned the place. After a while and a few family meetings with out the kids that lived in the home the extra people, aka my bros and sisters friends, was forced out of the house. got the garage cleaned up and stuff like that. Then I get complained to that I'm lazy that i need to get a job if i had a job my grandma would have been in a nursing home by now do to her not getting help,and this all from a pot head that wants to save face for not visiting over several months only times being here was to help pay for utilities. Then after a wile i start getting complained to about the very playfull and attention loving pit bull. My friend had to let stay in the house because she wanted to keep her but not being able to have her where she was moving into cause of dog racism. This dog is only scary to people that she doesn't know or react negatively to her. My uncle what her gone cause an accidental scratch on my grandmas chest from the dog keep in mind this dog loves attention. People to often miss judge this dog breed cause what they know from news like the bad things the stuff on the news is bad owners not the dogs the dogs just fallow the orders their given not to mention they are loyal dogs.
Well back to the topic.now being along i have no one to talk to release my stress making me feel loanly as i hardly get out and barely know my way around town. now we have the heat treatment done all that's left is to clean up. and get grandma's new bed in here. Well if u have read this far thank you for reading this the prologue was a way to introduce the writing as well as showing my definitions of the words. Thanks agin for reading and keep positive as long as you can.