I Don't Know How To Love
The following was my submission for Heat vol. 13. It was rejected due to the poem being too long and rambled. The following is the new rewrite after their notes. Hope you enjoy and have a nice day.
Forgive me for I don't know how to love.
You wouldn't think it would be that tough.
I've seen it in movies a thousand times.
I've heard it in songs a million times.
And yet when I'm sitting next to you.
My mind goes hazy.
My mouth goes mute.
Unfortunately, it reveals the uncomfortable truth.
I never had these feelings till I met you.
Who would of thought that of all species a husky
Could make a squirrel's heart beat so briskly.
If you asked me then I would think you were nuts.
Yet here I am resting in the warmth of your arms.
Cuddled around the TV like an electric fire.
Yet I cannot express my own heart's desires.
Forgive me for I don't know how to love.
Yet there are so many things about you I can think of.
The feeling of your paws wrapped around mine.
Brushing your grey fur is simply divine.
From up top with your narrow pointed muzzle
And who couldn't say no to that curly tail?
I remember the first time we kissed
And how awkward it was trying to meet each other's lips.
It ignited a spark that grew over time
Engrossing us in a heat as our bodies intertwined.
Exploring, embracing.
Rubbing, tracing.
Sharing each other with our primal passions.
And yet I can't express it through a simply interaction.
Forgive me for I don't know how to love.
I'm awkward. I'm shy.
A nerdy little prev sneaking quick peeks at other guys.
Till the day you crossed my eyes.
This squirrel has never shared himself with another
Showing them his hopes and desires.
Most before were a quick piece of tail
For some fun, and forgotten, as I hit up the next profile.
Then I saw you, another catch.
Yet in that one night you showed me
That you were more then just a silly little husky.
I saw a glimpse of a man who's kind and caring.
With little quirks, like your love for body piercings.
The more I saw the more I loved.
Sharing each other's perfections and flaws.
For the first time I've discovered
I'm in love.
Leading me to the conundrum I stated above.
I didn't know how to love
It's from a lack of experience
No fault of your own.
Thank a youth told to repress
Leading to one too many arguments
You've had plenty of times to leave me.
And you're friends wouldn't of disagree.
Yet you stay cause deep in you chest
You know you're teaching me to finally express.
Where this excuse will no longer be on repeat
Then I'll sweep you off your feet.
As I go down on my knee.
Trying not to trip over on my own tail with unease.
This squirrel is ready to make the dive
Cause you make me feel so alive.
In the end when I present the ring
I can't see a world without you and me.
Love for me use to be an unknown.
But today I can proudly say
I love you, darling.