Relapsed over you...
A troubled mind...
A love still possible, a reality so unkind...
Relapsed over you...
On the edge, at the height of the problem, answers are all I find
The reason I cemented in time has somehow began to unwind
Dividing the places & pieces I planted years ago
The blossoming of a forgotten beginning shakes dust to & fro
The beauty I had, that I left behind won't seem to leave my mind
It's aching now, the hole in my heart
I long to fill the time in-between, with a new part
Together, or awkwardly more than we need to be
I find it so unkind to know the only reasoning why it isn't so is up to me
To shatter trust, & break down barriers made for safety & security
I'm the farthest thing from a saint, but a monster I'll never be, yet now, if I do anything, it's solely out of self-pity
My mind racing in place, the point is at my end
Do I do what I want knowing I'll lose more than a friend
Dam it all, my body craves more than I have, & I only live once before I reach my final chapter
Let until then, ring a chime to sing through every rafter
I am, jus human, flaws, & all
Phone at the ready, number already dialed, I've made a call
Red rosy cheeks await my hands so shaky with guilt & lust
Cards on the table, game over.....it's a bust
Dam bodies that share such friction one may just become numb to tomorrow
Pay me no mind if I begin again to unwind, for now, I have time to borrow....
I won't ask for forgiveness, for what I know I'm doing, I wouldn't expect a bit
Jus let me know, with this game we play, when you'd like to quit
---Thanks for reading---
---Always---