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I open my eyes and yawn. My arms are stretched out for some reason. When my vision clears, I see him. I'm holding my best friend close to me. Hold on! What?! What am I doing? I haven't come out yet and yet I'm cuddling with him.

I met Wendell about seven years ago. Ever since I did, I've had a crush on him. What can I say? There's something about this cute grey wolf that I love.

I can't help but pull him in closer, out muzzles inches away from each other. I'm afraid that he'll wake up and see what I'm doing. After a few more minutes, he wakes up.

"Todd? What're you doing?" Wendell asks, clearly nervous. What do I say? I think fast.

"I don't know. I woke up like this." I say. I'm scared to death he's going to hate me now.

Wendell gets off the bed ad goes into the other room. I can't help but look at him while he leaves. He probably would never like a fox like me. I cover myself back up with the blanket, embarassed. When he walks back in, I blush a deep shade of red. My fur is orange so hopefully he doesn't notice.

"So," he starts out, "What did you want to do today?" Wendell sits down on the foot of the bed.

"N...Not sure." I say nervous. Does he hate me? Is he fine that another guy was cuddling with him?

"Everything okay?" Wendell asks, cocking his head to the side.

"Uh..." I say.

"Todd, I can tell something is bothering you. Tell me what's wrong?"

I sit up. He would understand right? He's not going to turn his back on me for who I am right?

"Well," I start out, unable to form the next words, "Can I... tell you something?"

"Sure. Anything."

"Well, remember when we first met?"

"Yes, I do."

"I've been lying to you since."

"What about?" Wendell clearly has a look of concern on his face. I still can't help but look straight into his beautiful blue eyes. I get lost in thought for a moment but then continue.

"I don't uh... I... I... I'm gay, Wendell." I say then quickly cover my eyes with the blanket, ashamed. I'm too scared to look at him now. Wendell reaches over and gently tugs the blanket off of my eyes, but it's too late, they're wet with tears.

"It's okay, Todd." he whisperes in a clam voice.

"No it isn't, you probably hate me now." I cover my eyes again with my paws.

"I don't hate you." he says. I can feel him putting an arm around me.

"But you always told me you were straight and I thought you'd want nothing to do with me if I told you who I was."

"No." Wendell says, "I don't hate you."

"You don't?" I uncover my eyes and look at him.

"No." he starts to blush himself. "To be honest, I'm not exactly uh... 100% straight..."

"What?" I ask. That's not true! Wendell has had three girlfriends in his life! Unless, he's not lying. Maybe he's bi. Would I be happy about that?

"Well, after we both got into high school, I... started to see you in a different way." he starts to get scared.

"Huh? How so?" I ask, trying to get him to continue.

"Well, I... I'm not gay exactly but I am a little bit... curious about... you." Wendell start to shake a bit, nervously.

"Curious?" I cannot believe what I'm hearing! "As in, you want to..."

"I'm not having sex, Todd. We're both only sixteen years old." he says before I could say it myself. It's a good thing too, plus it's a relief, I thought he was going to try to talk me into it.

"Ok." I say, "Well, if your curious, what're you curious about with me?"

"I... Ever since our Freshman year, I've wanted to see what another boy's kiss would feel like."

Did I hear that right? Wendell has wanted to kiss me for over two years?! I'm scared, yet thrilled at the same time.

"Did you want to kiss me?" I ask, shyly.

"Yes." Wendell nervously says, "May I?"

"Sure." I take his paw into mine and look into his eyes. "To be honest, ever since we met, I thought you were a cute wolf."

"Really?"

I nod in reply. I lean forward slowly and he does the same. When out muzzles meet, I close my eyes, taking it all in. I've wanted this for seven years and now that it's happening, I love it. I just hope Wendell feels the same way.

Wendell pulls away from the kiss and we stare at each other, both of us not saying a words. The kiss was amazing. Does he think it was?

"That was... uh... nice." Wendell says, breaking the silence.

"Really? I thought it was amazing." I say.

"Can I... do that again?" he asks, still scared.

"Always." I turn to face him and wrap my arms around him. Wendell does the same for me. We kiss again, this time it lasts longer. I run my paw up and down his back, and soon enough, I feel him doing the same. This goes on for a while before Wendell breaks the kiss again.

"I... I'm sorry." he says.

"For what?"

"For making you feel like you had to do that."

"Wendell, I've wanted this for years. The only thing you make me feel is passion... mostly for you."

"Are you saying you... love me?" when he asks, I nod. All he does is smile. I smile back. "Well, since we're being honest, when you woke up and I was in your arms, I purposely did that. I wanted to be cuddled by you badly."

"You did?"

"Yes, I wanted to know the feeling. And it felt amazing."

"I loved holding you. Do you always prefer being little spoon or...?"

"Sometimes." Wendell hugs me tight.

"Well, I'd do anything for you." I say hugging him back.

Wendell lays us both back down on the bed, still in each other's arms. He kisses me again, I kiss him back. I can't help but moan a bit into the kiss. I think I hear him do this same.

"I love you." I say in between kisses.

"I love you too." he says back.

This goes on forever, and I was hoping it would. When Wendell pulls away, he says: "Can I... pet you?"

"Ok." I lay down on my stomach. Next thing I knew, I feel his paw running across my back fur. This is a nice feeling. I rest my head in my arms, letting Wendell pet me. I've never had anyone do this before but, I'm glad that Wendell is the one doing so.

"Can I ask you something?" he asks.

"Sure."

"Did you ever want to be... like... boyfriends... or something?"

I turn my head to face him. "Yes." I say. Oh my! The thought of Wendell being more than friends with me has been something I've wanted to happend for a long time!

"Thank you." Wendell says with a huge smile, then kisses the top of my head.

"You're welcome." I say, then slowly drift back into sleep, with Wendell paws stroking me.