tears
#1 of tears
Sitting by the window The weather is eerie My stomach is churning The news i am awaiting is scary
My face is frozen by fear Played this moment time and time again But nothing can prepare you For the news i am about to ad-hear
I shake from the mental strain that takes form, On me making me feel the claustrophobia Its a terrifying feeling to experience Its a horrific thing to have relevance
Fingers scratching at the window As the rain pours upon the frame Clock stops as time slows for me And suddenly a feeling inside saying I'm to blame
I no this is normal thinking But could it really be That the call that couldn't come Was all because of me
I know its a silly thing to suggest But it buries me deep Gnaws at my heart and head Feeling sick now feeling weak
The clock moves and strikes the dead of twelve With ominous thuds My tears are suffocating my face And now I peer at my fears Begging for the call that couldn't come
I prayed, I cried, I screamed, I died To keep him here just for a few more days But the pain that he suffers is far to extreme Yet i still hold my head up in hope as i pray
I feel the choke hold upon my throat But nothing is there except my thoughts Its causing me nausea and sickness Its causing me to lose all face and hope
My heart races with so much panic and pain Knowing that daddy won't be coming home again But i can't see life without him I'm so afraid Do i really have to endure such a tragedy
My brow now sweats and my eyes close I see his face with a huge smile on his lips That gives me warmth inside my heart I wish to give my father just one last kiss
Suddenly there's a ring of the phone I feel the sudden shock the paralyzing effect It takes a hold of me i can't move My aunt answers the phone is it the news we all now expect
She mutters towards the receiver And there's a faint reply Helen my dear sister tell Emily That uncle Alan has died
I could see from her face That the news was broken My tears ran ever so faster i was shaking i was broken
Auntie Helen slowly places the phone Back down to the chair She looked at my innocent face And uttered the words that she couldn't bare
Sweetheart i have to speak to you Now please don't cry I'm for you darling But daddy has lost is life
He fought my dear with all is might So please don't be sad He fought all he could sweet Emily dear He was a very brave dad
Although Aunty Helen held my head high My face welled up deeper and deeper I had a stream of tears in my eyes I couldn't hold back any longer
The call that couldn't come Though i begged for its place I love you daddy always will I'll always remember the smiles upon your face.