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Ian p.o.v

Friday and the weekend go by rather quickly, with Merissa and I hanging out watching Soul Eater and Naruto together. I finally got Avi out of the acquaintance zone, and I declared him a friend Saturday night. We're becoming rather close, as he is the only person I can confide in. Well I could confide in Merissa but I don't want us to break up over something so stupid. I'm supposed to go over to his house this evening, so he can help me with language arts, and so that I can help him out with math. The images from my daydream in the bath Wednesday come back to me, and I have second thoughts about going to his house. What if he seduces me to have sex with him? I quickly shake my head, thinking about Avi's friendly character and how he wouldn't seduce me to get intimate with him. The doubt is still there though.

The clock changes from 2:09 to 2:10, and the bell rings right on time dismissing us from 7th period, and thus ending the school day. I run and go find Merissa hanging out with our friends, and as usual they're talking about bands. I cut into the commotion and tell them that Avenged Sevenfold is the best band hands down, then I pick up Merissa and carry her to her bus. "So is this the way you're going to carry me at our wedding?" she asks grinning. Immediately a thought struck my head that I might not marry her (hell I'm a freshman for crying out loud), or a woman for that matter. Apparently my facial expression matched my thoughts as Merissa gave me a concerned look. I give her a warm smile and answer, "No I'll more than likely carry you like this." I pick her up and place her on my shoulders. "My queen deserves to sit on a throne, all high and mighty above all, milady." The girls are looking at Merissa and I in awe, the guys in sheer jealousy, and the administrators give me a dirty look but I blow them off. We finally arrive at her bus and I let her down, both of us grinning, and then I go in for the kiss. She leans in and our lips meet, our tongues are dancing with one another for a couple of seconds before her bus driver tells me to skedaddle. There's something about that kiss that felt...weird. It doesn't feel the same as a month ago, like it's less pleasurable. I either want more, which I consciously don't, or I'm losing attraction to her, which god forbid I am.

I get on the bus and immediately and play Diamonds Aren't Forever by Bring Me the Horizon, because I cannot fathom the ignorance my fellow neighbors like to put on display. I finally get home and when I walk in with only one thing on my mind, sleep. Granted I just got through listening to a song that says that sleep is for the weak, Oli and the band ended up asleep at the end of the music video, so it's not like law or anything. I sense that nobody is home and realized that both of my parents are at work, and my sister is still at school, so an idea creeps into my mind. I instantly go upstairs and grab bottle of lotion and some Kleenex, and get on my laptop. Yea I may only do this every once in a while, but the only reason I'm doing it today is so that I won't have the urge to have sex with Avi. I pull up a porn site I usually go to when I want to masturbate, and I arrive at the conclusion that I should go to the gay side of the site, just to see if the fantasies are as good as they seem in my dreams. Twenty minutes and a few Kleenexes later my theory proved true, I had a better and faster orgasm than when I masturbate to straight pornography. I clean up and exit the incognito window then I strip into my underwear and hit the hay.

I awake two hours later and put my clothes back on. I look at my blinking phone and see that I got a text from Avi, asking if I'm ready to study with him. I text him telling him that I'll be over there at five giving me thirty-five minutes to eat and to charge my phone. I hear my sister's bus stop, and I go walk downstairs unlock the front door. A few minutes later she enters and I greet her. She says hi back, and then she drops off her backpack on the couch. She walks over to the pantry and grabs a granola bar as I fish out yesterday's spaghetti from the fridge. As I fix myself a serving of spaghetti, my sister is going on about how terrible her Georgia history teacher is. It's Georgia history for Pete's sake. If that isn't bad enough I don't know what is. As I hear her rant about the Missouri Compromise and the Mason-Dixon Line, the microwave dings, meaning my spaghetti is ready to be eaten. I wolf down my linner (Merriman should add that to his dictionary) and chug a glass of milk, then I walk upstairs and prepare for Avi and I's study session. I gather my binders and some pens and pencils and place them in my gym bag. I walk over to my bed and look at my charging phone to check the time and battery percentage. It's 4:53 and my phone is on 62%, with Avi sending me a text that he was on his way. Three minutes later my doorbell rings and sure enough, it's him. Allison comes and introduces herself to Avi, then looks at me with sly grin. "Have fun you two," she says, then shuts the door cackling. Avi and I glance at one another for a quick second, and then we burst out laughing. "Your sister is weird," he remarks. "A severe case of eight grade syndrome, if I do say so myself," I reply. "Since when did you become a doctor?" he asked, beaming. "Since my sister was born," I answer back, punching him softly on the shoulder.

We walk to his car and enter the backseat, with me saying hello to Natalie. We drive to his house, talking about a wide variety of things before we finally arrive at his house. We get out the car and he grabs my hand, rushing inside and bolting upstairs with me dragging behind him to show me his room. "And welcome to my humble abode," he says cheerfully. I look around and I'm impressed by what I see. His room is bigger than mine, and I can see that he has a queen sized bed in the back center of his room, followed by a dresser with a 50" flat screen television standing on top of it. Alongside his flat screen is his Xbox with his controller sitting next to it with both units on, and every single Call of Duty game for Xbox 360 is stacked neatly against the Xbox with some gamefly games as well.. On his wall are posters of basketball players along with some dubstep bands I recognize. There's a desk on the next to the dresser cluttered with junk, and his closet is rather filled with more junk, making me guess that he stuffed everything in there before I came in there. "Nice room," I comment. "Thanks," he replies with a warm smile.

We crack open our books and start with math first since it's the easiest to teach. We go over how to solve a system of equations and a quadratic formula. I successfully drilled how to complete a quadratic formula equation in his head; however he was still struggling with the systems of equations. After twenty minutes of trying to teach him how to solve a systems of equations formula my patience fairly thin, and I suggested a new idea. "You have a Ti-84 right?" I ask him, hoping he says yes. He goes over to his backpack and fishes it out. "Considering how you don't understand this I decided to show you a shortcut method my sophomore friend in pre-calc showed me." I introduce him to matrices and how to solve a system of equations using an augmented matrix and rref on the calculator. Within the first explanation he got it and he could finally solve it. As a celebration we went downstairs and went over to the fridge, where Avi pulled out a pitcher of lemonade and some cookies that his mom had made. We poured the lemonade into two cups and grabbed two cookies before we sat down at the table. We sit there, looking at one another, and laughing at each other while trying to eat our cookies. Natalie comes in and asks what we're laughing at, and we both reply in unison, "Nothing!" We look at each other and laugh again and Natalie sighs with a grin on her face, "Boys will be boys." Meanwhile Merissa texts me asking me what I'm doing, and I tell her that I'm over at Avi's house studying.

Merissa: You've really warmed up to him, haven't you? ;)

*Me: It's not my fault! You know how I am I try to act cold-hearted, but in the end I ending up warming to the person. *

Merissa: You know I'm just teasing you snuggly puff. Tell him I said hey will you?

Me: Anything for you pumpkin. I gotta go we're finally going to work on my essays.

Merissa: Oh thank god, you can write to save your life! I'll see you later :*

Avi and I go back upstairs and prepare to get started working on my diction. "By the way Merissa said hey," I tell him. "Tell her I said hey and that she still owes me a bag of skittles!" he replies. I give him a look then pull out last weeks' argument essay. He goes over the basic structure of the introductory paragraph, telling me how I need to have an introductory sentence, then my three part thesis, and finally my so what sentence. So I do what he says and he approves of it, and he pulls out a list of Ms. Jameson's nono words. "Now I want you to rewrite your introductory paragraph while also getting rid of the words on this list, and also get on dictionary.com and use the thesaurus to get rid of these baby words." I do what he says and ten minutes later I craft a paragraph that he finds optimal. Then he goes on and tells me how to write a body paragraph. "First you need your topic sentence, then you need your evidence, then a commentary sentence, a so what sentence, and finally, a concluding sentence." So I begin writing and this time it takes me longer to write, a whole thirty minutes, because I simply do not wish to rewrite the paragraph again. He praises me and tells me that that is the basic structure for all our essays.

When we finally finish I pack my things up, and Avi asks if he wants to 1v1 me in black ops 2. I agree and hop up onto his bed when I feel something sticky on my feet. I reach for it and pull out a dirty Kleenex with a white sticky substance I presumed is semen. I glance at Avi and he looked at me, his face red with embarrassment. I get up to throw the dirty tissue away when Avi spins me around and looks me dead in the eye. "I only did it as a precaution so we didn't do anything foolish while you were here," he says in a dispirited tone. I look back at him and reply to him, "I did the same thing earlier as well." "Really?" he asks. "Yea I had the same fear you have," I answer. "Had?" he asks, but without warning and my conscious decision I'm on top of him making out with him furiously. What the hell am I doing?!