Finding Sanity. Chapter 1
#1 of Finding Sanity (chapters)
Just a story I have been working on. Nothing big so I decided to post it on here.
You know that feeling you get when you know you have completely lost control? Not just of your life, of yourself? That cold deep fear that pierces you to the very bone and forcibly takes your breath away? That's what I felt when my brother had me committed to this asylum. Happy Acres is what it's called, but it's everything but "happy." Here, they lock you in cages. They drug you til you can't move or scream. Sometimes it doesn't work, though, and you can still hear the screams of patients within the walls at any time. Here, you don't think for yourself, and even though you hope that any day you'll be getting out of this hell, you know it's only wishful thinking. They'll never let us out of here.
You know, I wasn't always like this. Jacob only had me committed because I was simply tired of living. Apparently that qualifies for being "mentally incompetent" as they called me. I even have a file now, though I have no idea what it says. They don't let us look because they think that it would corrupt us, keep us from getting well again. Most of the asylums have phones so you can talk to your family and friends, but not this one. You are allowed to only write letters, always read and approved to be sent by the orderlies, then sent to administration to be reread and approved. No one wanted their dirty little secrets getting out.
"You know you're never getting out of here." A voice behind me stated. I whip around to find Selene sitting on my bed. Her dark brown fur shining in the light. Her olive green eyes and elegant silk fur were enough to drive any male crazy, which is the reason she was in here. Apparently promiscuity is a reason to be claimed mentally incompetent too.
"How do you know?" I asked, irritably.
"Because they haven't let me out yet." The wolf replied knowingly.
"I've was here three months before you got here" I replied, looking at her in annoyance, "Why are you even in my room anyway? I thought I told you to never talk to me again."
"I don't understand why you said it, so I didn't listen"
"I said it because the doctors said that I shouldn't talk to you. You know I really want to get out of here one day, so I prefer listening to them."
"Hope, if you honestly think that they're gonna let you go then you're stupider than I thought"
"Stupider isn't a word, dumbass"
"Whatever," Selene huffed, "I'm out of here"
I rolled my eyes as she stomped out of my room, leaving the door open. I promptly walked over and slammed it shut. Selene could be so childish at times. Then again, she was only a child, only being seventeen. She came into Happy Acres completely unnoticed, everyone just seemed to pass by here like she wasn't even there at all. Though, she did take to me pretty quickly, which meant getting me into as much trouble as possible. We were completely different in every way, where she was a higher class purebred, I stayed within the lower class mutts. We weren't even the same species, I was a fox, not a wolf. Our classes weren't even supposed to communicate. Though I guess when you're locked in a looney bin high and low class didn't matter. I didn't see here around as much, yet she still stopped by every now and then to torment my thoughts, sometimes going as far as to reach me in my dreams. There was something completely odd about her, but I didn't want to do the digging to see what it was. Not yet, anyway.