Born To Be A Warrior.
My moment of weakness. My moment of strenght. My question to the world. (or at the very least this fandom) I think that everyone deserves to know that what they do is apprciated if you think so, say it, don't keep it in, say it to that person, becuse most people.
So it's not really a poem, but I don't know. It's a expression of my feelings, I could call it toiletpaper and you would just have to dig it.
Born To Be a Warrior.
"It was so close so many times." Mom says sometimes, all about how I was meant to survive and that there was a meaning with it. That I was special. That I was meant for something big. But if I' am special and meant for something big, why do I feel so small and insignificant?
Why does it feel like I'm just someone who people walk away from?
I who felt Death's cold touch on my forehead.
I who couldn't even breathe on my own when I was born.
I who extubated myself.
I who was a born warrior from the start.
I fought for my life every day for months, and didn't even know what I was fighting for. A life worth living maybe.
I know it's not true that people just walk away from me and forget about me, I know that, but despite that fact it's hard sometimes to not feel ignored.
And I feel guilty because of it, that I require attention and approval left and right so it stops me from sulking. Is that anyway for a born warrior to act? Is it anyway for a good, honest human being to act? Am I doing something wrong? What right do I have to do it?
I often joke about it, but it seems to be a real issue with me, and I apologize.
All I ask of you is to please don't log off directly when I leave a comment or stops to say "Hi." Or ask about how your day has been. Please don't grow angry with me if I ask too many questions.
I'm just trying to be human, just trying to acknowledge you and hopes that you can do the same for me in return. I don't need it every day.
Is acknowledgement so wrong to desire?
Don't we all need it in some way? Doesn't feel nice when someone says "Good job!" Or "This was so awesome!"
I don't believe that a lot of what I do is nice or even remotely good most of the time, so that's why I love it when I get responses from other people. That's why I literally beg for
comments ever time. Like a harlot who begs for money. I guess it's my way of coping with myself. My way of surviving.
I know some people are going to call me an attention seeker.
I frankly don't care.
I have never gone with the current, and I don't feel like starting now. Only dead fish swims with the current, anyway.
And I'm no dead fish.
I'm a crazy Viking warrior.
Wolftwins17.