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I tossed the pamphlet aside and picked another one to read. The national results were about to be released and I have yet to decide on the path to take as my tertiary education. Picking out a college was pretty difficult... choosing a course to take was another issue. I don't know if my grades were good enough to enter them since they weren't even released yet. I sighed as I reminded myself that I don't really have a dream of my own. I never had a dream career... I just went with the flow, thinking that some form of inspiration would come by one day, but now it was almost time to decide and I still had no clue.

"Still looking at it?" Jo whispered in my ear, rolling his seat over as his arms crept up from behind and pulled me close. Ever since that day where we mated each other, the grey wolf has been more... physical. It was almost as though he really couldn't keep his hands off me. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be worried, but I am. I'm afraid this would be what people call the "honeymoon period". It wasn't that he was being this affectionate only now, but... maybe I am still not confident enough that he would stay? The sex was great that day, yes, but surely there was more? We haven't done anything on that note since and I'm a little scared that he's secretly wanting for more. I don't know how he got me into the mood that day, and I don't know if he had been trying to get me into the mood.

"Yeah, I still can't decide what to study. Maybe I should start by picking the college first," I sighed as I rested on my wolf, trying my best to silence the thoughts, "There're not many options for colleges to me. My parents can't afford to put me abroad." I felt him squeeze a little tighter as he said, "Doesn't matter... so long as we're going to the same college." I reached up to stroke his cheek, as he continued before I could say anything, "I know you would want me to go pursue my studies even if it means going abroad, but... I'm pretty sure I can't. I won't be able to do it without you. Imagine, four years apart with a long distance relationship? On top of that going to a foreign school alone?" he asked as he looked down at my eyes, "I can't do it."

"I would feel guilty if I were to hold you down though. It sounds painful but it's your future. You shouldn't just give up opportunities for me... you should know that by now," I said quietly, "Perhaps there are more to see out there, more people to know. You might not want to tie yourself down to me... like settling down."

I watched as Jo frowned a little at me. He took a deep breath as he waited before asking, "I-Is something wrong?" the grey wolf gulped. I gathered my thoughts while watching his fur shift along with the breeze. "The other time when I met up with Jasmine and the gang," I said slowly, "They talked about their relationships. I didn't say anything about us, I just listened. But the thing is... do you believe in what they call the honeymoon period?"

I felt my grey still tensed up as he nodded, "Do you?"

"You do?" I asked, slightly surprised, "I'm not sure though." My heart sank slightly because if he believed in that, then maybe our relationship would be... prone to changes? I don't know...

"What do you mean?" Jo prodded.

"I always thought every relationship is unique and dynamic," I said, trying to piece out my thoughts, "Not so stagnant with a fixed amount of stages or what not. Maybe I'm just being silly to think like that... or that I don't want to face the so called next stage?"

"Is that it?" he asked, "You're just afraid we start arguing every day? That I won't be as affectionate?" I nodded and whispered, "And that you might find someone better."

I regretted immediately as his expression changed. He let out a large breath as he eased himself away from me and stood up, folding his arms and face away, unable to look at me. I bit my lip as I tried to salvage the situation. "I... I just felt that you've been extra touchy after that day. I'm afraid you would get bored of me. I just don't know how to be as affectionate as you are to me," I confessed. I gulped as I looked down, unsure if I was making things worse or not. It was not that I wanted to keep secrets from him, but things like that are hard to confess. I just don't want to hurt him or spoil the mood, but...

I blinked as I hoped that I didn't make him angry, even though he was rarely mad at me. I felt him turn my seat around to face him. I timidly looked up at him to find his muzzle looking... tired? Disappointed? Sad?

"Typh," he sighed as he wiped his muzzle with his paw, "I'm angry, frustrated, and that's for sure. But... I'm not exactly not at fault." He used a leg to pull his seat over and sat down. He took my paws in his, "I'm partially at fault for making you feel that way. I didn't know I'm giving you such insecurity. I don't know how it happened but I'm glad you brought it up."

Then he gripped my paws harder as he growled, "But never, ever think that I'm gonna leave you." I swallowed the growing lump on my throat. I felt like a kid being reprimanded, but I guess I deserved it for thinking like that. I nodded mutely in response.

"The honeymoon phase or whatever crap doesn't work here," Jo said sternly, "We're not just going through a relationship. Our relationship is different from them. We have our fair share of arguments and disagreements throughout these times. It's just that they were easily solved. I'm not just after your looks or body anymore, and I've known you as a person since... forever."

"B-but you said you believed..." I said before he interrupted, "I... might have lied on that one..." The grey wolf looked unsure and a little embarrassed, "Because I thought for a moment that you..." he coughed, "Don't laugh okay?" I tilted my head in curiosity as he blushed and continued with a whisper, "I thought you wanted to break up with me because you think that we had a honeymoon period and it was over."

I raised my eyebrow and gave him the 'You're kidding me?' look. "Looks like I'm not the only insecure one," I pointed out, "But why would I break up with you? You're good looking, smart, strong... one fine specimen of a male wolf. There're so much things to love about you... I must be crazy to let my silver shining knight go."

He smiled and reached for my cheek, "And you are also my everything. So never doubt my love for you again. There is no one else that I'd rather be with. You are not tying me down, Typh. I'm factoring you in my decisions simply because you are a part of my life. Sure I might neglect a bright prospect or two, but at least I'm with you. For all you know you might do well better than me. Would you leave me then?"

I looked away as I answered, "Even if I did very well, my family can't afford for me to go far. But to answer your question, I don't think I would be able to leave you too."

Jo let out a wide grin and barked, "Great! Now you understand me. So stop pushing me away into a foreign land and ask me to find someone better." Jo rubbed the back of my palms with his thumbs, and said, "There is always someone better out there and the comparisons are never ending. That's why it is impossible for me to go out and find the best. I don't care how you think about yourself, but I just want you. It is just as simple as that."

"I don't care what people say about relationships," Jo said as he looked into my eyes once more, "They have no say in ours, and I would never forget how hard I fought to be with you. We might be young, but we've been through quite a bit to be together."

I felt shy as I listened to him. It was pretty mushy but that was how Jo behaves. "I'm sorry," I said sheepishly. When life catches up on you, we tend to take things for granted. It was bad of me to forget about how far we came since the day I came out to him, what horrors we have been through. To brush it aside and be unsure of our relationship was pretty scumbag of me. How am I ever going to be worthy of this man in front of me? He didn't even flare up or shown any form of rage. Such a big heart for this big wolf...I felt so guilty and made my ears droop.

"Baby?" the grey wolf asked as he traced a paw along my cheekbone, "Typh please don't be sad, there's nothing wrong."

I don't know if Jo was making things worse or not. It's like he was too nice for me. I shook my head as I tried to drown those stupid thoughts. I have to be stronger than that. I should be contented that he was a nice person and shouldn't hope otherwise. "You're right," I said as I stood up to sit on his lap. Jo's eyes widen slightly as he back down a little. "There may be someone better out there, but I only want you," I said as I leaned forward to lick him on the nose, "I don't know exactly what you see in me, but I don't care about that so long as you are mine. You're so perfect."

Jo blushed red and looked away, "Y-y-you flatter me," he stuttered. I always found it confusing that Jo being a confident big wolf would shy at compliments. At least he was a modest man... I guess it was a good thing so that he won't have an inflated ego. My grey wolf coughed, changing the subject, "Should touch you less often? If you're uncomfortable with that I can stop. I didn't realise it actually... It was kind of an instinct."

I smiled at him as I was reminded how much of a horndog he was. "I don't know," I said as I rested my paws on his chest, "I just thought you only wanted more sex... You started being touchy after that day and we haven't done anything since."

Jo blushed even harder apologising, "Sorry..." He rested his head between my collarbones. I giggled as I felt his muzzle warm with all the blood rush. "But honestly, is that really the case?" I asked.

The grey wolf nodded very slowly. "I admit a part of me wants more," he said, voice muffled as he spoke into my fur, "I know I have a high sex drive, but can you really blame me? We're at the peak of our youth man..."

"Maybe I should start stepping up tending to your... needs," I chuckled and whispered in his ears. "T-tease..." Jo said softly, "B-but it's okay, I don't want you to feel that our relationship focus on sex. Besides, we rarely have the opportunity to fool around... We're still living with our parents."

I cupped my hands on his muzzle and made him look at me. "Really?" I asked, "I see... You know, sometimes I get worked up and horny too... But I don't know how to tell you. I know I might look as though I have no sex drive, but I'm actually just as male as you are. We're actually very disciplined with our hormones... one would expect much action with double the amount of testosterones. It's just that I hide it better than you do." I winked at my wolf and he gulped. I don't know how this works but it seemed apparent that I was sexually dominant. Maybe I do have to be the one initiating it. Who would ever know that my big strong wolf was such a sub? And for some reason it was turning me on.

Jo blinked a few times, soaking in the information, "W-well, I kind of suspected as much. But please don't be shy about asking things from me. We've already done it before... There's nothing that you can't ask from me," he said. I wondered if he was hinting that I should be the one initiating. "Er," he continued a little louder this time while scratching his head, "I was thinking... the next time I could, you know... have a go?"

I was genuinely confused when I replied, "At what?" Jo and I did many things together and I'm not really sure which one he was pointing at. The grey wolf bit his lip and said, "Y-you know... be on the riding end?" I let out a wide grin as I realised what he meant, "I love it when you're being bashful. I never expected you to be quite the submissive one," I said.

"I-I don't know," Jo said meekly, "Maybe it's this whole Alpha thing... and I've wanted to... take a ride since forever. I didn't expect our first to be you taking it though... I cleaned up thinking you would be the one... Well, but I loved it, because for some reason you were still in control."

"Interesting, I never thought I would be the leading one though... I find myself to be a more... versatile kind of person. As much as I find you cute when you're being bashful, I do want to have another go sometime, but with you fully in control, rendering me helpless," I said as I slowly grinded my rump on his lap a few times before I stopped. I didn't have to look to know that my healthy grey wolf was probably sporting a huge bulge below. His breathing became more rapid as I continued, "Well, I guess we have the time of our lives to work out and... spice things up."

I guess my hormones were taking over my mind by now; I licked his neck as he moaned my name. I remembered that day when he took me, leaving me aching and sore, but it was worth for every bit of pleasure it gave. This strong muscular wolf, all mine to enjoy. His sweet whimpers only spurred me on. "T-Typh, t...the door is unlocked," he gasped. It was tempting to just ignore him but I don't want to know what happens if we got caught.

I stood up to the door and locked it before moving over to open all the windows. The musk and hormones were dense in the room and I decided to ventilate the room... just in case. I sat down on my bed, clearing up my mind by breathing the air from the outside. Jo stood up unsurely, sporting a proud tent in his pants. "We should head over to your house more often," I joked. Jo sighed and agreed in defeat. There was never any form of privacy in my own house. My mom won't let us lock the doors ever. Closing the door was pretty much the limit. Bathroom was pretty much out too because my mom has yet to know about us being together and popping out of the bathroom together was as good as locking up my own door. Maybe if we want to risk it though...

Jo moved to quietly unlock the door. I guess we would have to hold back this time. It was a little awkward but Jo adjusted his pants and smiled. "Do you want to get outta here?" I asked, "We could make Jin meet us earlier anyway."

Jo sighed but maintained his smile, "Oh well, I suppose it is fine. A little walk to make the blood run elsewhere seems like a good idea to me."

"I'm sorry... maybe I should just tell her about us," I sighed, guilty for teasing him yet again. Jo hopped over and pulled me up. "I don't think it would make a difference," Jo said smiling under the sunshine, "I doubt my parents would want to walk into us fooling around either. I'm not mad that your parents don't know, okay?"

"You are just perfect," was all I could summarise about this wondrous wolf in front of me. "So are you," Jo said, beaming with delight, "Get changed."

He hopped onto my bed and propped his head up using his elbow, lying down like a model posing for some photoshoot. I couldn't help but laugh at him. "Go on, do a strip tease while you're at it," he joked, "Like this?"

He gave me a hungry look while kissing his left bicep. His other paw reached down slowly to pull up a little of his shirt, exposing the grey fur with his abs outline underneath. Jo might not be lean enough to be an underwear model, but he was still god damn sexy. I watched in both excitement and horror because for all I know my mom could just burst through my door and watch the same show. I quickly tore off my shirt, balled it up and tossed at him, making him stop his seductive poses and laugh. He grabbed my shirt and brought it up to his muzzle, giving it a deep whiff. "Oh stop it you," I said. He just laughed harder as I changed quickly, knowing that he was watching me this whole time.

"What's wrong with me wanting your scent?" Jo asked as he covered his whole muzzle with my shirt. I reached out to grab it off and he chuckled, rising up from the bed. I smacked him in the butt and gave his firm rump a squeeze while at it, making the grey wolf jump in surprise. "Enough fooling around," I grinned, "let's go, naughty boy."

"H-hey! That's not fair!" Jo called out as he followed me, rubbing his butt cheek where my paw had landed earlier.

I suppose we just can't get enough of each other.