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"I fricking hate you." [Ted]

We had just finished playing Cosmic Encounter, and I'd beat both Ted and Alex at it. Hardcore. Same for Sheriff of Nottingham, King of Tokyo, and Ted's DC deck building game. Apparently I have a knack for table top games.

"Oh, come on! It's not my fault you got a bad hand." [Me]

"Dude, you're cheating. You are somehow cheating." [Alex]

"I'm not cheating!"

"I was just kid-"

"Seriously, there's gotta be some game you aren't good at." [Ted]

"I don't know any of the games in that stack, so probably." [Me]

"What about Settlers of Catan?" [Alex]

"Sure."

"Why not-" The door suddenly opened, revealing Kathryn behind it.

"Hey, mom wants you guys to come downstairs and socialize." She left the room and Ted just kinda sighed and we followed him downstairs where a bunch of guys were standing around watching a football game. They all looked like they were in their forties or fifties, and were all giving me questioning looks and glances. I hid behind Ted and Alex as we sat down on the couch, bored and not really paying any attention to the game. For a few minutes, we sat there undisturbed, when we heard the voice that I feared could give me nightmares.

"Hey, Ted! You guys should come play legos with me!" [Tim]

"Urgh, go away, Tim!" [Ted]

"Mom said you have to be nice to me."

"Hey, Tim, we don't wanna play right now, maybe later." [Alex]

"Psh- WOAH!!! You have pentagrams on your body!" Tim got wide eyed when his attention was brought to me. He also said this so loud that I think everyone in the room heard. I blushed and hid my head between my arms and legs, curling up into a ball on the couch. I also pulled my beanie as far down as I could, and tucked my ears down underneath it. It wasn't comfortable, but I didn't care.

All the adults in the room were going to hate me. They'd question and despise, argue and complain, and slowly my fears got the better of me. I felt my eyes water, a clenching in my chest, and my nose starting run a little. Within a minute I was crying, and couldn't help but think about why everyone hates me.

It's not like I ever do anything wrong! I try my best to fit in, and I try my best to make people like me! I hope I'm a good friend, I don't do wrong to anybody or go behind their backs... Does it show? Do I seem too nice? I hope not, if so, than I could be a little more mean to seem normal. But, what if I act too mean and push everyone away when I so badly need friends! If I don't have friends, then no one likes me, and my life will go back to how horrible it was before!

But no body likes me anyways. They just say they do. The only reason Ted's being nice is because he feels like he has to be nice. Same for Alex. He doesn't actually think I'm cute, he thinks I'm a monster. No, he KNOWS I'm a monster. Because that's what I am. A worthless, horrible, demonic hell spawn that should've been killed at birth.

I deserve to die. For being-

I suddenly felt someone's hand on my back, and heard the comforting voice of Ted, "Seth, it's okay." I pulled myself out of my hidey hole and latched onto him. He held me, and kept me safe from my own nightmarish thoughts. Telling me it's okay, and holding me, and just... I didn't feel hated when he did this.

I don't really remember what all happened, but I awoke with someone's arms around me, buried under sleeping bags. Ted! I felt my chest clench up again, and I'm not really sure why. I kinda ground myself back into him, and he held me tighter and pulled me closer. It felt so nice, and I didn't mind the extra heat from his mountain of sleeping bags. His breath felt warm and soft on my neck, and his entire body was radiating heat like an oven.

It slowly dawned on me that my gut was gnawing at itself and it started to hurt like hell. I must not have eaten lunch or dinner the day before, but I wasn't going to get up until Ted did. I wanted to savor this moment. I didn't move beyond getting closer to him, and I slowly started to feel something bumping into my tail. Wait a minute, that's his...

Oh who cares. It's not like I'm getting a boner or anything, and he's so comfortable... It deosn't matter. I ground myself deeper into him, specifically in the crotch to see his reaction, and I noticed it got harder and he moaned a little bit. I tipped my head back, and saw his eyes wide open.

I whispered to him, "Really?"

"W-what?"

"Don't play dumb with me."

"What are you talking about?"

"This." I ground my butt into his crotch, and he pulled me close and tight, grinding it into my butt.

"So what if I have a boner. You don't seem to mind."

"Heh heh, not at all-"

We both got wide eyed when we heard Alex's voice outside the sleeping bags, "You guys know I can hear both of you perfectly well, right?"

Ted pulled me in closer and tighter to him, and it felt almost like a crushing force, but I loved it to no end. The sleeping bags suddenly lifted up for us to see Alex glaring at us. The room outside was pretty dark, but Ted also had blinds, and curtains, AND shutters on his window, so light couldn't get in at all.

"What time is it?" [Ted]

"Ten." [Alex]

"Oh..."

"Wait, really?" [Me]

"Yes. You've been laying in his fat arms for nearly twenty four hours and it's starting to get on my nerves." [Alex]

"You're just jealous that I get to hold him and you don't." [Ted]

"Yeah, I'm not gonna deny it, I kinda am."

"Well you weren't sitting next to me when Tim pointed out my pentagrams to everyone." [Me]

"Uhh..." [Ted]

"Actually, the reason he noticed them was because I was sitting next to you. I was going to go grab you one of my blankets and cuddle up with you, but I came back to see Ted cradling you." [Alex]

"Wait, what?" [Me]

"Well how would a blanket help him?" [Ted]

"It'd hide the beauty that he thinks is an affliction." [Alex]

"That's..." [Me]

"Nicer than what he did? Yes, it is. And then I come back to see he stole you from me." He looked at Ted and glared at him, then said the most disturbing thing I have ever heard him or anyone say in my entire life.

"Now, I'm going to back stab you worse than you did to me. One day, I'm going to slip a blade between your ribs, deep into your heart, and twist it, tearing every tenden and muscle in that cold, void like place that pumps your blood. And you'll feel pain so excruciating that you'll beg for mercy." Alex dropped the sleeping bags, and I heard Ted begin to wimper. His grip tightened and he buried his head in my neck and under my jaw line, wimpering and cowering in fear from Alex, who was officially insane. Seriously, who comes up with that shit on the spot?! That's terrifying as fucking hell!

So, about half an hour after being absolutely terrified by Alex, we all went down stairs and followed Ted to the kitchen, where five or six women and one man were rushing around trying to prepare as much food as conceivably possible.

A female otter stopped and came around the island, "Hey, I made scones for breakfast. They're in a basket on the dining room table with the jam and honey. Help yourselves."

"Okay, thanks mom." Ted turned around and we followed him to the dining room, where Kathryn and her friend were sitting around talking while they ate.

"... Seriously, Jess, you should dump him." [Kathryn]

"I would, but- Oh, hey Teddy!" [Jess, apparently]

"Could you guys not call me that?" [Ted]

"Okay, I'm your older sister, I'm entitled to embarrasing you, especially since mom won't." [Kathryn]

"Please don't."

"I don't know, watching you feel horribly embarrased and suffer might be enjoyable." [Alex]

We both just starred at him, terrified of the dark monster that had been lurking in the shadows all this time.

"Wait, what?" [Jess]

"I don't know, he went like totally berserk and started saying things like that." [Ted]

"You know why I'm doing this." [Alex]

"Oh, right, you're jealous of Ted because he got to hold me and you didn't." [Me]

"No, I'm pissed off at him because he stole my chance to hold you!" [Alex]

"Alex, calm down, it's no big deal." [Ted]

"Wait, are all three of you gay?" [Jess]

"Yes." [Alex]

"No." [Ted]

"Arguably." [Me]

"No, Ted's not gay. He just hasn't hit the point where he's interested in girls yet." [Kathryn]

"Oh he's interested alright." [Alex]

"Alex, stop. You're being a jerk." [Me]

Alex's eyes widened momentarily as if he realized something. He looked down and I didn't hear a word out of him for the rest of the day. We ate, played a few table top games, then had a massive Thanksgiving dinner that made three of us feel awkward and alone. Tim was too young to be worth while talking to, and that's how everyone else felt about us. Dinner was over in an hour, and we went back to playing table top games.

Thanksgiving was over as soon as it had come, with everyone bustling to get out the door in the morning. Me and my parents checked out a few places around town to see if there were any good houses for sale. Of course, there were, and that's what made it difficult for my parents. I still didn't care.

I thought everything was going pretty good, and me and Ted would just need to clear stuff up with Alex, but that thought died when I enterred the dorm. Laying on the couch, were Ted and Alex. Cuddling, hugging, and smiling at each other. I felt another clenching in my chest and thought I might be having a heart attack.

"Oh, hey Seth." Ted sat up and backed away from Alex, looking guilty as hell. So did Alex.

"Hey..." [Me]

"Umm... Look, I'm sorry-"

"No, it's okay. It's just... I thought Alex was supposed to backstab you, not me."

"Seth, I'm sorry. I really am."

"It's not his fault anyways, it just sort of happened." [Alex]

"But my question is what all did happen." [Me]

"I don't know..."

"Something just... clicked." [Ted]

"Oh. Well, that answer totally makes sense. I'm gonna go play PC games until I die now." I spun around on mmy heel and vanished into my room, hoping that this would all be over as soon as this stuff usually was.

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I am currently standing in the bathroom, looking at the bottle of bleach in front of me. Alex and Ted were banging on the door, trying to coax me out of this. Confused? Let me explain.

It all began with Alex and Ted falling in love. Did I mind? Not really, but what got to me was that it felt like they were rubbing it in my face. For two weeks, they'd been together, cuddling, hugging, choosing not to kiss until some incredibly romantic moment that I almost prayed would never come.

So earlier today I admitted to my hatred, and vocalized it. For some reason they were shocked, as if they didn't know I hated it. I told them death's better than life, and bolted from our last class to the dorm. They got there seconds after I did, but it was enough time to close and lock the bathroom door.

The smell of the bleach was horrible to say the least, but I'd drink the whole bottle if I had to.