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Being in a pillow fight is one thing. When you're the weakest person there and everyone else can throw a pillow hard enough to probably break ply wood, it gets intense. Obviously, my goal was to get to the dorm, but a few of the others thought it seemed like fun.

Alex and Ted grabbed me, holding me back into a corner, playing along with it, "Take cover!" I felt a pillow slam hard into my face, knocking my head back against the brick wall. It hurt like fucking hell, and I felt my mouth begin to quiver.

"Oww..." [Me]

"Psh, it was just a pillow, Seth!" [Ted]

"N-no, I-I-I-I h-h-it.... My head..." I was making violent gesture behind me, and Alex caught on immediately.

"Oh, god." He and Ted pulled my arms and tried to rush me down the hall, but I tripped and fell over another pillow and slammed my face in the hard wood floor. I felt blood in my nose, and started to cry. They picked me up and tried carrying me, when the jocks decided to target me, and they were screaming things like satanist and devil worshipper. I must've lost my beany.

They frantically tried to open the door, as a zebra came up to me and started beating me upside the head with a pillow, I tried to move my arms, but he just knee-d me in the stomach and punched me hard in the face. He switched to punches and kicks as the others tried to shove him off. Even a few of the other jocks tried to pull him away from me, but he wouldn't let off.

By the time they managed to get him off of me, and Ted and Alex had opened the door, everyone was mad at the zebra. He was screaming at me and calling me satanist, and devil worshipper, and nazi, and Nero's slave and all these horrible things. It ended with Rick grabbing the zebra by the mane and smacking his head into the brick wall and kicking him in the crotch. The rest of our group came in and helped me to the couch.

I think I blacked out or something, but I woke up in a pile of sleeping bags and pillows, and couldn't really breath. I tried to move then felt something pull me closer to them. I turned my head and saw two bright green eyes starring into mine. Everything had a reddish hint because of my glowing eyes and pentagrams, but something about the glow felt warm and welcoming.

Ted's face was equally welcoming. He seemed almost worried for me, and I tried to speak but felt something around my snout. I freaked out, and tried to rip the thing off but just felt like I was clawing myself. I couldn't think clearly and I kept seeing Ted's face starring at me, watching me struggle. He tried to stop me from moving, but it just freaked me out even more.

It finally ended with him wrapping his arms around me and pulling me so tight to his chest that I couldn't breath at all. Everything started to fade as he loosened his grip. He pulled something off my nose, and pulled something out of my mouth. They were napkins and bandages. He lifted a sleeping bag and tossed them out onto his floor.

"Ungh, why cag'd I m-m-bread-d-th br-br-" [Me]

"Hey, it's okay. You were bleeding from your nose and the inside of your mouth. It really freaked us out, so we decided to keep you from sleeping alone. I got first watch."

"Birdt... Waid waid waid waid waid-"

"It's okay-"

"N-no id isg'd! I- I- I-"

"Hey, calm down. You're nose is starting to bleed again." He reached out of the sleeping bag and grabbed a tissue. He held it to my nose, and I fell asleep in his arms like that. I didn't see day light for what felt like freaking ever. I just slept and laid in Ted's arms, buried under pounds of sleeping bags and pillows.

I'm not gonna lie, it was kinda nice in his bed. It felt a little too hot for my liking, but I didn't tell him that. His arms felt warm and safe, safe from that zebra, the other jocks, and the scary world of hellish pain in general. I didn't really want him to let go of me. Of course, he had to let go eventually. Now and then he'd get up and go to the bathroom, and we had to eat, but for what must've been a day and a half, we just laid in his bed, sleeping.

We finally stopped when the others thought I was milking it, since the insides of my snout didn't spontaneously bleed any more, and my speaking voice had gone back to normal. I didn't really want it to end, though. Alex complained and called us out on being gay.

I'm not gay, I don't love him. I mean, sure he looks nice, with his strong muscles, and soft fur, being both caring and oh my god I'm gay as fuck. I shouldn't tell Alex, he might get jealous of Ted. That'd be bad, wouldn't it- I glanced over and saw Ted blushing. We were all sitting at the lunch table, and everyone was starring awkwardly at us.

"I don't think I'm gay. I mean, I could still love a girl, right? I mean, I don't prefer either or, so..." [Ted]

"Yeah, we definitely aren't gay." [Me]

"But you're totally in love with eachother. Those pentagrams don't cover up your blushing, Seth." [Zane]

"Well... So what! That means that any of you could go out with me, then, so that's good for you guys, any ways!" They all seemed a little startled by my sudden out burst. I looked over at Ted and all his wonders and oh my god I'm gonna start fantasizing about him. Quick, someone shove a girl in my face to trick me into being straight.

Ted suddenly leaned in, and starred straight into my eyes. He moved his lips and I leaned in a bit too, then shoved him away. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry!"

"What... You admitted-" [Ted]

"I know, but... I'm just not ready for that yet. I'm not ready."

"For what? He was going to kiss you!" [Alex]

"I know! I just... It's complicated!" [Me]

"Dude, you haven't ever been kissed, have you?" [Zane]

"Oh, as if I'm the only one at the table who hasn't been kissed yet." Everyone just starred at me for a minute.

"I haven't." [Ted]

"Nor I." [Isaac]

"Or me. My first boyfriend wanted to wait and make a big scene about it in front of my parents." [Alex]

"Yeah, let's do that." [Ted]

"Wait, what?" [Me]

"You guys can still be a couple, you don't have to kiss." [David]

"It's just, you know, incredibly symbolic." [Daniel]

"Not to mention it'd be pretty awkward for everyone else at the table if you did that." [Alex]

"Mostly you and X, though." [Me]

I saw X blushing, and he leaned over and kissed Rick, just because of it. "I'm fine."

"Okay, mostly you, then." [Me]

"What? Bullshit!" [Alex]

"Dude, you admitted to having a crush on him." [Daniel]

"Just give up, he's with Ted now." [David]

"Woah woah woah, my parents would not be okay with me being gay. Especially if I were dating Seth. No offense-" [Ted]

"Dude, I got beat up by a zebra because of my pentagrams, that's nothing any more. Which reminds me, I need to get my beany back from who ever stole it." Everyone just looked at Rick, who blushed and looked really guilty.

"So what if I took it, his fur smells nice, and the smell clung to the beany." [Rick]

"Dude, I hadn't showered in over two days." [Me]

"You know, I kinda forgot about that." [Ted]

"Wait, that means you haven't showered in four days?" [Isaac]

"Well... Wait, yeah. Okay, I'm grossed out by myself." [Me]

"I'm not." [Rick]

"No, but you're also way more perverted than anyone at this table." [Zane]

"I am not!"

"You're a freaking paraphile! Yes, you are!" [Isaac]

"What's a paraphile?"

"Someone who's sexually attracted to weird things." [Alex]

"Like feet?" [Ted]

"Like anything that is bizarre to be sexually attracted to!"

"Yeah, like feet."

"No, foot fetishes are too common to really count. No, but the interest in body odor certainly qualifies." [Zane]

Rick blushed, "He just smells so good..."

"Then it's a good thing you're sitting next to him, isn't it?" [Zane]

"What- no! Don't even think of smelling me! God, that's disgusting!" [Me]

"I won't..." [Rick]

"You don't smell bad though." [Ted]

"You're kidding." [Me]

"Well, I'm not attracted by it, but... I mean, you could certainly smell a lot worse for someone who hasn't showered in half a week."

"I hate you all." [Alex]

"Really, Ted? You're trying to hit on me?" [Me]

"Maybe I am. Got a problem with it?" [Ted]

I wanted so badly to say yes. Deny it. Deny my emotions. It's all worthless, anyways! I mean, come on! He's probably gonna go to a different college, if a relationship would even last until the end of the year. Psh, I totally have a problem with it. "Maybe I don't." I can't even control myself, wonderful.

"Really?!" His face lit up in pure joy and happiness. I'm going to hell for weakness.

"Yeah!" Why aren't I stopping myself from this!?

"So, you'd kiss me?" Fuck no! I'm not ready for that! I can't handle something like that! I'm not-

"Maybe. Not now, but, maybe later." Great, I just promised him my first kiss. I'm going to fucking hell for faggotry.

"Heh heh, cool." Well, no, I guess not. There's nothing wrong with being gay. There's just something wrong with loving someone in general.

Everything went dead silent. The twins struck up a conversation, and the others joined in, but I stayed out of it. I couldn't even begin to comprehend my own actions. Why did I do that? Who knows. Maybe this will work out, though. I mean, he seems to like me just as much as I like him. Maybe it will last until the end of the year?

Not likely though, because we'd still have to go to the same school for two more years, and then the same college. Speaking of college, what am I even hoping to do for a living? I like science, but... What was I thinking about? Oh, who cares. It's not like any of it matters anyways, right? Right. So I'll make sure I don't love him.

Wait, why did I think that? It's way too fucking late for that! I admitted to having a crush on him, and then he pretty much tricked me into being in a relationship with him! Psh, don't love him my ass. Why did my mind even think that? That's so weird, how minds work.

Like, what if someone could hear my thoughts and was laughing at how much of an idiot I am. I wonder if other people think like this... Not likely. Our brains are too complicated to have a similarity like that. Way too fucking complicated.

Then again, I am having a conversation with myself. In a way. Is this what people mean when they say they hear voices-

I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!!

What the hell was that?! Woah. Maybe that's what they mean. Dude, that sounded like Alex's voice. So strange. And creepy. Man, I'm staying the fuck away from him! That sounded as if he spoke it right into my ear. Which is possible. Wait, why's everyone getting up? Oh.

"Hey, earth to Seth, you coming?" Ted was waving his hand in front of my face.

"Huh, oh yeah. Sure."

"You're pretty distracted, what're you thinking about?"

"Oh, nothing."

"Liar."

"Shut up." We all went back to the dorm, where everything had been pretty calm since that stupid zebra had beat the shit out of me. I coudln't breath very well out of my left nostril, and it kind of annoyed me. Also, my entire face felt sore, not to mention I'm probably bruised on my stomach.

I fucking hate zebras.