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*A few hours later*

There was a knock on the door.

"Come in."

Kyle opened the door, and I could just barely see Seth behind him, "So, what do you- Oh, I didn't know you were here-... Actually, I don't know who you are."

"Oh, name's... Seth?" [Marko]

"Marko?" [Seth]

"Wait, what?" [Me and Kyle]

"Oh, umm... Seth hangs out with my dad, like, every day." [Marko]

"Yeah... Well. This is... Awkward." [Seth]

"Eh, small world. So, what do you guys want for dinner?" [Kyle]

"Zah!" [Marko]

"Yeah, pizza sounds pretty good." [Me]

"Okay, so Mark was it?" [Kyle]

"Marko." [Marko]

"Oh. Well, nice to meet you." [Kyle]

"Yeah, you too." [Marko]

Kyle and Seth walked out. "Dude, that's so wierd." [Me]

"What?" [Marko]

"That you know Seth. I mean, my bro's been hanging out with him for like twenty years. They were friends in high school." [Me]

"Yeah, you're brother might actually know my dad. Man, that is wierd." [Marko]

I suddenly noticed the radio playing.

"Oh hey, turn it up. I love this song!" [Me] I started singing along about halfway through the song, just a habit, I guess.

"...From your hands, how you used to crawl.

You're walking tall, no need to hide,

behind the clouds, in the sky.

You've up and down down,

you've been low, low, low,

traveled seas so deep,

traveled oh, no sleep,

You've been flying so high,

avoiding the road,

pretending to not feel alone.

Pretending to not feel alone!"

"Dude, you have a great singing voice!" [Marko]

"You're just saying that." [Me]

"No, I'm serious."

"Yeah, yeah. You can stop teasing me now-"

"No, I'm not kidding. You sound really, really good."

"Well, you've got a crush on me, so it doesn't exactly count."

"Well, even so. You do sound good. You know, you should sign up for the Fine Arts Competition."

I should explain, the Fine Arts Competition is really just the school's way of balancing the talent show so that it's not just music, and helping to kick out all the shitheads who'll win just because they're the most popular.

"Yeah, not happening."

"Oh, come on! What's the worst that could happen? You don't win?"

"No, I just won't do it. You pressured me into believing I'm gay, you're not gonna get away with pressuring me into the competition."

"Well, you didn't exactly believe, it was more of hope that it wasn't true."

"And it's not, which is good enough for me, I don't need to risk my social life by singing in the competition."

"Seriously, man, you've got a good voice."

"I don't care."

"Okay, but you can't let it go to waste. You need to earn something for it in your life."

"Again, I don't really care. You're treating it like I sound amazing or something."

"'Cause you do! Seriously, record yourself sometime and listen!"

"No, I'm not gonna."

"Fine..."

*Later that night*

There was a knock on the door, "You guys need to go to bed. It's like three in the morning." [Kyle]

"Okay." I closed the LAN world and shut down my computer, and Marko did the same. He laid out his sleeping bag on the floor and I tossed him a pillow. He started taking off his shirt, "Dude, what are you doing?"

"Oh, I don't wear shirts when I sleep. That's okay, right?"

"Yeah, just keep your pants on."

"Heh, yeah." As he pulled off his shirt, I couldn't help but stare. Something about him was... arousing. He was just... Oh god, no...

"No... no no no..." [Me]

"What?"

"God, I actually am gay..."

"Oh. Now can I take my pants off-"

"No! This isn't funny! This wasn't supposed to happen! I can't be gay! If Kyle finds out, he'll kill me, and I've got a crush on Kiari, and you're... You-" I felt myself starting to cry.

Marko got up and sat down on the bed next to me, "Hey, it's okay." I turned and he pulled me into a hug, "Everything's okay..."

"No... It's not... I'll get teased, and Kyle'll hate me-"

"No he won't, and I won't let anyone tease you..."

"They'll still do it-"

"Tanner, it's okay. Just calm down, everything will be fine..." Something about this was just, comforting. I leaned back in bed, still crying, and he gestured for me to roll over. I did so, and he laid down next to me and started rubbing my back. I fell asleep like that, but something about what he had said was comforting.

*The following morning...*

I was slowly woken up by the light through my window, it was a nice way to wake up. I rolled over in my bed and saw Marko right next to me. Oh, god no!! I shoved him, "Dude, what are you doing!?"

"Huh- WOAH!!!" He rolled off the side of the bed, "Ow! What the hell?!"

"Oh, my god! I'm so sorry. I just, I panicked."

"About what?!"

"I don't know, Kyle might've come in to check on us, and he would've seen us sleeping together, and-"

"Really? Dude, we're seventeen. I don't think he's gonna come in and check on us."

"I don't care, I can't risk him finding out."

"What do you think you did that would make him hate you if he found out you were gay?"

"I refused to let him touch me for four years, I teased him about being gay, oh and I completely hated him during that time."

"Oh. Well then, he'll probably be pissed, but he won't hate you. Honestly, I'd be more worried about yourself."

"Why?"

"Well, when you try to keep something like that a secret, you start to feel... lonely."

"That doesn't make any sense."

"You can't talk to anyone about it, you can't be in a gay relationship or people will freak out, and you'll start acting wierd and nervous and defensive if anyone talks about it around you. You're loneliness will start to show, and when people ask you what's wrong, you'll be hiding that too, because it's related to your being gay. You are alone, and there's nothing anyone can do to help..."

He looked a little sad, and what he was saying made so much sense, "God, now I'm already feeling lonely."

He perked up suddenly, "Well don't. Because you're in a different place than me. I didn't have anyone to talk to, you do. You're..."

"In a relationship?"

He got this look on his face like he'd gotten everything he's ever wanted, "Really?!"

"Mhm." He jumped up off the floor and forced me into a hug, but I was okay with it. I did have someone to talk to, and I was in a relationship, it just needed to stay under tight wraps.

There was suddenly a knock on the door and me and Marko jumped a foot back, "Come in!" [Me]

Kyle opened the door, "Hey, so you guys are awake."

"Just woke up a minute ago." [Me]

"Aw. So, how does french toast sound for breakfast?"

"Great!" [Marko]

"Pretty good." [Me]

"Okay then. Finally, something other than pizza." He walked out of the room and closed the door behind himself.

I glanced over at Marko, who seemed to teleport to me and gave me a kiss, "Better now that you're gay?"

"So much." I pulled him in closer and made out with him for a few minutes. He was warm to the touch, and I felt a magnetic attraction to him. I truly loved him, with out a doubt.