Enjoying a Hellhole
This is a poem about how I live, struggle, and "cope" with my depression. I'm posting this on SoFurry because I know there are a few furries out there that are struggling like me. hang in there
Funny the way things can be
When life seems to be nothing but paradoxes
I could have the time of my life
Whilst my depression gnaws at me like it does everyday
I smile and laugh at jokes
When my conscious tells me I'm the fool
I love hanging out with others
Yet isolation is my pure bliss
I enjoy life and finding explanations
Inside I wait for the day I perish
I can be enjoying a board game with family
Then I cry on my bed out of sheer hopelessness
Sometimes I look around my bedroom
Trying to spot something I can end my life with
But I have those few, almost sacred loved ones
That I know could not go on without my presence
These loved ones of mine are my biggest hope
I have more sentimental value for some than my family
Those who can understand me comfortably
And be there for me when I need them most
Thank you.