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The sun finally made its way over the tree line, creating a beautiful golden glow that shimmered along the leaves. They twinkle and sway left and right allowing the light to hit them differently every time. The small dew droplets glisten when the light bounces off. I love to see the sun rise from the roof of my house, it is never the same and it for some reason gives me hope. It is a very relaxing way to begin the day that is sure to be filled with stress and pain that soon follows. "But not for a little while longer..." I think to myself whenever these thoughts flash through my mind. I start off the morning watching the sun rise almost every day for this reason. But after the sun has risen, my happiness doesn't last for more than a couple of hours.

I climb back through the window into my bedroom and go straight for the bathroom. I turn on the hot water and let the steam build up before getting into the shower. the water soak my light gray fur. I sigh as big drops of water fall down. Soap slides down my body carelessly, making the fur shiny and clean. I step out of the shower and look at myself in the mirror. I have a decent build, some muscle, not a lot of fat. I'm not very happy with my appearance, always picking out the worst parts of me, because that's what everyone else seems to do anyway.

I walk back to my room and pull out my knife from behind my pillow. I feel a rush of relief as the silver blade cuts through the skin on my wrist, my blood forms in little beads on my arm and drips down my fur. I feel a little better when I do this. I don't feel the guilt of making someone else sad by doing it because I already know that no one would care if they knew. I do it again, and again, and again until finally my phone alarm goes off and I have to catch the bus to school. I throw on some jeans and a black sweatshirt before I grab my backpack and run out the door to get to the bus stop.

The bus is pulling up to the corner of my street just as I arrive. That yellow bus might as well drive me to hell, because it would probably be easier to deal with than what I have to go through every day at my school. I quickly get on, sit down in a tattered blue seat, and try not to bother anyone or say anything like any other day. The bus pulls up to the school and I quickly try to walk to my first period class. Unfortunately it can't be that easy. Alex and a bunch of his friends are waiting at the entrance to welcome me. Alex is a ridiculously strong tiger with black and orange stripes. He is a total jerk and has completely ruined my life. I try to ignore them every day and every day the same thing happens. I walk past them only to be stopped by Alex. "Hey!" he growls at me, "Where the fuck are you going?" I don't say anything. Nothing I say can help me now. His friends laugh. He slams me against a locker. The hollow ring echoes throughout the hallway. A few heads look over, they have a look of sympathy, but they won't help, they never do. Alex is just not someone you want to screw with. "I said," he continues, with a much softer voice, "Where are you going?" I look at him, there is obvious fear in my eyes. "Please..." I say so quietly he can barely hear me, "Don't..." He laughs and this is another trigger for all of his idiot friends to laugh with him. "But you know I have to." he says with a smile. He throws me to the ground, and kicks me in the stomach, hard. I wince and my hands clutch my stomach trying to protect myself from anything else he had for me. But he just kneels down next to me and whispers, "I'll see you later you fucking fag." One of his friends pulls me up and shoves me down the hall. It isn't much worse than every other day where he kicks my ass because I am too scared to fight back, and I probably should be, since he weighs about 200 pounds and I weigh 95, he is really strong, easily stronger than any student at school and probably some of the teachers as well.

I finally get to first period and sit down. My stomach is killing me, but I don't have time to worry about that, I have to study really quick for a quiz I didn't study for. But someone just walked into the room, a new student maybe. He is a fox with orange and white fur, he has a stronger build. Not the same as Alex but he still looked pretty strong. He looked around the nearly empty classroom and saw me. He walked over and sat down next to me. Yup, he is definitely new here. No kid would come within a mile of me because of Alex if they didn't have to. He smiled and said. " Hey! I'm Ryan! I just moved here with my family!" I don't really know what to say so I nod and say "Thats cool." and looked back to my notes, he was really cute, but I really didn't want to scare him off already. I had only met him two minutes ago. "What's your name?" he asked me. "Skylar." I said, he seemed really friendly. "Well since I am new maybe after school you can show me around, maybe see a movie or something..." he says to me. "Sure, that sounds great!" I say back. This is going really well, is this how easy it is to make friends when they don't know one of your biggest secrets already? He'll probably cancel our plans after hearing it from someone thanks to Alex and his social power. But I decided to try to ignore the fact that I might never talk to him again because of it. But my tail wags a little and my stomach starts to feel better. I can't wait for tonight!

I breeze through the first half of my day. Ryan gave me his phone number and told me to call him after school was over so we could meet up somewhere. But fifth period I have social studies with Alex. Luckily he sits far away from me and near his slutty girlfriend. So its not that bad. But after class sometimes he'll knock my books to the floor, or trip me or something stupid like that. Thank God there was a sub today, so he spent the period making out with his girlfriend instead of studying. When the bell rang I hurried off to my next class before he could do anything to me.

The rest of the day goes by quickly. I have art last period and have been working on a picture of a landscape. It is very dark outside with a storm cloud over an already dead tree. I add a small glimpse of light to the corner and smile. "I hope this works out." I think to myself.