Clear Minds Chapter 3
Chapter 3
Kaleb: Regret
"Well the first day at school didn't go as planned. I should have just kept my mouth shut instead of speaking my mind. I guess I was just feeling a little over confident when I said he was gay. My apology didn't go so well either, it felt like I was insisting he was gay and that isn't much of an apology." I walked the rest of the way home and every step I took made me feel more like an idiot. When I got home I went to my room and laid on my bed. I was there for sometime before my Mom came in.
"Kaleb how was your first day of school?" My Mom was like any other mother. She was kind, caring, on my tail all the time, and a good cook. Lately she has been acting weird, she is always looking around and nervous when someone is speaking to her. I think my Dad has something to do with that. My Mom's name is Stacy, she is a wolf with a purple and white coat. The purple fur covers the top of her muzzle and makes its way to the back of her head. Her ears are lightly frosted with purple and white covers the rest. On her back the purple continues only to stop at her tail and cover her thighs, the rest of her fur is a snowy white. Mother's tail is long, fluffy, and straight. I always used to feel comfortable around her, but now she has been too antsy to feel at home with.
"Kaleb? Kaleb? Earth to Kaleb?"
"Oh! Um, yeah my day was okay...I guess." I turned my head in shame.
"What happened Kaleb? Are you okay your face is getting red?" I didn't even notice that I was embarrassed, where did all my confidence go? Why do I even feel like this? I shouldn't have to feel like this! I barely even know Sora. So why do I feel guilty?
"Well...Mom I messed up today."I guess the best way to get it off my shoulders is to talk about it. "_I met this guy at school today and I guess we became friends." _Here comes the worst part, hope she can bare it. "The Algebra II teacher was making fun of him because he wasn't manly like a guy is "supposed to be". So I defended him and told him I didn't care if he was gay." The look on my Mom's face was heart breaking. She looked worried about me. I just hope it was for the same reason as I am. "He got upset and told me not to talk to him anymore. So after school I tried to apologize but I made the situation worse than it was. I told him I didn't care because I was gay-"
"Stop! Kaleb don't say that out loud. You're not gay okay? Say it with me, ready? Kaleb...is...not..gay." She looked extremely scared, but why?
"Mom I've told you a million times already I am gay. Why can't you just accept me!?!" I was shouting now and just when I was about to speak again my Dad came in. My Dad is a strong man with an average name, Connor. My Dad is a very fit husky with a lot of muscle in the right places. He has the normal husky look to him with his sharp blue eyes and his dashing black and white coat.
"What is with all this shouting in here?" My Mom stood there motionless at him. She was shaking and looked like she wanted to cry. Maybe she told me that I wasn't gay because of my Dad?
"Well Stacy what's going on in here?"My Mom was still motionless; I guess this is where I step in.
"I am shouting because Mom won't accept me for the real me." There problem solved.
"And what would the real you be Son?" My Dad was focused on me now. For once feel intimidated.
"Well....um, she won't accept that I am gay and I came out a year ago. Didn't you know that?" My Dad is staring at my Mom with a disgusted look. He changes facial expressions when he turns toward me, he is staring at me with a evil smirk.
"No, I didn't know about this. I'm glad it has been brought to my attention and now it will be dealt with." I didn't know if this was a bad or good thing, but the way my Mom looked I don't think this will end well. "So Kaleb you think your gay?"
"I don't think Dad, I am."
"Well since you love men so much I bet you'll feel comfortable in your Mother's clothes?" My Dad walked out of my room and toward his. I looked at my Mom in confusion and she stared back with fear. I'm starting to understand why Mom told that I wasn't gay. I don't think she cared about it, more like she feared for me. Dad wouldn't hurt me though, right? My Dad came back with a pair of yoga pants that said Juicy across the back, also a pair of panties, a shirt that comes down just above the belly button, and to top it all off he gives me a bow for my hair. He looks like he wants to start laughing at me. "So now that you're gay I guess you like girl stuff? For the rest of the week you're only aloud to where your Mother's clothing, understand?" He walked away by grabbing my Mom and taking her to their room. I shut my door only to lie on my bed again. What just happened? I should have known my Dad would have been this way. I stay in my room for the rest of night thinking about what happened today. Looking back nothing went the way it was suppose to. I wanted to make some friends at school, but I chased them off. I wanted my Mom and Dad to accept me but instead they hate me, or at least my Dad does.
I passed out with terrible thoughts only to wake up the next day to find out that it wasn't a dream. I took my Mom's clothes and went to the bathroom. I put the clothes on the clothes rack and hopped into the shower. I know there isn't anything I could do about the clothes, so I just have to wear them. Know that I think of it it won't be so bad wearing the clothes. Dad thinks he can embarrass me into going back into the closet? No, I won't let him be satisfied with this. I'll wear these clothes and rock'em. I get out of the shower and put on the clothes Dad gave me. I spend at least twenty minutes in the bathroom putting them on and making myself look amazing. When I got done I looked at myself in the mirror, I looked a little goofy, I don't care though. I'm not letting my dad have his way.
I make way down stairs to hear my Dad say "Here she comes Honney! Grab the camera and let's take a picture of our little princess." He could do whatever he wanted to I won't let him have his way. My Mom comes out of the Kitchen with a camera. I look at her and I saw a bruise on her cheek. I suddenly became very angry and shot a dirty glance at him. From the look on his face he knew why I was shooting the look at him. He doesn't care he hit his wife and I don't think he'll mind hitting his son either.
"So Dad how do I look?" I was trying to get him to know I didn't mind the clothes and it seemed to work. His face turned from a cocky grin to a evil stare.
"Well you look a faggot Kaleb. But I bet that suits your style?"
"Right Dad...a faggot. Just to let you know that doesn't bother me, because I'm proud of who I am. Nothing you do will make me stop being me." I started for the door but my Dad always has something back to say.
"Right we'll see about that. Now get out"
"I was already leaving." I left and started walking to school and about half way through my walk I saw Sora. I wanted to run up to him and say hi, but he probably hates my guts. I pushed him out of my mind and continued on. When I got to school I headed straight for the Cafeteria and sat down where I was yesterday. Sora more and likely won't come anywhere near me today. So I'll to face people head on and by myself. I was managing the day
"Hey little lady I saw you sitting here by yourself and I just have to say you're the cutest thing I've seen. So how would you like to go on a date with me?" I couldn't tell if he was joking or being for real.
"Really, are you being serious?" One of the guys was snickering and the other one walked off laughing.
"Come on Jeff just leave the fag alone. Let's go there is a basket ball game going on outside!" The other guy left and it was only Jeff.
"Don't let them bother you. I really like fags like you, they usually are up for anything."
"Um no, I'm sorry but you got the wrong idea. I'm not into one minute flings with jocks." This guy has some nerve to be this cocky. Who does he think he is?
"Also there is one more thing you should know....I don't take no for an answer." He grabbed me by the wrist and threw me on the ground.
"Hey what the heck is wrong with you?"
"Like I said I don't take no for an answer."
He threw himself on top of me and began to punch my face. I couldn't move my arms because his knees were on top of them. He was holding me down and I couldn't move. I was helpless and struggling for freedom, but he kept punching and punching. I began to cry out for help, but Jeff punched me right in the jaw. I think he popped it out of place, but the pain was so intense. I didn't know what to do so I began to cry and take all the hurt.