Log 3- Time to Heal
#3 of Controlled Darkness
All characters in the fic are (C) Kajex/Tigox unless otherwise noted.
All references to Star Wars and terms from its franchise are copyright to Lucasfilms and their respective owners.
We left off with Master and student agreeing to a new training arrangement, after Sannis revealed her need to beat back the demons of her rape, the tortured part of her that burns for the domination of the dark side, through her anger and hatred. Things will go in the direction most people expect. Right?
"You're ready to begin?"
"... Yes."
"...You're certain."
"Yes."
"Then sit down, and we'll begin."
It had been 3 days since their last lightsaber spar-session, 3 days since Sannis had broken down and wept while in combat, nearly gave herself fully to the Dark side of the Force, 3 days since she was told that her master thought well of her, and 3 days since he offered to teach her to resist falling completely to the Dark side. It had been 3 days since then, and she had not seen her master until today, in the morning, when, rather than Sannis coming to Kajex's training room, he came to her quarters, telling her to get ready.
She had wondered briefly why her training had not begun sooner, had wondered what happened in the last 3 days that kept her master from letting her continue training. Still, she knew he must have had his reasons for waiting, perhaps something she'd come to understand in the following days. Certainly, much had happened in the last couple of days that made her wonder if the academy was finally ready to disband, as it had so many other times.
The same night that Ronne had lost his ear was the same night a fight had broken out between two Jedi masters, a saber-battle that lasted 2 hours before the fight was broken up- both masters weren't harmed- at least, not very much- but there was much damage done, and an onlooking student had lost her arm when the fight strayed too close to her. It had been between Yvan, Ronne's master and another sith master, whose name she hadn't caught. Perhaps Kajex would know, she thought to herself.
The night after, more fighting had broken out, Sannis witnessing one of them up close, when Ronne was taunted and mocked for the loss of his ear, which he had no provided an explanation for. Rather than being the once popular student in the academy, the human was now a target for mocking- or was, at least, before Ronne withdrew his answer-to-all-problems tool and cleanly removed a head with it. Now he was treated with indifference, which seemed to be worse. Anywhere the human went, things just seemed to break.
But these were not her problems, and for that she was grateful, as well as a little gleeful that Ronne was suffering in some small way. Besides, between her suffering and recovery from the injuries she sustained from her last spar with her master, it was good to hear that she was not the only one in pain- and at least, she thought to herself, it's Ronne. These words in mind, she focused on moving in ways that would not cause her to wince- not very often, at least.
And in the morning, all the same, her master had stepped up to the door of her quarters and entered without knocking, catching her by surprise as she lay on her bed. Fully expecting to be chided, she was equally surprised when he said nothing but, "Follow me." Confused, she followed, and found, upon reaching their training room, that her training was to begin.
She sat down, as Kajex did in front of her, and he stared directly at her, making sure he had her full attention.
"What I am going to teach you to do is something of an emotional barrier. Jedi learn something to keep from feeling anger and fear, though they are foolish enough to be ignorant to the fact that it can augment one's abilities considerably, and that lack of feeling emotion can be dangerous. It will require weeks of training to perfect, but you can get the basics of it for today. We will advance the training as you progress. I will let you know when this happens." She nodded, acknowledging that she had listened.
"What I will do is lull you into a meditative trance. While you are in this trance, I will attempt to 'attack' your mind with overbearing emotions, such as grief, pain, envy, and hatred. I will simulate these feelings within you, while you attempt to control yourself when you feel them." He paused. "I will not lie. Such training can cause your mind to wander in emotion over the past, and as a result, you may feel yourself re-enacting your scenes of pain within your mind. At that point, I'll do everything I can to bring you back. Am I understood?"
She nodded again. "Yes, Master Kajex. I understand the risks. I'm still willing."
The jaguar paused, then gave a small smile. "Very well. Then we shall begin." He held a paw forward, and immediately, Sannis felt herself become lightheaded, her head rolling to one side. "Try to relax," the jaguar said, though his voice was distant. "Try to focus on my voice- your body will right itself into meditation by itself. Let yourself free from what you perceive by touch..."
Even as he spoke these words, she seemed to feel a warm tingle in her spine, and all was dark, though in this darkness, she felt... safe... It was like being nowhere and everywhere, the perceiving of everything around her, the gentle and subtle differences in her body. She felt whole, felt free of herself.
Within moments, she perceived a cold feeling of icy dread, and her mind scrambled- something was wrong, terribly wrong. This wasn't right. She needed to get up, to get out. Something bad was going to happen. She felt herself struggling, felt no control over what she could do, until something came into her mind. Something akin to a voice, but wasn't, all the same. She hesitated, reaching out and contacting this feeling, the thought of dread still on her mind.
"You sought me?" said the voice.
"Who are you?" she tried to answer- only to find that, by trying, she already had.
"Your master, Kajex. You feel dread. You feel something bad is going to happen. Yet you cringe away from it, and let that emotion overpower it."
"... I... I can't do anything."
"That is not the student I'm training, nor the person who became my student. My student fought back a rapist with fear in her heart all the same, and my student would not cringe in fear of a simple feeling like dread."
"But... it's so cold. I'm afraid, Master Kajex." She cringed further within her mind, fearing helplessly, unable to do nothing but talk to her master, hoping to find comfort.
"Indeed. And in your situation... I would be, too." The voice went silent, and it could not have been clearer that it seemed to feel pain of its own.
Sannis could not believe that. "... You fear nothing, Master Kajex..."
"Do you really believe that?" the voice replied, in a tired tone. "Take away the force from me, and all you Will find is a Trianii facing his own problems, fearing things like any other man. And I feel fear for many things." The voice paused. "Tell me what courage is."
"It's doing what's right without fear."
"Incorrect. All people who have done courageous things felt fear upon doing them. They were like any other person- they were scared for their lives and the lives of others. Yet they did what they did despite their fear. Courage does not mean that one is unafraid- courage only defines that a person, even a fearful one, faces their fears head on."
"I... I can't combat dread with my mind alone... I fear too much..."
The voice became kindly... "You're not alone... I'm here for you. I will help you." And his consciousness delved into the emotional recesses of her being, where lay dread of the unknown. She perceived his approach towards it, never losing tempo as he came nearer. Just when it seemed like the feelings of dread would not yield, before his essence collided with it, it diminished within his presence alone, and as it happened, a small part of that dread left her.
She felt his essence beckoning her to come closer. She hesitated, unknowing what would occur, but followed, her trust in her master overcoming her fear and strengthening her resolve. She neared his presence, and as she came close, she felt him entwine with her being ever so slightly, gently, as if he were taking her hand in his and leading her. She followed him deeper into the threads of the intense feeling, finding that as she came close into it, that it diminished under her, as if it were no more than smoke fanned away. She felt fear, still, but it wasn't as intense. She braced herself, and left her master's presence, delving head on into the feelings of dread and despair that had once overwhelmed her, her resolve strengthened by her unwillingness to let such a feeling control her. With each passing through it, the feeling diminished, until little of it existed, only enough for her to feel slight discomfort.
"Wake."
Her eyes snapped open. In front of her, Kajex still sat, his eyes open and looking at her softly. She looked away. Kajex tilted his head slightly.
"You look away, even as you've passed your learning her."
Sannis nodded. "I feel... such a fool for being fearful."
Kajex shook his head. "There is no shame in fear. There is shame only in cowardice, the act in which we let that fear detain us from doing what must be done. We all have the strength within us to beat away fear that stops us from progressing- what separates a person from being a coward and being courageous is that we deal with it. And you showed you would not let it stop you. You may have needed a push... but you did it yourself in the end." He smiled softly. "You did well."
The bat smiled back. "Thank you, Kajex. Er... Master Kajex."
The feline shook his head. "You may use my name. Being perfectly honest... I hate formalities."
2 weeks later...
"Why do you do that?"
"What's that?"
"Walk behind me? You seem as if you were my slave, walking directly behind me, rather than my student, walking next to me."
"Aren't , in a sense?"
The jaguar frowned. "I would rather you not think yourself in such a sense. You are no one's property."
Sannis looked down. "Some would say otherwise..."
"Those are fools you speak of," the jaguar replied with a low growl. "Fools and tyrants, and scum. I cannot abide slavery of any form, or personal ownership of another person." He paused. "There are exceptions, though."
"Such as?" the bat inquired curiously.
"Love." He opened the door to the training chambers, stepping inside. He looked around to the bat, who seemed a little surprised.
"I thought Sith and Jedi were not supposed to love."
Kajex smiled dryly. "Only the fools, my student- no need for an idiot to breed and create more idiots." He sat upon a stone bench and leaned back. "It is my experience that love can make proud men fools, and weak men strong. It is something more powerful than the force itself, the feeling of love." He looked up. "There are those who underestimate the feeling of love, instead looking away and believing that love itself is a foolish pursuit. Yet, were it my will, I would have everyone look for love."
Sannis listened with interest before responding. "That's... very unlike the Sith."
Kajex shrugged. "Just because I follow the teaching of the Dark side does not mean I am incapable of loving."
Sannis hesitated. "... Kajex... have you ever... loved anybody?"
The Trianii looked back at her.
She shook her head. "I'm sorry. Ignore me."
The Trianii seemed on the edge of saying something, but withdrew it and sat before her. "Alright. I've taught you to deflect the feelings of Dread, Grief, Jealousy - which I will say again, you performed particularly well," he added, gaining a smile from Sannis," and you've also combated against the feelings of chivalry, revenge, and justice. I trained you against a few light-side feelings to protect yourself from them. You may not know this, but some Sith yearn to do the right thing, but there's a difference between knowing the right thing, and letting things like justice control your actions- just because there is law does not mean there is righteousness in enforcing it. If your choice is to do good even as a Sith, then my training will help. Today, I will bring you to a very powerful emotion- that of hate." He paused. "This may bring pain. We can leave this for ano--"
"No," Sannis said flatly, cutting the jaguar off. "I wish to do this now."
The feline nodded slowly. "Then we'll begin." He took a deep breath, which Sannis followed. "Follow my words once more... shed your body away and feel the essence of you emotions within you..."
It took only a short while, as Sannis was now doing this training when she could in her free time, able to meditate... but the voice of her master was so soothing and gentle, she longed hearing it. She learned quickly, however, to hide her personal, un-simulated emotions, away from him- at one point, she had felt pangs of hunger during the training, and afterwards, he had told her to seek food if she was hungry enough, that she should not train on an empty stomach. Since he had started training her, she was becoming more confident, more relaxed. And even in her free time, she would converse with her master, talking philosophy some of the times... and even as she found him being more and more her master, he was more and more becoming her friend. Many things they discussed, even... pointless things... a side of which she had never seen of him, and had never expected to see.
And such was it that his voice was appealing to her that she resisted it only a little, until she would sense him in her meditation.
Except she did not this time.
She perceived around herself curiously, wondering where he was, deciding after a minute that perhaps she had progressed in her training enough where he would not intervene. She braced herself, readying and preparing herself for whatever came at her. She sensed the oncoming approach, and waited until it was there.
Hate.
It was vile, bitter and cruel, like pain in her very soul, enraged feelings in all the things around her. She steadied herself, feeling the slightest frustrations in her minds manifesting internally- it was a powerful feeling, but she was determined to make it through. She approach the feeling cautiously with her mind, but something unusual happened.
"Ah. My former bitch."
She felt herself stunned. In front of her, not just a feeling or presence, but an actual person in her mind, was Ronne. A clear cut image of him, everything including the ear he would have otherwise been missing. It really was him. What was more... she could feel herself becoming real, looking down to see her paws, to see herself naked.
"Ronne... what are you doing here?"
"I came here so I could pity you."
"... I have no need for your pity."
"Don't you? Look at you... a pathetic example of the dark side, following a weak master so closely and studiously as to take lessons from him about avoiding poor little emotions your can't control..." He sneered, then spat on the ground before her. "You really are a bitch, aren't you? Having to learn and study under another person because you're too weak to do anything yourself."
She growled back. "That's not true."
"Isn't it? You couldn't even kill me when me and my gang raped you near death on these very plains."
And indeed, the environment around them seemed to change, from an inky darkness, to that horrible scene, that very area with the outcrop of rocks... the ring of stones that shrouded all distant eyes from what had happened that day. Sannis breath nearly stopped.
"...No..." she whispered.
"You see? You can't even face your own past to beat it away. You can't even do it alone. You need your master, your savior to help you. Without him, you'd have been dead by my hand." He cackled, a taunting, sharp sound that did as was intended and whittled away at her confidence...
"Kajex... he said--"
"You would honestly believe what that fool would say? None of the other masters respect him enough to pay him any heed to his methods." The images of the other 3 rapists appeared, ghosts of the men she had killed- the wookie, the Trandoshan, and the other human- all nameless, all with looks of sexual hunger on their faces. And Sannis knew what was to come next.
She began to breathe fast, raggedly, in horror. "No... this... this wasn't supposed to happen... I didn't mean for it--"
"Stop your sniveling. What happened was that we fucked you. We fucked you and came all over your fuckable body, loving every minute of your torture." His sneer disappeared. "You can't erase that from you mind no matter what you do. You master can't help you with that."
"No... you're right, he can't, but... he's... he's unlike you!"
"Standing up for him, are you? Why do that for him? Isn't he your master?"
"You're not him, he... cares about me. Why would I give a damn what you think when he--"
"Cares about you?!" Ronne exclaimed. He looked at her incredulously for a few moments before bursting into another cackle. "Unless I'm mistaken, it would seem like you love this man!" When she didn't respond, he cackled again. "This is rich! A raped bitch in love with a weak Sith Master!"
She felt hot tears on her face. She... she did love him... but...
"Do you honestly think that even if this master showed a less harsh personality, that he wouldn't despise you for being the weakling that you are? He's a fool, but I would still like to think he wouldn't want a raped bitch like yourself. You can't even tell him! You haven't any courage in you to tell him!" He cackled again, long and hard, and Sannis looked down, tears still streaming down her face.
"Now get down."
She froze.
"... I said get DOWN."
Her eyes narrowed. Her teeth were gritted tightly.
"NOW!!"
"NO!" she cried out in return, in a snarl that made all three jump. "I'M NOT WEAK, AND I'M NOT AT YOUR MERCY! I HATE ALL OF WHAT HAPPENED, ALL OF YOU!!!" She seethed quietly, as the 4 rapists in her mind were stunned.
"... But I'm stronger than you," she said quietly. "I'm strong enough that I needn't dwell on you any longer. I'm strong enough to not give into hate and be vengeful. I'm strong enough to put you behind me."
The 4 stood in place, the only sound being the wind whipping around them. She stared back at them defiantly.
Ronne spoke, an evil smile playing over his lips. "But we still raped you. You remember that."
And with that, all 4 ran at her. She had barely a moment to think about what would happen, before horror set into her mind, feeling herself being pinned, and knew that they were still going to rape her. She screamed with every fiber of her being, calling out her master's name.
"KAJEX!!!!"
"WAKE UP!!!!"
With these words, Sannis choked out a strangled scream, snapping back into her physical being, and lashed out- she was blind, she couldn't see. She barely felt able to breathe. "Kajex, please help me!"
There was fear in her master's voice. "I'm right here, Sannis, right here!" She felt a warm paw hold hers, and her eyes came into focus; Kajex was above her, eyes and visage full of fear, which seemed to diminish into worry as she came to. "Sannis..."
She blinked, and the next moment, was sobbing into his chest, the jaguar holding her tight in his arms. "Oh Kajex..." Her body shook with the wordless sobs she choke out. "I'm so sorry..."
The jaguar shook his head. "No... I'm sorry for not being there like I said I was. I should have followed you, hate being such a strong feeling... but I thought you could defeat it yourself..."
She shook her head, shivering as she sniffled... "No... I... I couldn't even get close to it before... before..." She couldn't finish her sentence and looked away, ashamed... she had to get out, she wasn't even worthy to be near Kajex. She struggled to get out, the Trianii confused to what was going on. "I need to go, I can't be here..." She made for the door, stumbling a little, trying to move as fast as possible from Kajex.
She didn't get far.
Within a moment, the jaguar had snapped his paw outward and caught the bat's by the wrist- it wasn't a hard, forceful clench, but a pleading paw, as he pulled her into him and wrapped both arms around her. She blinked, confused, but said nothing as she hugged back. She sniffled, whimpering a little... she felt insignificant... She began to tell him what happened, leaving out the parts of love, as much as it pained her, what had happened, and with each passing word, the feline's ears drooped against his head in sadness, his face full of regret in what she had gone through...
When she finished, she finally looked up into his eyes... "Kajex... I'm not worthy to be here, to be your student... I... I'm not courageous... I can't even tell you... how I feel about you..."
There was a pause between them, the jaguar looking at the still upset bat, as she shivered and snuffled lightly. She looked at him with desperately longing eyes, filled with despair... she knew that there would be no chance. Or did.
He kissed her.
It was a quick and nearly effortless action, the feline leaning over and connecting his lips with the bat's gently, pressing them softly against hers. She squeaked quietly in surprise, but relaxed under the kiss, tears on the fur of her face drying away, a warm feeling spreading through her as they shared their first kiss together. It was... so nice... no one had done this to her, had treated her affectionately and yet... her master... the one Ronne thought was weak and whose love she didn't deserve... Kajex... was kissing her.
Within her chest, she churred pleasantly. She could hear her master purring deeply within his own chest, close they were...
He broke off the kiss, nosing her once. He smiled. "It is not always necessary for one sex to tell the other their affections... In my culture... I would be the one to tell you that I love you."
In this moment alone, Sannis felt herself in the middle of nowhere in the galaxy, feeling nothing around her except the arms around her body and the deepest part of affection and love in her heart that she never thought existed. In this moment alone, any fears and doubts she had left evaporated under these words, any reservations about telling him anything vanished under the fact that there was someone she cared about dearly and he loved her the same way she wanted to love him. Thus she knew he would probably not mind when she grabbed his head and jerked it to her, planting a deep kiss in return that made the feline yelp in a startled manner, then made him purr pleasantly. They held the kiss for a while, holding each other close, until Sannis broke it off, breath-taken at what she had done.
"Kajex... I love you too..." she sniffled again, feeling an onset of fresh tears welling up, these ones different from the ones she had shed only minutes before. She wasn't afraid anymore, at least, not enough to be a coward. Right then, she felt strong enough to do what she had done earlier, and drive away hate fully... She looked up at him. "When did you...?"
Kajex nuzzled her a little. "Maybe a bit after I started training you, really..." He held her paws in his. "You may not realize this, but I'm perhaps only 3 years older than yourself, and I remember what it it's like to be in love. No amount of years of being a Sith master can change that." He hesitated for a moment.
"Do you know why it was that I was so harsh in my training? Why it was that I wanted to bring you close enough to death in training so you would be more cautious?" Sannis shook her head. "I cared deeply about you. I showed it in the worst way possible, so that perhaps you'd listen. I didn't want to see you become hurt."
"Why now? Why are you only showing me affection and this side of you? Why not sooner?"
Kajex looked down. "I told you I had my own fears. When I searched your mind, I realized that you had gone through a lot of pain as was. It wasn't pity that changed my methods, you can do without that- but that doesn't mean I wasn't incapable of kindness. My harsh methods were, perhaps, doing nothing more but making it worse for you. So... I loosened up a bit, hoping you'd become more comfortable, hoping you'd learn more to defend yourself. I didn't want to see you hurt the same way you were when you came that close to the Dark side in that sparring session."
She nodded, looking down a little in response. "You're kind to me... you even took time just to talk to me..."
Kajex smiled a little. "You're not just a student, but another sentient being with likes and dislikes, as am I. You're... well... extremely likable. Have you ever noticed how talkative you are without being overly chatty? I haven't had any discussions with other students, so intent on learning they are that they forget to become people." He paused for a moment. "And during your training... I noticed you had... done things. Done things while I was in your mind."
Sannis blinked for a moment before understanding, a furious blush setting in her face. "You... perceived my arousal?"
Kajex shrugged a little, a slightly guilty look on your face. "How could I not? It was kind've nice anytime your essence came close to mine when you felt that way..."
She smiled a little... "I had always.... wanted to know what you were like..." She said this hesitantly, and became surprised when her words were responded to with the Trianii pulling her in closer and looking into her eyes.
"The feeling is mutual."
She churred a little, yipping slightly as she felt something press against her leg. "That wasn't your lightsaber!"
Kajex smiled a little. "Indeed."
Again, she felt herself blush hard- among other firsts that were happening so fast in succession, the feline she loved was now pressing his maleness against her. She smiled back, nuzzling gently. "You know how inactive the Jedi were in unique situations..."
"I do remember, yes."
"I'm not like that." She began to kneel, but Kajex stopped her. Her heart sank a little at this- was he refusing? But she blinked when he saw him still smiling gently.
"Perhaps my quarters would prove a better place to prove that."
It had been 5 minutes since they left the room, and her arousal had been building up the whole time. She had reached out and taken hold of his paw as they walked, meeting no one in the halls as they walked by. She could almost feel her own musk surrounding her as it continued to build, as her need for him burned still, such was it that she did what she could to block the arousal from her mind as she had been taught. Kajex didn't seem as fazed, but his grip on her paw suggested that he, too, was becoming affected by her scent.
They reached his quarters, modestly no larger than her own, although the bed was a little bigger than her own. Strewn about, like the quarters of most males, she figured, were robes that hadn't yet been organized away. But her attention to his room didn't last as she turned in place, deeply kissing the black feline, whimpering in need for him. The jaguar responded, kissing back and running his paws down her sides gently, slipping both paws underneath the folds of her robes to where her bare fur was. She blushed again, feeling the male's paws roaming her waist, rubbing gently as they kissed each other lovingly- she responded in kind, rubbing a paw on his chest affectionately.
She couldn't bear it any longer, and apparently, neither could he. He lifted his robes over his head as she did the same, not caring that she had pulled off her bra at the same time as her perfect orbs of flesh bounced along her chest teasingly. They returned to each others arms, the jaguar picking her up around the waist and kissing at her chest, as she moaned with every electric touch his lips administered as they danced along her chest and each breast, an affectionate kiss and nuzzle given to each nipple, which made her moan as she returned the kissed to his ears and forehead. She felt herself being carried in this position to the bed, where she dropped onto. Her breathing was hard, but she did nothing as the jaguar, whom had seemed to take an aggressive approach, pulled the remaining robes below her waist down, undergarments and all. She blushed hard, but helped all the same, whimpering still in need.
The jaguar, meanwhile, had lain next to her, returning to kissing her deeply, as one paw danced along her stomach and rubbed it gently, causing the bat to churr deeper in bliss. He as going lower, brushing past the light fluff of her waiting sex, finger now rubbing her lower lips teasingly... she needed him so much, she almost could not stand it...
She broke off the kiss only when Kajex had gently inserted a finger into her cleft, making her moan. Quite unlike her past, this was gentle and loving, she knew, as the feline began to kiss down her neck and past her breasts once more, pushing his finger in and out of the folds of her body, causing her to quiver on the bed, as she lay on her back- she spread her legs wider, giving him all the access he needed. His lips kissed her belly as another finger drove into her body, making her whimper again in pleasure, reaching down to stroke her lovers ears affectionately. The feline continued to kiss lower still, until he withdrew his fingers, and kissed her lower lips lovingly. This stimulation almost made her climax, but she held tight on her endurance, wanting the bliss to last as long as it could. She moaned softly as he began to nuzzle the delicate flower of flesh he was paying attention to, one paw still caressing his ears while the others had busied itself fondling her own breasts. Sannis let out a gasp of surprise, need, and bliss as the jaguar's tongue now invaded her cunny carefully.
She writhed underneath his gentle licking, tossing her head back in wordless moans, both paws gripping the bedsheets. This was attention she had never received, and she was loving the feeling of his tongue lashing in and out of her vaginal lips. He didn't stop for a moment, evidently enjoying her flavor, suckling on her gently, but his tongue violently twitching inside her. It was pure heaven, the feeling of warm flesh pressed inside her body, which clenched and unclenched around his tongue gently. She could feel the tense beginning of her climax in her stomach, the sensation of female bliss that she had only dreamed about having with him. Gasping, moaning and whimpering above him, her need to climax became unbearable, even as she came closer to it. The feline's tongue now drove deeper into her body
"Kajex... I'm... I...!!!"
She never finished, crying out as the climax came at her as if she'd been struck, her belly releasing that tension as her honey flooded from her, a deliciously hard spurt of herself soaking the feline's muzzle as he hungrily licked her clean, making her moan still more. It was fulfilling, yes, but not totally... she wanted one thing more, if she could, but could not bring herself to ask, nor was able to, as his rough tongue was incredibly pleasing, the way it moved along the folds of her body...
She didn't need to ask either, as the feline finished up cleaning her up. She squeaked, feeling a weight next to her on the bed, to find her master totally nude, making her gape. He was exactly as she had thought he was, athletically built, yet, as she found moments later, extremely pleasing to cuddle with- and the size of his package did not go unnoticed either, as it was rather difficult to miss the 7 inches of black feline cock that stood erect between his legs. She looked hungrily at it, then back up at him, and found herself lost in his eyes once more... those damned hypnotically attractive eyes, those eyes that made her feel safe and loved as they stared back into hers, the same ones that told her she could trust him...
And she did trust him.
She pushed herself onto his bed in the correct position, her head on a pillow, and the feline smiled down at her, moving himself over her. She shivered slightly, but was calmed immediately by a number of small, affectionate kisses aimed at her neck and cheek. She churred again as her master nuzzled lovingly into her neck, relaxing under him, reaching up to rub his shoulders with the same affection. They shared one more kiss, this one gentle, and sending the bat's senses reeling from the amount of feeling she felt in it. She could feel his hard member teasingly pressing along her outer lips. They were used, ravaged ones, she knew in the back of her head... but if he did what he was going to do... she felt she could be whole again, be undone from that time.
The thought erased itself as she moaned under him long and softly, the Trianii pushing himself into Sannis body gently, each inch excruciatingly blissful as it slid painfully and pleasurably into her young sex. They kissed the whole while, until the feline hilted with her- 7 inches of his flesh was now in her body, and it fit perfect inside her. She panted needfully.
"... Master... heal me..."
The feline nodded, kissing her forehead affectionately. He pulled out a little quicker than he had entered, the loss of inches in her body just as pleasing as when they entered. She whimpered blissfully, as he drove himself in again, meeting his thrust with a counter-thrust of her own, making it slip in faster and causing them to grind hips into each other. She moaned again, as they worked up a rhythm, the bat slipping her legs around her lover's waist, loosening and tightening her grip around them in accordance to his movements, the feeling of his warm cock in her moist cunny like an indescribable feeling of joy she could not put in words. She loved how it felt, their mating, as with each passing second it became more passionate.
She held herself close to his body, running her paws along his back in rubbing motions, kissing him as he made love to her, his heavy sac bouncing along the bottom of her cunny. She smiled seductively under him as she clenched around his cock, making it hard to leave, and then easy to enter as she unclenched, easily bringing the jaguar's pleasure up a notch. He was groaning, growling in bliss as he mated her passionately, and looked down to raise an eyebrow in amusement. He smiled back, returning to their onset of coitus, thrusting harder still into the depths of her body.
She gasped as his passion came in a manner more than physical- she sensed clearly a tendril of emotion welling up outside of her, and reached out to contact it. Her lover's essence, while he himself was making love to her, mixed with hers, doubly creating blissful sensations in her body as well as her mind. She could feel them become one entity as they mated, and she knew clearly that they were together in more than just the physical sense. He was... kind... gentle... loving... and yes, he was serious at times, harsh in training, and was angered easily... but only because he cared so much for her... only because he loved her this much... as they entwined with each other in mind and spirit, she came to realize all this.
And she snapped back into reality as the welling bliss in her body mounted to a height she had never reached on her own, crying out as she came hard, harder than when her master had treated her earlier, soaking each others hips with her honeyed juice, clenching hard around her lover's cock, milking the seed that had only now exited his body. For he came at that same moment, snarling over her, then groaning in tune with her moaning as thick waves of his searing hot seed pumped into her body, the slow torrent of his semen gracing her body. They tensed, holding each other close and lovingly, as their orgasms passed.
The Trianii nuzzled his new mate carefully, affectionately. "Sannis... are you alright?"
The bat looked up at him, smiling...
"I fell for the dark one..."
He chuckled, kissing her nose. "I love you, Sannis..."
She kisses him gently before answering. "I love you too, Kajex..."
There was silence. Then the Trianii smiled down at her, eyes narrowed.
"But don't think that your training will be less painful because of this."
She grinned mischievously, and cuddled with him as he slid next to her in bed. They drifted off into sleep, holding each other close, while their minds still connected as they dreamed.
I hope you're enjoying this. There's more- leave a comment, this is the first stuff I've ever posted online, and I could really use some constructive criticism. ^^;