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After yesterday's night of fright, I was shocked and surprised at the same time. It was the first time I met his parents as their son's mate and oh boy it was terrifying. The end result was favourable to our relationship in the end, and I am thankful for that. Honestly his parents are understanding people; my concern was more in the area where they don't believe best friends could be boyfriends. My concern proved to be in vain, and his mom even thinks we're good together. It's like expecting a fail but scoring an ace in return. I know I couldn't ask for more, I also can't believe all that happened.

Of course, his parents are also way too much enthusiastic over our relationship. This is a first pairing for his parents, Jo and I. Everyone is new to supporting a relationship. My usual worrying self is afraid of that fact, for first times are bound to have the most mistakes. I really hope that nothing goes wrong. The more we invest into the relationship, the more painful it hurts when we break up, if we ever did. I really don't know what to think. I feel like a scumbag thinking like this. Such thoughts only hinder our relationship, and it isn't as though relationship get better or easier with more partners. At times like this, Jo would tap me in the head and ask me to snap out of it.

I should try my best in this relationship as Jo deserves my everything. That I know very well, but in a relationship is there such thing as trying one's best? Shouldn't that come naturally if you do love him?

That was all in my head yesterday when I was on my bed going to sleep. I can't stop myself; I just had to think of something. It used to be my trashy life, my school work... or Gerrald. The bear, huh... I covered my head with my pillow as I tried to drown all the echoes in my mind.

After I wake up this morning thanks to a text notification, I tap on my phone to find a mushy wake up text and an invitation to his house again. Now that we are having a break from school, pretty much every day is a free day. Occasionally we run errands for other people, but most of the time is just relaxing and spending time with each other.

Did I mention how much I love sleeping? I'm never an early person, and today Jo wants me to go over like immediately. One can never guess what the wolf is up to, and that's one of his infinite trait that I love about him; he is like a walking element of surprise. I eventually made it to his house where he greets me and we both make way into his room.

"I still can't believe we got past your parents," I say as Jo closes his door.

He laughs as I sit on his bed then lay down with a sigh. "Me too, but we both know that this is true, that my parents approve of us," Jo smiles as he sits on his chair and rolls over to me.

"I'm envious though..."

"Envious? Of my parents?" the grey wolf raises his eyebrows as I nod, "Well, soon enough they will be your parents too, you know..."

I blush as I figured where he is going with this. "But seriously though," I ask, "don't you dislike the fact that my parents still don't know about us?"

"To be honest? I dislike it very much," the wolf says in disappointment as he looks down, "It's not that I want to shout out about our relationship, but to hide it from your parents... and we live so near each other, I can't even hold your hand outside in front of others... I don't want to have to hide. But I also understand that this cannot be helped. I don't want to rush you into anything, really... I just don't want to hide... forever. I know it's very hard on you, honey... and even more so now that my parents are into this. I want you to remember that we will never pressure you to tell your parents, so please don't ever feel pressured because of me. I don't want to put you back into your overthinking mode again. Okay?"

I nod as he reaches out to stroke my head, "We understand that your parents follow the old tradition, we understand that if you could tell them you would. Not to be rude, but if I had your parents I would be afraid to tell them too. You simply _had_to be an alpha, don't you?"

I scowl at him, "I never wanted to be one... you can take my place anytime. But I guess... Sorry to bring such a depressing topic early in the morning."

He smiles as he moves from his chair to the bed, "Oh but I couldn't just take your place, my alpha."

I push him hard and he falls off the bed with a surprised yelp, "Quit teasing me with that. You know I don't like it."

"My, my," he grunts as the dusts himself while standing, "Aren't my wolf grumpy in the morning?"

"You woke me up early though you know I enjoy sleeping in when there's no school. Sorry, big boy, can't help it," I say with a smile.

"I just want to spend more time with you, honey. I texted you after they just left the house," Jo pouts. Yeah, that's how his family was after Will went off to college. We rarely had private time with one another and we were busy with school last time. I guess that's where Jo is coming from... I don't blame him at all. Is this the perk of having a best friend turning into boyfriends? We just understand each other. But that doesn't save us from arguments though.

"Why don't we take a nap and sleep in for a while more?" I suggest. For some reason Jo stops and looks at me, "Together?"

"U-uh... I guess? Since we're together and all...?" I hesitate as I didn't think of this beforehand.

"Okay!" he agrees enthusiastically with a huge smile and hops on to his bed. I shift to make space for the big grey wolf before making a yelp as the reaches out to scoop me into his arms and pull us under the covers. He gives a content growl and squeezes me as he rest his muzzle at the back of my neck. "You have no idea how much I've been waiting for this, Typh. This is literally a dream come true to me," my grey wolf says softly, "Ah, but no talking now. Let's take a nap together, honey."

I ponder for a moment as he snuggles closer to me. I make a mental note to ask him later; because right now the fluffy pillows, the soft bed and a big warm furry bolster is just _drawing_me to sleep ...

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I wake up to someone else sleeping beside me. I panic a little before realising it's my grey wolf beside me. I always sleep alone, so this little change affects me. I reach down my pocket and take out my phone. Huh... it's been an hour of napping already?

"Morning, honey," Jo calls out as I jump visibly, "Did I wake you?"

"N-no," I say softly, embarrassed by my own reaction, "Did I?"

"I was already awake for a while... I couldn't nap much," he says, rolling me over to face him. He looks at me before giving a huge grin, "Is this how it is like, waking up to your boyfriend?"

I reach out and pinch his cheek playfully, "I guess... Too bad we're not living together though."

"I can think of countless things that I want to do and experience with you, I can't wait," Jo replies and nuzzles me. I can't help but grin at my boyfriend. That is when I remember. "You dream of me sleeping with you before?" I ask casually.

"W-what? It's nothing dirty, I swear!" Jo says bashfully, "I just dreamt of waking up to you a while ago... that's all."

I chuckle as he pouts and say, "Really! You don't believe me?"

I yelp as he starts to tickle me. I squirm to fight back and we end up having a small wrestling match on his bed. Jo eventually tumbles off his bed and pulls me along with him. We roll on the floor, stopping the match and we lay down panting on the floor, tails wagging in joy.

He stands up after catching his breath and carries me back to his bed. He leans down and gives me a peck on my muzzle. I squirm in happiness and wrap my arms around his neck. He gives a growl of approval and asks, "You know... about yesterday night? About what my mom asked?"

"Hmm? Which part?" I ask.

"T-the one about us..." Jo replies shyly, blushing and looking away, "You know... that we never did... it?"

"W-why? W-what about it?" I reply softly.

"I was wondering if... you might want to change that?" he looks at me with his very pink muzzle. My eyes widen as my boyfriend is asking me for... for sex.

"Here? Now?" I ask as my heartbeat jumps faster.

"I... I don't want to rush you into anything, honey. So it doesn't have to be right now... Just telling you that I'm open to this idea?" Jo says bashfully. It is very hard to resist this huge puppy on top of me; I'm excited but at the same time scared. I've never done this before...

"I don't know... how to go about doing it..." I admit with a whisper.

"And neither do I... but are you okay with, er... taking a step further?" Jo says, stroking my cheek with his paw. I smile and lick his nose, "I believe so... you're kind of pushy when it comes to that."

Jo's ears flatten slightly, "Sorry..."

"Nah, it's nothing to apologise about," I grin at him and scratch the back of his head, "you're a handsome stud, it's kind of endearing I guess."

The grey tail wags in return, while he speaks, "We may have no experience in this, but I guess instincts should be able to guide us through."

With that he leans down again and gives me a kiss. Not just a small peck, but a longer tongue wrestling. I open my lips and grant him entry. His tongue probes carefully like a cautious explorer as I moan lightly and lap at it, coaxing it in for more. As my soft moans reach into his grey ears, his kiss begins to get more aggressive, as though given the green light to kiss me deeply.

I grip the back of his head as our tongues swap positions, making my tongue the one lounging into his muzzle, gaining dominance of this kiss. He didn't resist me and play along with it, obediently suckling on my tongue. I never thought I would be the one leading a kiss, but my instincts are just bursting with enthusiasm. There is so much more that I want to do with our kiss, but we run out of breath. We have to break away from the kiss, leaving a trail of saliva as the proof of our kiss.

"Wow," my grey wolf says between pants, "T-that was... wow. It's like our first, but at the same time it isn't... You know?"

"You totally just kissed those words from my mouth," I say as I look into his hazel eyes with a smile. I feel those instincts calling for me as I grab his shirt and pull him into another full blown kiss. He falls with a surprise, but reciprocates my kiss quickly. I was rarely this dominant in our relationship, I don't know if Jo agrees with this sudden change, but with his eve wagging tail and my raging instincts, I don't really care right now. I am rather shocked at myself as I continue leading the second kiss; perhaps I do have an alpha in me after all.

As we catch our breath the second time, Jo still looks surprised at me. He smiles and cup my cheek with his right paw, "You're also an element of surprise yourself, my alpha."

"I'm sorry," I say quickly, "Was I too harsh?"

"Do not apologise, honey. I love how you are being dominant earlier. The look in your eyes... I might be imagining, but I thought felt the alpha inside," Jo says, "I just wanted to give in to you. I don't know how to explain, but it's not a bad thing at all. If anything, it just makes me want you more."

Before I can say anything to contest that, my boyfriend presses himself against me, nuzzling my tenderly and lick my neck. I have this huge sexy beast on top of me that I have just made out with; it's making my lusty instincts take over my mind. I can feel his paws running underneath my shirt as he begins to bite at my neck. Is this how mating is supposed to be? This... this is so... intense... My wolf is bringing out all the primal urges in me. Is this how he felt when he said he wanted to take me? I thought I would have lost all these instincts, but Jo... my grey wolf is bringing all of them back out, I've never wanted Jo more.

When he rubs my belly, I squirm in pleasure. I love belly rubs and Jo knows it. But that certain gesture brings out another form of urge. I blush in embarrassment as my stomach growls, disappointed at the lack of attention.

Jo stops in surprise and looks at me, not sure how to react. Eventually he can't stop keeping in his laughter and apologised. "Talk about a mood spoiler," I mumble.

Jo still has his grin on as he put some distance between us, "I'm sorry, honey. It was just... out of the blue. I admit that I forgot that you haven't had breakfast."

I sigh as I roll off his grasp, sitting up and wondering where to go from here. "Sorry though," I apologise to the grinning wolf.

"It's okay," my wolf says, though clearly disappointed, "You are a natural tease. This isn't the first time. But anyway, get yourself some breakfast. I think you can make something from the fridge."

"I don't think it's healthy to keep you pent up like that," I say while stroking my hunky wolf.

"Pent up?" he asks, "Well, sometimes I do paw off while thinking of yo-"

"OKAY!" I yell as I cover my ears, standing up and make my way to his kitchen, "I didn't hear anything!"

I can hear my wolf chasing after me as I open the fridge. I feel his presence all over my back as he hugs me from behind. I hear him chuckle as I take out some eggs and ham. "Don't be shy, honey," Jo says, "We almost had sex earlier, you know."

I put down the ingredients and close the fridge before turning to my wolf. "That doesn't mean I want to hear you saying that you've been touching yourself," I say as I poke his nose.

He laughs and takes a seat while I cook some simple breakfast. Sex never had been a factor in our relationship; we were content more about having each other than those primal needs. It was a small surprise to me... I remember Jo being assertive even when we haven't got together and we still haven't had sex yet, it's quite a wonder. I frown in wonder, if Jo has been holding back all along so as to not rush me? It makes me sound as though I'm weak and fragile and I don't like it.

I turn back with the scrambled eggs in the pan, finding my boyfriend resting his muzzle on his right paw, staring at my general direction dreamily. His nose is sniffing curiously at the smell of food, but he eyes is still fixed. I have a small urge to smack his face with a pan to snap out of it.

I sit down after placing the pan in the sink. I wave at his muzzle and finally got his attention as he looks at me. "What are you spacing out for?" I ask as I blow at the sizzling food.

"You, of course," Jo admits with a stupid grin. I roll my eyes and bit down on the eggs. He nudges me and I look back at him. "Feed me," he asks shamelessly with that stupid grin still on his muzzle.

I sigh in defeat before spearing a piece of egg with the fork and offering it to him. He takes my paw with his and bites on the egg with a happy bark, tail wagging madly. I shake my head and laugh. That's Jo for you; it's hard to get angry at him for long.

My grey wolf sighs happily and rests his muzzle on the table. "I can get used to this," he says dreamily while looking at me with his grey tail wagging lazily. I laugh and tap him on his head, "Please, we still have a long road to go before we can live our life together under the same roof."

"Shh," he waves at my paw, "Let me continue to enjoy this moment for now."

I shake my head at my silly Jo and continue to consume my breakfast. Although I hate to admit it, but what I said earlier is true. There are so many things that we have not experience. We still have college, work and so much more to go. I'm afraid of the future for the first time. Last time I never really cared about anything. But now with Jo... he was the one who thaw me out of that shell. I love my grey wolf, but that is also the reason why I'm afraid. What does the future hold for us? Can we realise our dreams together?

I hate how much life is full of problems; just one after another. When one is solved, a new one will follow, not giving my mind any rest. But now I'm sure that I'm no longer alone. I have Jo to accompany me and face the new problems together... right? The look on my dreamy Jo isn't very convincing right now, though.

A grey paw grips mine as he looks up at me with a small smile, "We may have a long road to go, but we will walk together hand in hand, okay?"

I love how much Jo knows me. Though it sucks at times, but most of the time it makes things easier for each other to understand. Jo is flexing for me while I space out and stare at him. I roll my eyes while he laughs, "Quit spacing out, come on, let's do the washing together. We still have a day to spend with each other!"

We may be able to cope with the unknown future, after all.