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Scared, alone, and without a nerve left in his body, Kokuei strode

bravely up to the front counter. It wasn't in his nature as a wolf to be

so coy and secretive; he would much rather be loud and proud about what

he was doing. But despite his fear, despite his angst, despite the fact

that at any moment someone he knew could enter the store and see him,

he plopped the package of adult-sized, ultra-thick diapers up on the

counter. The elderly aged pink and yellow bird tilted her head at the

obscure purchase, but rang it up none the less.

"$14.99," she stated. Kokuei nodded and handed her a twenty.

"Keep the change," Kokuei boldly stated, doing his best to maintain his composure.

Without a second thought, he grabbed his package and strode quickly out

of the store. Stuffing the package into his backpack, the 18 year old

wolf made no hesitation to enter the icy cold blizzard outside. He

wasn't in the mood to keep around waiting, no, he had to get home as

soon as possible. This was why he hadn't gone to school today; class was

cancelled, and for a senior in high school who was in extreme angst,

today was the perfect time to complete a rather large goal he'd set for

himself long ago. He'd gotten strange urges, discovered some sites and

talked to some people, and today was the day he was going to do what

he'd been wanting to do: to get some diapers, and experience something

he had been yearning for for a long, long time.

He knew how silly he was for going out in the middle of a storm like

this to simply buy diapers - but he simply couldn't help himself! It

was something he wanted to do for months now, and for one reason or

another, he avoided it because he was too shy. But he was nearly done

with high school, and stress was at it's worst. Nothing seemed more

entertaining to Kokuei than to indulge in his secret fantasies and

desires, and for reasons unknown, those desires meant wearing diapers

and acting out in ways he wouldn't ever dare admit to. With his parents

gone at work, and his schooling far from his mind - he had the whole day

ahead of himself to indulge in whatever he wanted with intimate

privacy... and he just couldn't wait to begin!

With the diapers that he longed for finally in his possession,

nothing could stop him now. The red and yellow wolf's fur fluffed and

shivered as the freezing winds blew past him, but it only made him run

faster. Heat from the adrenaline rush kept him warmer than any coat

could have, and the thought of finally putting on a diaper and doing his

worst kept him from slowing down as he jogged with haste down the

sidewalk. He followed a route he had taken countless times, but it

seemed longer than ever. The wolf became so eager that he nearly became

reckless; quickly sprinting through intersections and crossing busy

roads as he journeyed along a familiar route back home. Inevitably, his

efforts paid off - and in no time at all, he found himself panting

wildly as he clumsily stumbled through the front door of his house.

The wolf was exhausted from the long run, but he found the strength

to move forward. Loudly slamming the door behind him, he huffed and

puffed his way through his warm and comfortable home with tired, heavy

steps; clumsily staggering through the living room, up the stairs, and

into his bedroom. Kokuei didn't even need to bother checking the house

for his Mom or Dad as he shut the door behind himself and tossed the

diapers on his bed. He knew they were going to be gone for quite some

time, and he wasn't going to waste precious time.

His room was silent, all except the sound of his own breathing and

the gusting wind outside. Kokuei sighed and breathed in deeply to help

relax. The feeling of being alone, of doing what he wanted in secret was

simply exhilarating, and his heart was pounding rapidly from all of the

physical and mental excitement. If he was truly going to go all the way

in his diapers, like he longed to do - then every muscle in his body

would require total and complete relaxation. The wolf's mind would need

to be at ease for his experience to be the best it could be.

First, he kicked his winter boots off into the corner and stripped

himself free of his shirt, pants and socks. The chilly air made him

shiver and playfully wiggle about on his bed, which felt great to lay on

after such a strenuous run. The wolf was down to his underwear, but he

quickly did away with those too - carelessly flicking them off and away

to some unknown destination on the floor. Brushing his bare naked fur

against the warm blankets below him, Kokuei began to withdraw his mind

from a world of stress and into a carefree, and simpler mindspace.

Next, the young wolf tore into his prize, stripping one side of the

package of diapers. His heart continued to pulse rapidly as he grabbed a

diaper at the edge of the row, and rejoiced as he held it in his paws

for the first time to examine it. It was plain white, soft, and puffy -

and he felt his heart go aflutter as it crinkled loudly in his grasp;

the sharp noise broke the silence of his bedroom and practically

startled him! But a smile crept across his face as he began to wonder

what it would be like being finally back in a diaper, and what it would

be like to finally use it! Would he like it? Would he love it? This was

his first time in diapers since he was physically a cub, and he wasn't

sure what he would consider 'holding up.' He shrugged, pushed the

package to the foot of his bed, sprawled out and undid the folded

diaper.

There was no more time to waste.

His first question was how exactly to put the thing on. He fumbled a

bit, feeling stupid, but eventually he realized that the side with the

tapes went underneath, and the side with the landing pad went on the

front. Next, Kokuei adjusted the diaper underneath himself until it felt

about right. After he knew the diaper was positioned right, he reached

out to his nightstand and grabbed a nearby bottle of baby powder. He had

lied to everyone about it's true purpose, explaining that he liked the

smell and used it for every-day uses... but only he knew that it was for

his diapers!

Kokuei powdered himself as he sheepishly stuck his butt into the

air, and breathed in deeply to appreciate the smell he loved so much.

The soft, babyish aroma made him shiver with delight, and instantly

brought out his inner cub. Kokuei felt his perspective change as he

excitedly began to feel younger, and the need for his diaper's embrace

overwhelmed him! Setting the bottle of baby powder aside, he quickly

brought the diaper's front to its taping position, and then taped it as

tightly as he could. Finally, he brought his tail through the tailhole

in the back of his diaper... and simply took in the experience of being

diapered for the first time in a long, long time...

This was exactly what he'd been wanting and yearning for. It felt right...

and he felt good. The red and yellow wolf panted happily as his tail

swayed back and forth contently, and he took a moment to appreciate the

moment before moving on to other things. Sitting up, Kokuei truly began

to notice the thickness of the diaper he was in. He grabbed at the

crotch of the diaper, pushing in towards his sensitives. He could hardly

feel himself through the white puffy cloud between his legs! Kokuei

brought his legs together with some difficulty, and pivoted his body

around to get a glance of his diapered butt in the nearby mirror to

appreciate what he had to show himself.

The diaper poofed out and crinkled loudly as he squirmed with delight,

wiggling his diapered butt at the mirror to examine himself... and the

excited wolf began to wonder just how much such a thickly padded diaper

could handle! He wanted to do so much more in his diaper, and the

thought of wetting and even messing himself began to excite him even

more as fantasy began to become reality. Could it really hold all he had

to give it? With such a full bladder, and certainly full bowels - could

it really withstand all of the attention he was yearning to provide?

There were a lot of questions on Kokuei's racing mind, and the eager

wolf was sick of asking them. It was time to finally get some answers!

Approaching the mirror, the wolf rubbed his bare belly before shyly

glancing down at the heavily padded diaper between his legs, and then

back at himself in the mirror. The need to pee and poop had been present

since he had woken up several hours ago, and he was doing his best to

take in plenty of sustenance to feed the desire to go. Rubbing his lower

tummy, he could feel it swollen and tender - or maybe it was all in his

imagination. How much volume would it hold? Kokuei loved the idea of

being a squishy wolf, and especially loved the idea of being quite the

stinker! But his nerves made it hard for his ideas to come to life.

Staring at himself in the mirror, the wolf began to remember the advice

he was given from other diaper lovers he knew online - and he did his

best to put it all to good use. First, he controlled his breathing to

calm his nerves, and the wolf could feel the tension begin to melt away

from his shoulders down to his toes. Next, he closed his eyes, and tried

to imagine himself in front of a toilet to trick his mind. Years of

reinforced toilet training made it hard for him to let go! Finally, he

simply concentrated and focused on the full bladder that needed so badly

to empty, and reassured himself over and over again that it was all

going to be safe in his diaper...

It seemed silly to him to have to meditate so strongly, but it was an

effective method. Seconds stretched to minutes, but inevitably, a

reluctant drop of pee drooled into the safe confines of his diaper - and

that only encouraged a trickle to follow. In no time, Kokuei felt

himself about to melt in the warmth of his own warm, wet diaper as a

steady stream filled it up. Opening his eyes, he watched as the pure

white diaper's surface gave way to a tarnished, soiled yellow. The

distant sound of trickling accompanied the sight of his diaper engorge

and bulk as it absorbed the flood of pee that didn't seem to end.

Kokuei exhaled and smiled as he pressed the soggy diaper against

himself, feeling what he had done. The hot insides of the diaper gave

him goosebumps as it contrasted with the chilly air in the room, and its

warmth seemed to stretch out past his crotch to the rest of his body.

Staggering backwards a bit, Kokuei continued to press his sagging, wet

diaper against himself... but it wasn't enough for him. His diaper could

handle much, much more - and the wolf had every intention of fulfilling

its hungry appetite. To be in a soggy, squishy, and full diaper was the

only thing Kokuei could think about now!

The wolf squatted down to the floor obediently as he submitted to his

overwhelming desires. His bowels felt so heavy and full now, and the

empty cushion under his tailhole taunted him. With his knees bent and

his hands pressed firmly on the ground between his legs, the wolf kept

his eyes shut and pushed attempt to fill his empty diaper, but it was in

vain. His heart was racing so fast and throbbing so hard, and the

wolf's testerone was surging; it was becoming nearly impossible to

concentrate! But he pressed on, and he pushed forward and outward.

Controlling his breathing like he did just minutes ago to wet himself,

the wolf calmed his eager panting and did his best to breathe in and out

through his snout and out of his muzzle. Pressure in his bowels

worsened as his brain argued with his stubborn tailhole, and he began to

reassure his reluctant subconscious that everything was going to be

okay. His years of toilet training continued to meddle in his messy

affairs and make things so much more difficult than Kokuei wanted them

to be! But his desire to be such a stinky wolf would inevitably

overpower his apprehension, and soon, he could feel his body beginning

to cooperate.

"Mmph!" he whined.

Muscles in his whole body began to tense up, and his tail raised up and

outward - naturally flagging and twitching as his tailhole began to

relax. His stomach gurgled and the great pressure in his lower belly

shifted about as things began to move. His tailhole stretched out, and

the wolf squatted down lower as he felt poop glide out of him and into

the safe confines of his diaper. Euphoria came over Kokuei, and he

sighed in relief as the pressure relieved itself as his diaper became

fuller, heavier, and began to sag between his legs. Audible crinkling

from the weight of his diaper stretching out under his heavy mess

reassured Kokuei that he was doing a good job of filling it as much as

he could, and he pressed.

Some time passed as Kokuei's full bowels emptied themselves, and by the

time he felt himself finished, his diaper seemed as though it would fall

off it weren't for the tightly applied tapes. The wolf found himself

panting in the end, and aglow with feels from the experience of having

finally found himself in such a heavy, stinky, messy diaper. The toasty

mess between his legs radiated its warmth up against his sensitives with

intimacy, and the wolf squatted lower to tickle himself with its its

warm embrace. Goosebumps riddled his fur as the soaking wet and messy

diaper stole the wintery chill from his body...

Descending further down, Kokuei was not shy to feel the poopy diaper

mush against him as he slowly sat down onto the floor below. The young

wolf moaned as he felt his mess spread like a thick paste; spreading

between his buttcheeks in one direction, and between his legs in the

other. The bulk of the diaper seemed to hold him high off of the floor,

yet he continued to sink further down into the thick mess and padding -

and Kokuei wouldn't have had it any other way. Wriggling about gently,

his heart was aflutter as he found himself in quite the stinky, messy

predicament - and he smiled as his innermost desires were finally met.

But alas, the adrenaline rush of messing himself was quick to give way

to a more erotic desire; the feeling of being soiled in the security of

his diaper made Kokuei feel aroused and submissive. Why did this turn

him on so much? Was it the taboo of sitting in his poopy diaper that

made him feel like he was living on the edge? Was it the smells and

foreign sensation of his used diaper mushing around underneath him that

made him feel so dirty and used? Or was it merely how the messy and wet

diaper felt against his sensitives that tickled him just right that sent

him over the edge? The wolf did not know, nor did the wolf care - for

all he cared about now was enjoying this moment all to himself, where no

one judged him.

As the wolf wriggled about in his diaper, the tickling of his diaper's

well-lubricated insides massaged his delicate sexparts, and he grew

hornier and hornier. What would others think of him if they knew how

much of a good, submissive little pup he was - playing in and making

love to his diapers with gentle thrusts and squirms? It was only a

matter of time before his natural instincts took over, and Kokuei found

himself panting and stiffening his muscles as he pressed himself down

and rocked back-and-forth in his poopy diaper; his each thrust forward

charged with more sexual energy each time.

Soon, as Kokuei masturbated with his diaper - the outside world

disappeared, and all that mattered to him was finishing the job he had

started. He and his diaper shared an intimate moment that he had longed

for, and they both loyally served each other. Spurts of pee and

prespooge escaped him as he pushed out as much as he could, and his

diaper rubbed and tickled him in all of the best ways possible in

return. It was an even exchange, but not one that would last much

longer. The horny wolf was bouncing, wriggling, and grinding about in

his well appreciated diaper, and he was coming close to the end!

"Agh! Mmmph!" Kokuei whined.

With each loving thrust that rubbed his genitalia, the euphoric heat of

sexual satisfaction grew, and inevitably approached climax. Kokuei

pushed and pushed and pushed, but soon lost control as he felt the

overwhelming sensation of a powerful orgasm take over his body! Snapping

his head back, he shut his eyes tight, and pleasure erupted throughout

his body. Crying out in pleasure, his thrusts faded from reckless vigor

to slower, more passionate lovemaking with his diaper, and it swallowed

all of his juices obediently into its absorbent interior like a good,

submissive partner would.

But all good things must come to an end.

The loud sloshing and crinkling began to quiet down as his humping began

to calm down. The orgasm was slowly dropping off from the electrifying

plateau, and falling into a blissful afterglow - and Kokuei quickly lost

his drive. With a few wet, sticky humps to finish himself off, he

weakly fell over onto the floor, panting and covered in sweat from

exhaustion. The wolf's whole body seemed to buzz and tingle from the

powerful orgasm, and even his mind seemed to be lost in the euphoria as

satisfaction melted the stress away.

Kokuei spent some time lying there on the floor in his wet, messy, and

now sticky diaper; the bulk still pressing up against his taint as a

constant reminder of what he had just done. It made him feel so happy to

finally be himself. He knew it was a strange fetish, but it was a

harmless one, so he knew he had no shame. In fact, he seemed to take his

heavily used diaper as a bit of pride; so much poop, so much pee, and

so much sticky mess - but no leaking! How much more could it handle? Was

it really as much as he thought it was, or was it all in his head?

Kokuei didn't care. He was far too tired now to find any more answers to

any more questions. The long run and spending so much time grinding

himself to orgasm had completely tuckered him out. Nothing seemed more

satisfying now than sleep! His whole body was so heavy, and he doubted a

second wind would be coming anytime soon. Stretching out and wriggling

around, the wolf couldn't even conjure the strength to carry himself to

his bed.

Simply giving in, he let his eyelids slowly slide themselves shut, and

he happily fell off into a well deserved nap on the floor. And so,

Kokuei's secret, messy diaper desires were fulfilled at last, and the

stressed out wolf was no more. He knew that he would need to find a

hiding place for the rest of his diapers, find a way of disposing of his

stinky diaper, and then surely take a shower - but it could wait for

now. Until then, he was long lost in a dream, enjoying the best sleep he

had had in a long, long time.