FSE

Furry search engine

formerly SoFurry search engine

"Nox! Get up! You're gonna be late for school!" ,Tellus shouted up the stairwell, "That would make it the fourth time this week!" Nox grumbled, rolling over and looking at his clock. "Shit." ,he hauled himself from his bed and pulled on a wrinkled shirt and a stained pair of jeans from his bedroom floor. "Coming Dad!" He shuffled to bathroom and studied his reflection. The poochyena's emerald eyes were puffy and ringed in dark circles from lack of sleep. His fur and hair were a tangled mess, though his scar was still visible. "Eh, good enough. " He took the stairs two at time and headed to Tellus' car.

As they drove to Nox's school Tellus broke the silence, "Nox, you need to stop staying up all night. I know what you're doing in your room at night and it's not nearly as important as school." Nox flushed a bright red, his ears drooping slightly. "Dad!" Tellus chuckled softly, "I was thirteen once too son, only difference was I didn't have the internet or a laptop. All I had was a couple dirty magazines my friends gave me." He winked at Nox. "Daaaaaaad!" He buried his face in his paws. Much to Nox's relief, they arrived at the school. "Have a good day son." Nox turned and gave Tellus a hug. "I'll try Dad." He hopped out of the car and jogged into the building. Tellus smiled as he watched his adoptive son. "Make me proud Nox." ,he mumbled to himself as drove away.

Nox caught sight of the clock as he entered the school, picking up speed. "Shit shit shit! I can't be late again!" He rounded the last corner before his first period class and ran headlong into Ferus Dalon, a growlithe who happened to be his best friend. "Whoa! Nox, what's the rush?" He chuckled. "Ferus? Why aren't you in class yet?" Nox cocked his head. He was confused as Ferus was usually the first person in class. "Oh, uh, I was taking this note to english department head." He held up a slip of paper. "You better get in there Nox, you've got like 30 seconds." Nox stepped past the growlithe boy, into the classroom. "Right. See you later Ferus." The growlithe smiled. "Later."

Ferus sighed as he turned the corner. "Why'd it have to him of all people?" He had just come to terms with his homosexuality and was ready to start telling people."Damnit!" He cursed himself. "Why did Nox have to be the first guy to make me feel this way?" Ferus put a paw on his chest. His heart was still fluttery. He took a deep breath then continued on his way.

Nox watched Ferus walk down the hall and out of sight as he sat down. 'He was acting kind of weird...ah well, we can talk later.' The only free desk happened to be next to Nox's own crush, a vulpix girl named Ingrid Hawkins. He turned to her and smiled. "H-Hi Ingrid." HE chuckled nervously. "Hey Nox." She responded without even looking up from her book. "You actually made it on time today." Nox flushed lightly. "Y-yeah. I guess I did." The bell rang, signifying the beginning of the school day.

Ingrid closed her book and glanced over at Nox. 'He is kinda cute. I wonder why I never noticed before...' She pulled out her notebook and scribbled something down, then passed it over to him. Needless to say Nox was surprised by this. He took the notebook and read what was inside. 'Do you like me?' Nox swallowed and looked over at Ingrid. She was smiling at him. He quickly scribbled something inside and passed it back. Ingrid took the notebook and read what he had written. 'Yes'

Ferus walked into the classroom and immediately noticed Ingrid passing a notebook to Nox. 'What are they up to?' He took his seat next to Nox, leaning over to read what Ingrid wrote. 'Wanna do something after school?' His heart sank. 'Oh no...' He quickly scrawled a note of his own and handed it to Nox. 'Are you going out with Ingrid?' Nox smiled, wrote something and passed Ferus' notebook back to him. 'I think so, I'm not sure' The growlithe smiled, despite any chance he may have had with Nox slowly vanishing. He wrote then passed it to Nox. 'Well I'm happy for you, you got the girl of your dreams!'

The rest of the day passed uneventfully. Nox hurried to meet Ingrid outside. In his haste he didn't notice Ferus step into his path until it was too late. He barreled into his best friend, landing on top of him. "Oh geez! Sorry Ferus." Both boys blushed deeply as Nox stood, offering Ferus a hand. "It's cool. I was looking for you anyway." He took Nox's hand and stood. "Oh? What's up?" Nox asked. "It's nothing really. I was just wondering if you wanted to come over and hang out." Ferus replied. The poochyena boy rubbed the back of his neck bashfully. "Ooh, I can't. I kinda have a date with Ingrid. I was actually on my way to meet her." Ferus smiled. "It's cool. We can hang some other time." He stepped out of Nox's way. "I'll come over after, okay?' He walked backwards towards the doors waiting for a response. "Okay. See ya then." Nox nodded and ran out the door. Ferus sighed and opened his locker.

"How do I tell him how I feel?" Ferus laid on his bed staring at the ceiling. "Will he still be my friend after he knows?" He sighed. "Why does this have to be so damn hard?!" He sat up and read the notes he and Nox had passed between each other that day. "I wish it was as easy as passing a note." He heard a light tap on his door and stood, setting his notebook back down. He opened the door to find Nox standing there. "Oh! Hey Nox. What are you doing here?" Nox pushed past him and plopped down on the bed. "I told you I was coming over after my date, remember?" Ferus chuckled as he shut the door. "Oh yeah." He sat at his desk, opposite Nox. "So how'd it go?" The poochyena's face split into a massive smile. "It went awesome! We went to see a movie and afterward I walked her home and I kissed her!" He sighed dreamily and fell back on the bed. "Her lips taste like cinnamon." Ferus laughed. "You really like her don't you?" Nox propped himself up on one elbow and looked at Ferus. "Y'know what? I really do." Ferus smiled. "That's great....listen, Nox, there's something I have to tell you." Nox sat up, concerned. "Is everything alright?" Ferus took a deep breath. "Yeah, just listen. Nox, I'm...I'm gay." He steeled himself for whatever response Nox had.

Nox sat in stunned silence. His best friend had just come out to him. He floundered trying to come up with a response. "Do you hate me now?" Ferus asked. "What? No! You're my best friend Ferus, it's just....wow. It's kind of a surprise y'know?" Ferus smiled. "Yeah, it was a surprise to me too." He chuckled. Nox smiled in response. "Well, I guess I'll have to help you find the guy of your dreams." Ferus' smile shrank a bit. "Yeah...yeah I guess you will." Nox frowned. "What's wrong?" "Oh! It's, uh, it's nothing. This was just really hard to do." He looked up at Nox. "I'm glad you're cool with it though." Nox smiled and patted Ferus' back. "Like I said, you're my best friend."

A few weeks passed like this. Nox going on dates with Ingrid. Ferus listening to Nox recount them when he came over. All the while Ferus never let on just how much he liked Nox. Never letting on how much it hurt to hear how Nox was falling in love with Ingrid. He always put on a smile and told Nox he was happy for him.

Nox walked into Ferus' room. "I have got to tell about today's date dude! It was freakin' amazing! We went to see a movie again, but I couldn't tell the first thing about it. We were all over each other man!" Ferus put on his usual false smile. "Awesome. You gonna make a move soon?" Nox grinned deviously. "Oh definitely. I can tell she's waiting for me too." Ferus chuckled. "I'm happy for you." Nox frowned. "Is something wrong Ferus? You've been acting kinda distant lately." "Hmm? Oh, it's nothing. I don't wanna talk about it right now." Nox studied the growlithe for a bit. "Okay...You wanna come over to my place tomorrow?" Ferus looked surprised. "But, you always come here Nox. Why the sudden change?" Nox shrugged. "You've never been to my place, so I figure why not. Plus I don't have a date planned tomorrow." Ferus smile, happy for the first time in awhile. "Sure, I'd like that."

Ferus waited for Nox after school, his heart aflutter and his paws clammy. 'Why am I so nervous? It's not like this is a date!' He checked his phone. 'School ended ten minutes ago! Did he forget about this and go out with Ingrid instead?' He sighed, about to give up and walk home. Suddenly Nox burst through the doors. "Sorry I'm late! I had to get Ingrid off my back." He chuckled nervously. "Nox!" Ferus lost all self control momentarily, hugging Nox tightly. He blushed and backed up when he realized what he did. "Uh...sorry." Nox smiled. "It's okay, you got excited. I understand." "So, your place huh?" "Mhm, my dad's probably waiting for us. Follow me." Ferus nodded and followed Nox down the street a bit to Tellus' waiting car. "Ferus, this my dad." The torterra waved from the front seat. "Hey there."

"Your dad's a torterra?" Ferus gave Nox a confused look. "Yes. And my mother is a meganium." "Then that means you're-?" "Adopted. Yes." Nox smiled. "I'll tell you about it later." Ferus got in the car. "Okay. Nice to meet you mister...?" Tellus looked at Ferus in the rearview mirror. "Roberts. But feel free to call me Tellus." The torterra smiled brightly. "Okay dad, can we go now?" Nox said as he sat down. Tellus chuckled. "All right, off we go." He started the car and pulled away.

Nox practically dragged Ferus up to his room when they got to his house."Ah! You're gonna pull my arm off!" Nox chuckled. "Don't be such a baby!" Nox stuck his tongue out playfully when Ferus gave him a look. "Fine." He let go of the growlithe's arm as they entered his room. Nox flopped onto his bed and smiled up at Ferus. "I bet you have some questions, don't you Ferus?"

"Yeah, like how you got that scar, and what happened to your real parents."

Nox sat up and ran a paw through his hair. "I'll give you the condensed version. My parents died when I was around 10. I didn't take it very well and ran away. I lived on the streets for a few months when some neighborhood bullies decided it would be fun to rough me up a bit. Now, they didn't want to hurt me too bad just scare me. But one of them took it too far and pulled a knife. He did this-" He gestured to the large scar on his face. "to me, and then they ran. I just laid there holding my face and bleeding until Tellus, my adoptive dad, found me. He drove me to the hospital and not long after he and his wife adopted me. I've never been happier than the first day I walked into this house." A faraway look spread across Nox's face as he relived the memory. "Anyway, that's about it." He smiled at Ferus. "It's not the happiest story, but it's the only one I've got."

Ferus was speechless. "W-wow....I didn't know you had it so rough." Nox chuckled."Yeah. I don't like to talk about it very often. But you're my friend, so it's cool." Ferus bit his lower lip. 'If he was willing to tell me that, surely I can tell him how I feel. C'mon Ferus, man up!' He took a deep breath. "Nox, I have something I need to tell you." Nox looked up, surprise all over his face. "You do? What is it?" Ferus shook all over. His palms sweaty. "N-Nox....I'm.....I think I....I love you." He braced for Nox's reaction.

"R-Really? Wow." He smiled, blushing lightly. "That must be why you've been acting so weird around me. You thought I'd find out." Ferrus smiled shyly. "Y-yeah. Something like that." He looked away. "Actually, no. There's more I have to say. Y-you now how much you like Ingrid?" Nox nodded. "Yeah, what about it?" "Well, that's how I feel a-about....about...." He cursed himself under his breath. "That's how I feel about you, okay? I love you Nox, and it's eating me up inside. Because every fucking day I have to listen to you tell me about how you've fallen in love with Ingrid a little bit more."

"Ferus...." He watched as tears came to Ferus' eyes. "Ferus I....I'm sorry. If I had know I would've shut up. We don't always have to talk about me and Ingrid." Ferus glared at him. "I don't want a fucking apology." His face crumbled, a sob escaping his lips. "I want you."

"Ferus I-I...." "Kiss me." A look of shock spread across Nox's face. "W-what?!" "If you kiss me, right now, I'll be able to handle it." He looked at Nox, tears streaming down his face. "Please....I need this."

Nox sighed. "Okay....but Ingrid can't find out. Promise me that."

"I promise." He smiled.

"Kiss me like you'd kiss her." Nox took a breath. He leaned in and gently pressed his lips to Ferus'. His tongue slipped into the growlithe boy's maw, exploring every inch of it. At that moment his bedroom door opened. "Nox?!" He pulled away from the other boy. "Ingrid! I promise you this isn't what it looks like!" Tears began to stream down the vulpix girl's face. "Fuck you Nox!"

-END OF CHAPTER ONE-