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The soft melody of old human music resounds throughout my room, the lulling tune of their accented voices complementing the slow, chilled beat perfectly.

Slowly, I open my eyes, the drape of night having been cast over the world. Countless stars dot the heavenly gown, sparkling like gemstones of an unparalleled quality.

My bare chest rises as I take a deep breath of the warm apartment air, my paws gently resting on my stomach.

I can't get him out of my head... He's the only thing that occupied my mind the past three days and I can't make it stop. How is it he can get inside of my head like that? There's undeniable charm to him. He's sweet and friendly and quirky in an endearing kind of way... He was so shy when I first met him, but I think he's warming up to me. His way of conversation's becoming more casual and he invited me to stay the night at his house on Saturday. I'm not sure how to handle it, but I'm eager to around him; I crave his company.

I roll over onto my side, pulling my pillow close to me, the soft fabric rubbing against my chest.

I can't stop thinking about how close he was to me, either. When he was showing my casting stances, his chest was pressed to my back; his warm scent was practically intoxicating. But, Gods, I wish I could've just stood there like that with him; he's roused something in me... being close to him like that.

I can feel the tension grow in my boxers as I bite my lip and grip my pillow tightly.

Is it wrong... to feel like this? To think of him the way I do? To desire his attention and his affection? To crave his company and his touch? I can't tell... I don't know if this is right or not... Maybe it's a bit much of me to think of him sexually but... romantically? Maybe... I'm not sure... Maybe friendship is all that will ever come of this... I shouldn't think so much about this... you'll just disappoint yourself in the end...

I clutch my pillow tightly, whimpering softly.

No one else ever felt like that, so why would a handsome guy like him feel anything for me? He probably has a girlfriend, too...

A low groan parts my lips as I nuzzle into my pillow.

Or... maybe I'm just looking at it all too pessimistically. He might not be taken... and he might like me back; but it's way too early to say anything of the sort. As much as I wanna be close to him, I should take it at a steady pace... I'd hate to drive him off...

My gentle music softens, a familiar chime resounding before the song continues to play.

"The hell?"

I hop out of bed and slink over to my laptop, a small green notification bubble resting in the bottom corner of my desktop.

Without hesitating, I click on it, bringing up the chatlog that'd unfolded between Anthony and I over the past few days.

[23:07:47] sylver_drake290: Hey Dave

[23:07:48] sylver_drake290: You still awake?

[23:07:51] ZapKat122: Yeah. What's up?

[23:08:01] sylver_drake290: I wanted to tell you something that's really been bothering me these past few days.

[23:08:04] ZapKat122: Go right ahead, Anthony. I've always got an open ear for you.

[23:08:15] sylver_drake290: Look... When we were training, I didn't mean to get so close to you. I hope I didn't weird you out or anything.

[23:08:20] ZapKat122: Don't worry about it, big guy. You didn't weird me out. :3

[23:08:24] sylver_drake290: You sure? I can leave you alone if I did.

[23:08:31] ZapKat122: Of course I'm sure. I wasn't weirded out or anything. But please don't leave. I like having you around. ;w;

[23:08:44] sylver_drake290: Alright... I still feel bad for being all touchy.

[23:08:50] ZapKat122: I didn't complain, did I?

[23:09:02] sylver_drake290: No, you didn't. I was just worried I had freaked you out...

[23:09:08] ZapKat122: Don't worry, you won't run me off that easy. :b

[23:09:11] ZapKat122: I just hope that my reply didn't weird you out.

[23:09:16] sylver_drake290: I don't see why it would.

[23:09:19] ZapKat122: I just-

[23:09:20] ZapKat122: Uh-

[23:09:22] ZapKat122: I thought you might take it the wrong way. ^////^;

[23:09:25] sylver_drake290: Nah, don't worry 'bout it.

[23:11:27:] ZapKat122: So uh... you mentioned a movie last night. You seemed pretty eager to talk about it. :3

[23:11:39] sylver_drake290: Yeah. It's called "Rose Petal Dance". It sounds a bit flamboyant, but it's a great flick. It's about this canid warrior from ancient times and his companion and the journey they take together. There's tons of awesome effects and magic and the story is stellar. Sound interesting?

[23:11:42] ZapKat122: Totally! I love stuff like that! :D

[23:11:51] sylver_drake290: But... there's a bar scene with the companion that has some guy on guy action in it. We can skip it if you want or just pick a different movie.

[23:12:01] ZapKat122: Guy... on guy?

[23:12:05] sylver_drake290: Yeah. Like I said, we can just skip it or change movies if it bothers you.

[23:12:13] ZapKat122: No no! It's alright. That sort of thing doesn't bother me.

[23:12:16] sylver_drake290: So you're okay with it?

[23:12:20] ZapKat122: Yup. ^w^

[23:12:22] ZapKat122: Anything else, big guy?

[23:12:26] sylver_drake290: Nah, that's it.

[23:12:30] sylver_drake290: Really happy that you're okay with the movie, though.

[23:12:33] ZapKat122: Why wouldn't I be? Sounds pretty cool to me. :3

[23:12:38] sylver_drake290: Some people have issues with that type of thing.

[23:12:40] sylver_drake290: I'm just glad you don't, Dave.

[23:12:44] ZapKat122: Hey, we are who we are; who we love is just a little part of us.

[23:12:47] sylver_drake290: Your open-mindedness makes me smile.

[23:12:51] ZapKat122: Good. Smiling suits you. ;3

[23:13:00] sylver_drake290: Same goes for you, Mister Kat. A content smile looks great on you. ;)

[23:13:04] ZapKat122: Ey, save those sorts of compliments for your girlfriend. >w>

[23:13:08] sylver_drake290: I don't have one. I'm single.

[23:13:11] ZapKat122: O-Oh... Sorry... ;w;

[23:13:15] sylver_drake290: No worries, Dave. I'll find a partner sooner or later

[23:13:19] sylver_drake290: What about you? Do you have a partner?

[23:13:24] ZapKat122: N-No... I've had a few crushes, but I never acted on them.

[23:13:31] sylver_drake290: Don't worry too much about it. A nice guy like you is one hell of a catch. Someone's bound to snatch you up.

[23:13:37] ZapKat122: You flatter me, Anthony, but I doubt anyone'd take me.

[23:13:41] sylver_drake290: I would.

I swear I could feel my heart stop as I read those words.

Did he just... I mean... But... What?!

[23:13:45] sylver_drake290: I mean... you're really sweet and honest and all the things that I look for in partner.

[23:14:10] sylver_drake290: Sorry... that was really out of line. I shouldn't have said that.

[23:14:21] ZapKat122: N-No. I don't think it was. You were being honest with me.

[23:14:26] sylver_drake290: That doesn't mean I should've said that, Dave.

[23:14:31] ZapKat122: Yes, but you had the balls to tell me. You let me see a part of yourself. That, to me, is huge. It lets me know you trust me. :3

[23:14:37] sylver_drake290: Please don't leave...

[23:14:41] ZapKat122: What reason do I have to leave?

[23:14:50] sylver_drake290: What I said... most people don't think it's normal.

[23:15:02] ZapKat122: Well, I'm not most people. I find your honesty to be quite flattering. And the fact you'd be so open with me is a refreshing change. Just give it some time and we'll see what happens. ^w^ <3

[23:15:09] sylver_drake290: This isn't gonna make your visit awkward, is it?

[23:15:13] ZapKat122: Of course not! I'm still looking forward to our visit. :3

[23:15:16] sylver_drake290: Okay, good...

[23:17:19] sylver_drake290: Well uh... I'd best let you get some rest. I'll talk to you tomorrow, alright?

[23:17:23] ZapKat122: Alrighty. Hope you sleep well, Anthony.

[23:17:25] sylver_drake290: You too, Dave.

[23:17:43] *sylver_drake290 has signed off*

[23:17:51] *ZapKat122 has signed off*

With a soft click, I shut my laptop, sitting there as my head tries to cram countless thoughts into my stream of consciousness all at once.

Was he just trying to be nice? Or was his remark genuine? Why the hell does text have to be so damn hard to interpret?

I lean back as a soft groan parts my lips.

It's strange how forward he was being... Maybe he was just nervous and it slipped out. Or... did he mean what he said?

I take a deep breath of the warm air that fills my room, a single thought resonating amongst the cacophony of banter in my head.

However it is, just go with it. Don't rush anything and just go with the flow; you've got nothing to lose, do you?

I slip out of my seat before traipsing to my bed and leaping atop the still warm mattress, the seductive touch of sleep tracing my attention.

Whatever is to come, just take it all one step at a time. Even if things don't go as you hope, you'll still have a great friend to call your own... and that... that's something you've never had before...

I pull my over myself, the familiar fabric enveloping my form as I reach for my pillow and hold it close to my chest.

Just keep your head held high; you might miss what happens next if you don't.

I nuzzle into my pillow as a soft sigh parts my lips, the comfort of closeness bring a moment of quiet calm to my restless thoughts.

Good night, Anthony... Sleep well...