Sorry,
#1 of Journals
This is an apology/rant. That's all.
(DA Journal)
Sorry for being gone
sorry for being inactive
sorry for uploading no art lately
sorry for being lazy
I've been having a lot of personal problems and now I can't go to see my cousins until AFTER Christmas when I ALWAYS see them for Thanksgiving. Now I'm going to sit here for a whole week WASTING MY LIFE ON SKYRIM. I've got that game and so far I've played it for 240 HOURS. WHY DO I WASTE MY LIFE?! I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE DOING SOMETHING RIGHT NOW. I still have a commission to finish! D: Uhhggggg... My sister SHOULD be here, my mom keeps getting MORE emotional and decides NOT to listen to me, my mom thinks she knows EVERYTHING when she knows nothing. At least my dad TRIES to make things better, but sometimes he doesn't. A lot of adults lately in my life think they're doing "what's best" when all they're doing is just ruining my life and I can;t talk about it and tell them that they're WRONG because NO ONE WILL LISTEN to me...... OH YES, since my mom is SO emotional and she can't control herself she will almost KILL ME (not literally, but more of verbally) sometimes because everything has to be HER WAY and perfect to her and I just don't know ANYTHING compared to the woman who can't even take care of her FOURTH CHILD. Yes, I am the youngest of FOUR. I'm one minute younger than my twin and 18 YEARS younger than my oldest sibling. I'm 17 years younger than my second oldest sibling. But they're off and away with their own lives, so they're more like cousins to me. But, I do have cousins who have their OWN children. One of my aunts are so old that she's already a GRANDMOTHER. She's 63! D:< I just....!! I don't even know right now. I'm just ANGRY that my mother's such a control freak and that I have to live under a rock and not be at least A LITTLE more normal. Kids make FUN of me a school. The super rude "popular" kids. Of course, being me I don;t know how to properly DEFEND my self until later, when I've had time to THINK about it. Oh, and now one of my BEST FRIENDS moved. I know we have the internet together, but now I feel a little more... Alone since my other friends are normally on the other side of the room. >:T Wow, this apology has turned into a rant. I just need to do something to make me happy, to help me act like nothing's wrong, like I ALWAYS do. I need to make a rant PV as well, and some ref.s of my charas. Bye and thanks for reading~