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Room 18, D block, Boys dormitory... Utter silence. All is quiet except for the drone of the decade-old ceiling fan. Everyone is fast asleep, and here I am on my bed, staring blankly through the window, thoughts drifting back and forth. Summer. Summer. Summer. I glanced at my wristwatch. "3.51am, this must be a new record," I thought. I was a light sleeper, and getting to sleep alone was difficult.

Not long after, the school siren reverbs across the dorm, and I realized I managed to fall asleep. My watch indicates 6.30am, "guess it's time." I stretch on my bed and yawned loudly. I looked to my left and saw my roommate, Brent rubbing his eyes and licked his tail, grooming it perfect. The brown fox always does that every morning, he looks cute when he does that. "God, snap out of it Brian, he's your friend" I yelled inside my head.

"Morning Brian."

"Morning. Hey Brent, the usual please?"

"Sure thing."

After an extra 7 minutes of sleep, Brent woke me up.

"You sure that was the usual?" I asked.

"Yeah, 10 minutes and I wake you up, right?"

"10 seconds was more like it."

"whatever, get you bum into the shower, its already late."

"Since when am I not?" I joked.

I undressed, leaving me in my boxer shorts, then I slung my blue polka-dot towel over my head and made my way to the dorm shower.

The ice cold water streamed on my head fur. It was alarming as well as it was bliss. The coldness of the water swept away my lightheadedness, and I enjoyed every moment of it. I thought about summer yet again, so I can escape this prison they call school...

"Hurry up man, or we're gonna be late." Brent reminded me.

I ignored him and stared at the mirror on the inside of my locker door. Not bad for a sixteen year old Shiba, I thought. I looked at my dark brown fur and bushy tail. I'd say I'm muscular, but who am I kidding. Standing 5 foot 6, I run my hand down my slender tummy. God I turn my self on sometimes. I donned my un-ironed school uniform and caught up to Brent.

"Checking yourself out again?" He asked.

"So you noticed."

"Please Brian, every pup in this dorm notice."

"No they don't." A blush forming on my cheeks

"Apparently they do."

"Shut up.."

>>>

As usual, class was intense this time of the year, with assignment deadlines and exams creeping up. Right now is the third period and we're having English Literature Class. My teacher, Ms. Kyle is discussing the grammatical errors found in modern songs. It's kind of weird, how Ms. Kyle teaches, but as long as I'm on top of this class, I don't really care.

10 minutes passed and I'm already daydreaming about summer vacation. I wanted to escape student life. Here in James Mid High, most of the students dislike the idea of a person being gay. The hostility towards gay students may be controlled by the school, but I know better then to trust anyone. Out of fear and my safety, I had to act according to the general interest of the students. Maybe I'm a coward for not standing up for myself, but the odds may very well stack against me. Revealing is to hurt, and to hide is to hurt. The only thing I have at an advantage is summer vacation, where I am free from the chains of social inequality present in this school.

I glanced over to Brent. "wow, he's focused." I thought.

"Hey, Brent."

"What?"

"Wanna ditch gym?"

"You crazy? You know we might get into trouble."

"Oh come on, it's two weeks before summer, what can they possibly do?"

"Shh! Keep your voice down. By the way, they can 'possibly' suspend us from finals, duh"

"Touche... well whatever, I'm doing it anyway. See you at lunch?"

"Yeah." The fox have been my roommate for almost a year now, he is a really caring person, one that cares to my emotional needs. Though I never mentioned to him about my orientation, he seemed to get the idea that I'm a sensitive person at heart. Not to mention he is cute. Charming as he may be, I value our friendship as it is, and I certainly don't need to taint this beautiful thing by coming out to him. It's not a fairy tale where coming out would always sail smoothly.

During gym, I made my way to the school rooftop. Since the building faces the local beach at New Jersey, the winds blow strong and smelt like the sea. I opened the door to the rooftop and immediately felt soothing winds touching every corner of my body, strong yet intimate. I tuck my head fur behind my ear, inhaled deeply and looked around. A bench was located at the corner most part of the rooftop. I walked towards it. When I got close, there I saw a golden retriever laid down on his back with his tail as a pillow, sleeping beside the bench. I know this pup, he hangs out with the cool kids in class. My tail began to wag without me willing it. "why not on the bench?"

I propped sideways on the bench and scrutinized the golden retriever. His physique was bigger then mine, and he had his shirt untucked. The steady winds caused his shirt to flag around, and it allowed me to lather my eyes on his gorgeous tummy, slim but with a tone of muscle visible. My hands starts to shiver and my face felt hot. I got closer to his innocent sleeping face, all the while racking my brain trying to remember his name. was it Eric? Rick? Red?... Ron! and that last one I said aloud.

Groggily, he opened his eyes and caught me staring deeply into it. Onyx black with grayish reflection. By then, my face was only inches away from his. A sense of longing overwhelmed me. I closed my eyes and locked my muzzle into his without much thought, completely ignoring my surrounding for any possible witnesses. I felt horny and guilty at the same time. I didn't know the pup, let alone kiss him out of the blue. However, to my surprise, he kissed me back, pulling me off of the bench and into his embrace. During what felt to me like eternity, we kissed in utter silence, aided by the caressing of the sea breeze on our bodies. "If this is heaven then let me die right now," I pleaded in my head.

>>>

Lunch wasn't so inviting, but the smile planted on my face didn't waver. I scanned my school cafeteria for a pup with brown headfur with yellow highlights, Brent. Then I heard his voice calling me from behind. Sure enough, he's already sitting down and halfway through his chowder, with a smudge on is highlighted headfur. I settled down next to him and began eating. "Wait a second, you're actually eating that. I thought you hated chowder." Nothing Brent said registered into my head. I continued stuffing the food in my mouth, all the while sure that the sweet taste of Ron's mouth never left mine.

"Earth to Brian, earth to Brian. Hello?" Brent checked on me.

"Yeah?"

"Dude, you're freaking me out, Its been a full minute since your foods finished, but you didn't take the spoon out your mouth. Plus, you're creeping me out with that

smile."

"Okay.." I whimpered. It wasn't a dream, was it?

"You must be tired. come on, lets get you to bed"

"You are so beautiful." I croaked. I touched my lips, and I ran my fingers down my neck as Brent pulled me up to my feet, leading our way to our room.

When we finally got to our room, Brent shook me by my shoulders, asking me to snap out of it. It seemed futile of him, but I finally adhered back to reality. He let go of me and I slumped onto my bed. My heart is playing drum solos and I can't explain it. Every second locking muzzles with Ron was purely stimulating. Is this how it felt to love someone? I thought to myself. This can't be, it's too quick to say. I don't even know him, but something, a tiny bit of that something tells me it felt right.

"Summer, please wait a little longer."