Chapter 1. Confusion
#1 of Exploration
Note: This is the first chapter of a story series called, "Exploration" which follows a group of teens through a war that has been going on for ages. Also it includes the discovery of their sexuality and also incorporates the exploration of themselves and each other. Enjoy!
By the way, for anyone who may be wondering, my other story, a change of preference is indeed a part of this series. Although it doesn't fit directly into the plot it is part of it. In all actuality a change of preference is the first chapter to this series although it is un-official. It should be noted that this story takes place AFTER, a change of preference.
Btw, yes I know it's short but it is leading up to something. to make it incorperate that part would mean disaster for the whole story series.
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Gryphon woke up his head still spinning, from the thought of yesterday night and what he'd done. He lay motionless in bed thinking to himself and contemplating whether to get out of bed or not. While all of these things snaked their way through his consciousness Gryphon heard a small sigh and a slight rustling as Jet, a tall muscular black panther stirred beside him.
He opened one eye a peak to check out his surroundings, and noticed that he wasn't in his room. "Oh crap." He said to himself as the realization of where he was dawned on him. "I'm in Jet's room, no, I'm in Jet's bed". Gryphon opened both eyes and gazed over at Jet. "No, no, no, no, no..." he said pulling the covers off of himself and looking under.
His suspicions were confirmed when he saw his exposed balls and sheath, sitting there in the center of his crotch. A quick look in Jet's direction under the covers showed him that Jet was basically the same, his bare backside showing as his heavy breathing provided the only source of noise in the room.
Gryphon climbed out of the bed, his balls hanging relatively low considering the cool breeze that hit him. His deep blue-violet eyes scanned the room to find various articles of clothing, two t-shirts, two pairs of pants, his boxers. Gryphon hung his head, pressing a paw against his temple his thought and feeling causing a sever pressure inside of his head. "What is happening to me? I'm not like this, I've never been like this," Gryphon said grabbing his clothes and putting them on, making sure not to put on anything of Jet's in the process. "Gryphon?" Jet said groggily, a barely comprehensible sound escaping Jet's muzzle. Gryphon shook his head in despair and left the room hurrying down the corridor, tail swishing form side to side, as he continued to his room, the room he should have woken up in.
While he was continuing to his sanctuary he was startled by Avin, the only other wolf on board the star ship they were hurtling through space in. "Hey, morning Gryphon, sleep well?" Avin asked, a friendly smile on his face. Gryphon nodded slightly, a weak smile on his face. "Please just let me go." He thought to himself as his feelings and emotions built up inside of him. "Well I guess I'll see you down in the eating quarters later." Avin said continuing on his way towards the ships on board kitchen. Gryphon continued towards his room, tears beginning to well in his eyes, a well of thoughts and confusion waiting to explode forth.
After what seemed like an eternity he finally reached his room and fell onto the bed, crying into the soft covers. "I didn't mean too, I really didn't" Gryphon said to himself, continuing to sob quietly the confusion and turmoil of his hormone ravaged body unable to contain itself. Suddenly Gryphons ears picked up a light tapping sounds. He stopped crying and sat up listening. "Gryphon?" a voice inquired. It was Jet. "Can I come in?" the voice on the other side of the door asked. Gryphon stood up, took a deep breath and upon composing himself continued to open the door. "Hey." Jet said looking nervous when Gryphon first opened the sliding door. "Hey.' Gryphon replied quietly standing in the doorway wondering why Jet would want to see him. "Look, can we talk?" Jet asked fiddling slightly with his long, slinky, tail. "Talk, yeah we can talk." Gryphon said stepping out of the doorway to allow Jet access to the room.
The two settled down on the bed one beside the other. "Look, Gryphon, I'm know this must be really hard for you. I'm sorry." Jet said not daring to look at Gryphon. Gryphon couldn't dignify the apology with a response. "I know how you must be feeling, Upset, confused," Jet paused to scan the state of the room. "Despairing by the looks of things. But I just want you to know that it isn't your fault. I forced things on you and..."
Gryphon cut Jet off to speak. "No you didn't I did. Don't worry about it I'll be fine." Gryphon said the memory of the previous night flooding back to him. Jet rubbing Gryphon's hard member and Gryphon returning the favor ever so eagerly. "Well, okay. I guess I'll see you at breakfast." Jet said before standing up and walking towards the door to leave. Jet stole one last glance before turning out of the door and heading down the corridor.
Gryphon played back the memory in his mind, all of the touching and caressing, it had all felt so good. Or had those been illusions of his mind perpetuated by some inner lust, or feral instinct? The contact, and the heat, oh the heat it had all seemed so natural, so instinctive at the time. But now as he reflected on the events the more it made him want to be sick.
He knew he was lost, He knew he was wondering in the dark. The day he didn't know his own feelings were the day he was officially out of control of his life. I need food, he thought to himself finally getting up, and proceeding towards the eating quarters.
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As an ending note I'd like it to be known that the reason for the lack of anything yiff and for the lack of plot is because I wanted to convey the time of personal turmoil that Gryphon is currently going through. As a person he had never though of himself as gay or even bisexual and he has had a large serving of reality that he needs to come to terms with. The fact that he has had a sexual experience with another male is dead frightening to him and he cannot bare to believe it at the time. It is this base that most of the story series is base on, coming to terms with yourself, and those you love. Also it is about realizing that you can't control how you end up (in most cases.) and that you will be most happy if you accept it. Now in saying that I am not saying that Gryphon is in fact gay (although Jet is certainly not just attracted to females.) but rather that this homosexual experience, however mild, has shaken him quite tremendously.