Xandar Biax - Origins
Not really a story. It is more of a background of my fursona. It isn't vivid, detailed, or very creative, just some previous memories of mine. Good feedback or bad, I just felt as if I had to put this out there.
When he was but a young pup, around the age of 2, his mother left him on the back porch ofhis grandparents house and she
wasn't seen again for a very long time. His dad was a great man and a constant provider and raised 2 young children alone,
while moving around the United States due to his Air Force commitments. His father was and always will be there for him.
His father remarried a wonderful womean who came with open arms and loved Xandar and his sister like they were her own.
She came with he own demons though.
He didn't realize he was "different" until around Jr. High school (7th grade to be specific). He was on the football team
It was the first time that communittee showers were used and the first time that he saw another guy naked (and Xandar
enjoyed it). He had played many other various sports throughout his childhood, but football was the only one to stick. It was that he enjoyed playing
the game, but more or less to take advantage of the workout plan and, of course, the showers. He played football and was a
place kicker until he graduated in 2011. He has several friends from the football team that he would hang out and play video
games with constantly. He never partied or even stayed out past 10pm for fear of what his dad would do to him.
Now comes the next level in his life, College. This was the first time that he was off on his own, and he was very nervous
and still didn't accept who he really was, which brings up the darkest part of his life, when he was suicidal. He was suicidal
because he knew he was different and, in the state where he was born and raised, being gay was heavily frowned upon and
was under constant scrutinay.He arrived at college still not knowing what he was going to do with his life. He had no major
in mind, wasn't happy with who he was, and he had very little but very faithful friends. Xandar was always a follower and
therefore he followed a few of his good friends to college and they lived together their first year. Xandar finally hit rock
bottom when he sat in his room for hours, he didnt go to class, didn't hang out with anyone, and he just thought about all of
the things that he wasn't happy with and he decided that the world would be better without him. He gave college one more day
to try and prove him wrong, this is where his Fraternity comes into play.
His best friend from high school, Teage the rather large Brown Bear, convinced
him to come hang out with some of these "Frat" guys, and Xander grew up watching and hearing all these stories about wild
parties and non stop hazing so he was relucktant, but eventually caved. He was glad that he did. He was greeted with open and
warm handshakes. This was the first instance in his life where everyone knew who he was before he even got there. It just felt
like home and it was the best thing for Xandar, it pulled him out of his slump. Fastforeward a few weeks, it is Xandars Birthday
August 27th, and it was the first Fraternity party of the semester. Teage thought it would be cool to go around telling all of
the Fraternity brothers that it was indeed xandars birthday. I got taken upstairs where 10 shots of random liquor was poured
on the kitchen table. This is his first expierience with alcohol and it all went surprisingly well for his first time, other
that the fact that he wasn't used to trying to walk while intoxicated so he clumsily stumbled trying to go to the bathrooms.
This was turning out to be the best time of his life. He got a bid to pledge this Fraternity and he gladly accepted while his
tail couldnt stop wagging. Now, he doesn't really like to talk about or descirbe his pledge ship, but he does say constantly
that it was the best experience and he wouldnt give it back for the world. He got initiated into a lifelong brotherhood of people
that he knew would love him no matter what happened. That very same night, he got a little too drunk, but it was just drunk
enough to talk about his deepest secrets. Xandar revealed himself to be gay the night after he got initiated becuase he was afraid
that if he came out of the closet while he was a pledge, that he would not get a fair chance to be initiated. No one believed
Xandar when he first came out, most say you are just saying this because you are too drunk, or just complete denail "There is no
way you are gay, you are too cool." But he persisted on and people believed him and no one resented him or hated him, which was the
complete opposite reaction that he thought he would get.
Xandar has a big brother in the Fraternity, Jeff which was one hell of an artic fox, who Xandar didn't know at the time was a bisexual, and it turns out
that he has quite the track record of people he had slept with. He and his big brother decided to have
a "lets get smashed night" since Jeff missed his initiation night. Jeff showed up with 3 handles of rum and the both of them
finished all three bottles throughout the night. Xandar blacked out before going to sleep and woke up in Jeff's bed, both of them
were naked. Xandar quietly freaked out to himself because he had never blacked out before, he didn't know if they had sex or even
just fooled around, there was no sign of a condom anywhere either. He was afraid and worried, but he kept it to himself until Jeff
woke up. They talked it out and they indeed had sex the previous night. This upset Xandar because he had just lost his virginity
and he doesnt even remember it, Jeff reassures him that he did fine and it was all incredibly fun. This made Xandars tail wag out
of control again. Jeff got up and beacond him to the shower with him where the both of them proceeded to have hot, steamy sex in the shower,
and this time, Xandar remembers it. They both said that no brothers can know about the two of them because they told the Fraternity
that it wouldnt happen. Xandar, being young and dumb and constantly drinking, kept pushing the limits of the secret by trying to make
out with Jeff in front of everyone else. He finally calmed down and started looking else where for a boyfriend or mate.
This is where his first boyfriend, and ex boyfriend, Taeylor comes into the picture. Taeylor is a sweet cheetah who was slim and stood around 5'10, and he first met at a dorm party. Xandar couldnt help but just awkardly stare at this random guy that he met for the first time; it was love at first sight for him.
But he didnt know how Taeylor felt or if he was even gay. This kid was too pretty to be straight but the longer the two of them hung
out and talked with other people in the room, it seemed as if he wasnt gay or even interested. But one drunken night which involed,
a long text message confession about how Xandar really feels about Taeylor was sent out and read, changed everything. Taeylor
responded after a days long wait and said that he would love to try and asked how he knew that he was gay, and Xandar just giggled, tail
wagging uncontrollably again, and said that the gay-dar is built in and finely tuned. They dated for 11months, and only the first 3 of
those month were enjoyable. Taeylor just one day became extremely jealous, bitter, and controlling for no reason.
He didnt believe anything that Xandar told him and Taeylor began to try and manipulate Xandar's feelings to keep him from
his brothers that he loves so dearly, and he mentally abused him by constantly be littling Xandar and making him feel like he wasn't a human being.
It took Xandar breaking up with him 4 times before Taeylor would really accept the fact that Xandar was ready to move on from him.
Dating Taeylor taught Xandar some valuable life lessons and also compeltely ruined him about dating anyone.
This is just something that I came up with after being sick and little to no sleep at work at 2:30AM. Please let me know
what you guys think. It might be un-readable in certain parts, but I am not claiming to be a writer by any sense of the word.