FSE

Furry search engine

formerly SoFurry search engine

Walking through the house a day later

The emptiness in my heart, my soul

The silence of the house deafening

You aren't here anymore

This has to be a dream.

You can't be gone

Reminders of you in the living and dining rooms

Your smell, maybe a plate or glass of yours

Walking up to the room that we shared briefly

While you were here

The room still has your scent

I lay down on the bed and grasp a pillow and sniff

Your scent is still there and the tears begin running down my face

I lay there clutching the pillow for what seems like an eternity

When I feel like I can move again, I head to the shower

Start the water and hop in the shower

Remembering how we used to shower together

Me leaning up against the wall

Your body up against mine

Your voice, echoing in my ears as you nibble my shoulders

The growl you made when nibbling my ears

I can't move at all

The emotions burst through like water through a floodgate

I scream out

I cry out

But you aren't there

You HAD to leave, to go HOME

You had a home HERE.

You had someone who loved you HERE

And YOU LEFT ME!

I don't know whether to be angry, upset, or sorry

Maybe it was something I did

Maybe it was something I didn't do

I want to make it right

I NEED to make it right

Help me make it right

What do I need to do?

All I think about is being with you

I want to feel your touch

To taste your lips on mine

To see those beautiful eyes

To smell the aroma that is your scent

To hear your voice again

Ring through my ears like music

To heal my broken heart, my broken soul