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I watched the falling stars as Alice waced her hands to me calling me over. I saw this all before I lived this day for over a year. I am not sure when it will stop, but I'm not aging so I don't really care. I'm surprised I haven't gone mad by this. I walked over to Alice pretending that I haven't heard the news that the elder will be arriving tomorrow at day break. The elder went on a long journey to see the outside world. We heard rumors about how the people of the outside world lived. I thought it would be a grand idea of someone went out to explore it all, but in reality I wished they would nominate the person who came with the idea not the oldest person. I was so mad that I went mad and into isolation. The town found out I wasn't going to come back, and abanden them. Is this my curse for wanting to abanden them? To never be able to turn foreword the hand of tim? Even if I killed myself I would return back alive the following day. Well not the following day, but the same day with no scars or anything. I really wished I could die and never return to this hell of a place. I want to die though don't get me wrong, but I've done it all. I don't kill anyone or try to, because I really hope the following day will arrive. I suppose I live each day in hopes, but I don't know how long it will take to really get there. I have lost all of my fears though so I suppose that is a good thing if something that would fear me come along. I even been able to the deapth of hell I searched for an answer to this nightmare. I searched every location I could possibly find, but nothing I can't even recall what I did when this mess first started. I mean come on can you remember what happened a year ago perfectly? Nether can I so I am just doing my best to figure out what is going on I tried my best to live each day slightly diffrent, but if I want time to start once again it will take much longer time than that.

Now it has almost been two years I think maybe two more months for it to be the actual full second year. It's really difficult to fully recall how to tell each day but i suppose it is due to the fact that I kept a the number of the days I've been living like this. I really wished that I could move along this world. I found new things everyday though. I had a good life here, but I wish to live it long and for a longer than a day. I made Lance my lover each day over and over. It brings him a joy to his face everyday. I am starting to lose count though, but I will bring him closer and closer to me each day. I don't want him to be with anyone else in this single day. I have to keep it a secret though that I grew weak one day and stole his virtue, but the reality is he is stole mine. He gains it back while I keep the memories in my mine and my body can remember it. I love him so much now, and even though he can never recall it at the end I am glad I can.

I enter Lance's house everyday and kiss him on the lips. This would mainly have him push me to the side and then pull me back into his arms. I loved this responce no matter how many times I see him do it over and over again. I think today with be year five in this never ending day. I hold Lance every night before we go to sleep in his bed. Each day I wake up in my own bed and go to his place we do new things everyday, but I fear if we do these things again when time is restored I may never be able to react the same way.

I opened my eyes as I saw people all around me "Awaken my child this is a new day and you are no longer alone in here." Alone in here? I opened my mouth, but no words came out. The elder reached down and helped me stand up. I felt my legs go limp as if I was going to fall over. I tried my best to walk and then I saw Lance with a girl in his arms. Who was she Lilla, that's who wait they are dating then. I saw everything was the same, but so much was diffrent. Ah, so my punishmet was to live a life full of fake days. None of those days happened.

I reached the cliff where me and Lance would watch the moon. It felt so diffrent, but in the bad way diffrent. I remember in the past that I jumped off here once and died. Maybe I can jump now and die. I saw Lance coming over alone "Oh hi I see they finally let you out." I opened my mouth, but no words came out. So i nodded my head and he sat down next to me. "How long did it feel like for you in there?" I raised my hand and showed him five fingers. "Days?" I shook my head "Months?" I shook my head again "Y-years?!?" I nodded my head. He looked at me with shocked eyes. "How were you able to survive that all?" I opened my mouth and tried to force the word you, but then I remembered how I got Lance to love me in that world. I leaned in and kissed him, but he didn't push me back he pulled me closer and enjoyed the kiss. I looked into his eyes as he smiled "That was amazing." He leaned in for another kiss as Lilla came running with a knife in her hands and stabbed me pushing me off the cliff. Lance reached down and barely grabbed my wrist. "Don't let go!" Then I saw him falling down with me. Lilla kicked him down more likely I reached up as Lance came closer pressing his lips on mine "I love you Lance." "I love you too..."