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Sorry everyone,i know it has been a long time. I got a bit discouraged while in the midst of writing this part,so i nuked it. But anyway,here you go. It may suck but hey,yet again,i tried.

All at once,every little detail of both situations had come back to me. Every little detail from that night,the night we became closer than i ever thought was possible,flooded my mind. There i was,just sitting in my room,enjoying the sunshine peering in through the slightly opened curtains. That joy had been interrupted by a knock at the door. I had been to short to see out of the peek hole,for i have always been much smaller compared to all others. I was the runt of the litter,as Blaze always told me. I let out a deep sigh as walked toward the front door,opening it quietly. "Cav!" I cried out happily,jumping into his arms. "Hi there Kitty." he spoke softly. My smile faded in an instant as i saw the two officers behind him,standing still,in a standard position. "W.What's..who?" I looked up at Cav. "As happy as i am to see you Kit,i wish i was here on a better note than I am today." He muttered and turned around,taking hold of something the office had handed him. Cav looked at me and gave me a nod,handing me a large manila envelope,and a folded,package flag. "No.." I whispered. My heart sank,i knew exactly what just happened. He was dead. He was gone..and there wasn't a damn thing i could do about it. I fell to the ground and bursted into tears,throwing the envelope and flag beside me. Cav turned around once more,giving them another nod. "I can handle this." Both males nodded back to him,one leaning over to retrieve the thrown envelope and flag,handing it caring back to Cav. I felt his strong arms picking me up to cradle me against his chest,and most importantly-get me back into the house. He sat me down onto the couch,sitting beside me and giving me a hug. "Kit,i know this is not what you had planned for the day,but sometimes things happen." he replied to my cries. Sometimes thing happen,yeah. But why this? Why me? From the start,i had never liked the idea of Blaze in the military,but i wouldn't have dared to stop him from doing something he wanted to do. I loved him,and whatever he wanted,i wanted to make sure he got it. "I have to go Kit...just. Take care of yourself,please?" he hugged me once more and got up from the couch,heading to the door. Take care of myself? How could i when i had to endure what i just did. I layed on the couch,sobbing into the cushion.

Later on i had stopped sobbing,just the heaving and sniffles were left. I never knew one could cry so many tears,and for such a prolonged period of time. "Hi...Kitty." a soft voice said. I looked up,and there he was,Foxy. "Hi Foxy.." I sat up,hanging my head,tears still rolling down my muzzle. "W..What happened hun?" he said quietly as he sat beside me,slowly and carefully wrapping an arm around me. "Just,someone close to me..is gone." i whispered. "What happened? You don't have to tell me,i just. Never mind." he shook his head as his ears started to droop. "His name was Blaze,and he was my love... About a year ago,Blaze went into the military..he is..never coming home.." I started to pick at my fur,pulling small pieces of soft,mucky brown out. "I should have told him i loved him..i should have never done what i did..i should have let him stay." I shook my head as i got the courage to admit how i was wrong. "He knows,Kitty,that i am sure of." I continued to shake my head,my paws also starting to shake. "I..i got mad at him. We had a fight. I kicked him out...three days before he left. I never said i love you..i never said goodbye.. If i had know,god. If only i had know that would have been the last time i saw him,i would have said I love you. I would have said goodbye. I wouldn't have been so rude..and selfish..All he wanted was to help me,and i was too damn..stupid to accept his help,instead i let anger take me by the ears..this is all my fault." Foxy pulled me closer laying his head chin on top of my head,letting my face cry into his soft,snow white fur. "This is not your fault,there is no way it could be.." I felt his warm tears trickle from his muzzle onto my head. "We cannot blame ourselves for losing someone we love,especially when we last them as they went to protect us." he continued. "He know that you love him,and that you are deeply sorry for your actions. I'm sure he will be watching over you,everyday." I sniffled,trying not let snot leak onto his beautiful fur. "I lost someone too. A few years ago from now,but that doesn't change the fact that i feel your pain." He held me tighter as he tried to fight back the tears. "His name was Robin,and he was everything to me. My friend, my role model and most of all my hero." He let out a deep sigh as i looked up to him. I knew my eyes were begging him to tell me what happened,but i was not able to bring myself to asking him about it. "Allen was Robin's love. It had been a while since either of us had heard a thing from Robin. Allen had finally received a letter from him,boy was i ecstatic. But..things are not always what they seem." I gulped,knowing that was i was about to be told was going to be hard to hear,but even harder for him to say. "I was excited,asking Allen to tell me what it had said. I mean,Robin was keeping in contact,that was wonderful,right? He told me the letter had been covered in blood,every spot. It read "If you receive this letter Allen, the worst has happened and I am so sorry love..." Something i never thought i would hear." I hugged him tighter. For once,someone knew my pain,the exact way i felt. I had never though two horrible,tragic situations could bring two people so close. I had a feeling,that from this day on,we would be very close. After a while of silence,i realized he had fallen asleep,and that i probably should too. We could start again tomorrow. We could start a new day,together. Being in his arms brought up a seemingly new feeling-one that i had last felt in Blaze's arms. I closed my eyes,slowly drifting to sleep in Foxy's arms.