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Chapter 1 : The Arrival

A Death filled blizzard blowing on my snout, the stone cold chill running over my back, my paws feeling like they would fall off any minute now. Yet that didn't bother me at all; I didn't even notice it to be honest, lately I couldn't feel any pains but yet I was sad, alone, ashamed. Maybe I should explain; Names Zachery I'm 17 everyone just calls me Zak, well they use to, not so much now. Anyway I'm a silver wolf with grey on my paws and tail that fall into a point near my shoulder and mid tail, I have a grey patch by my eye that looks like a waster drop, Oh yea and my eyes are a aqua blue; and as you can see I'm alone, I don't have a pack and no friends to talk to. I'm a rogue an outcast - in a way - I left my pack by choice, my dad died when I was 13, and I didn't know how to deal with it, I didn't have a mom so when that happened I ran away. That's one reason the other is that I was...

"Hahaha. Jake stop it that tickles." giggled a female wolf, "stop I can't breathe."

Oh shit a pack! Wait I know that voice, no way Megan! Suddenly the blizzard stopped like it was pushing me back to Meg. Megan was one of my old friends she was a beautiful jet black wolf with green emerald eyes; but I don't remember any Jake a new member maybe, he was a red wolf with chrimson red eyes. I don't think I'm ready to face Meg again but if this is what fate has in stored for me who am I to say no. As I walked over the hill I thought of how she would react; w0uld she freak out and run, would she laugh at my face for not been there for all the good times, or would she cry and start screaming at me for not beening there for her when she needed me. Either way I had to stand up and be who I wasn't 4 years ago.

"Zak what are doing here" She said seeming more confused than happy, "I thought you left to find heaven?"

"It doesn't exist." I cruelty answered

"What?" She seemed even more confused now.

"Heaven It doesn't exist" I said trying to keep my cool.

"Yes It does you even said so "Megan said with a giggle.

"Yeah I did, but now I know I was wrong. "I said trying not to look her in the eye, "See you later Meg Goodbye"

"Yeah okay see you later then" She was sad to say goodbye.

As I walked away I heard Meg and Jake talking about me.

"Who was that; some rogue?" Jake asked.

"In a way that's Zak he was my" She paused to get her words together "friend until he left"

"Why did he leave?" He asked, Meg clearly didn't tell him about me.

She lowered her head in sadness. "He said to find heaven"

"What did he mean by heaven?" He asked.

"No one knows" Meg said trying to hold back her tears," He didn't tell anyone but me that he was leaving"

"I guess that made you upset" He asked.

"Well...."She tried to change the subject, "can we just leave this conversation at hold"

I have to admit I hated myself when I left Meg, and the rest of my pack. It was like one of the stories my dad told me about when I was still a little pup. He said there was once a brave wolf named Pure. Pure; was what wolves called a starlight meaning he was basically a god; he had the power to harness the energy of the stars. My dad said that he was able to fight 50 packs of wolves and leave without a scratch; he left his pack to start a new one when the gods told him he was ready. By the time he was 13 he had to face the biggest challenge of his life he needed to pick the love of his life or his father he picked his love; then out of nowhere his father started argueing with him telling him to leave and go on by himself then the father attacked the defenseless pup without any hesitation. Pure followed his instincts and defended himself he fought with all his might and beat his father, but at a cost he fought too hard and he opened his father's old war wounds and made him fall down and bleed out, all Pure could do was watch as his father lay there with a blood caped torso and no way of surviving; pure was crushed by the look his father gave him, for some reason the father was happy. My father said that was when Pure came to his senses and ran he ran for 4 years until he couldn't face his life any more. I never knew why my dad told me that story even though he knew it would give me nightmares. I guess my dad was weird that way. I always felt somehow connected to Pure though, I always felt like he was a part of me, the part that died when I saw Meg today. I never knew why I felt like that but it felt right for some reason. But now I have to feel like an outsider because when I left I broke every wolf's heart, TSH to think oh the prodigal son leaves for no reason whatever. If they knew what really happened they wouldn't let me be even 10 miles near the pack territory. Well that's one good thing that happened today. Oh well It's time to hit the hay. So far, so good.

It's about 12 at night I still can't sleep; I just need to get something off my chest. Maybe it's best to confront Meg about what happened 4 years ago.

"I have to tell her" I muttered to myself.

(5 minutes later at the outskirts of the territory)

"Okay, now I have to find Meg" I whispered.

I had to look in every den just to find her sleeping on the ground restlessly. I felt bad to wake her from her sleep.

"Meg" I whispered, "wake up I need to talk to you."

"*groan* Zak come on it's the middle of the night" She said irritably.

"I know but" I said trying not to wake her dad "I have to tell you something."

"What?" she asked still trying to keep her eyes open. "Can't it wait till morning?"

"No it can't." I said sounding worried.

"Okay, fine." She said defeatedly

I have to admit I didn't expect her to say yes. Well I guess that's one more thing that's changed about her I just hope her way of understanding hasn't changed. I took her to the hill I always went when I couldn't sleep, but that was a long time ago; now I know it as the hill I looked back over when I was leaving. The hill that killed the pup who didn't know what to do with his life. Okay stop it Zak what's done is done stop grieving; get your head in the game.

"So what did you want to tell me" Megan asked with a doubtful expression.

Trying not to run away again I said "Why I left"

Okay; why" now she sounded worried.

I took a deep breathe to calm myself "I just want you to know I didn't leave to find heaven I left to escape it"

"What do you mean?"

"I left to get away from-from" I tried so hard to hold back tears, "you."

"Zak I already knew"

"What?"

"I know back then you weren't that much of a pup, so Zak tell me the real reason"

"I-I-I want to but-"

"But, what?"

"You won't understand"

"Zak just tell me"

I couldn't hold back the tears any longer; I was filled with sadness, anger and regret; but I wasn't angry at Meg I was angry at myself "It-It was me; I killed him! I killed my own father! I don't know what came over he just attacked me and I defended myself it was exactly like the story he told me about Pure!"

"Zak" She was clearly shocked, she probably didn't expect it

"I-I'm a murderer!"

"Zak It was self-defense you're not a murderer"

Those words hit me and then I couldn't help but run for the forest.

I ran to a tree and just started bashing my head and crying

"Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot; crap why the hell" I had no idea what I just did. "Why-why did I do that?" I looked up at the serius star and said, "You said that no matter what you would guild me so what the hell!" I was furious not at Meg not me but at my dad.

"Hello" I heard a girl wolf say like she was worried I was hurt.

As I turned around all I saw was a beautiful wolf that made me wonder if this was real. She was a light silver wolf with yellow eyes that seemed to be as bright as the sun. "Oh hi" I couldn't think of anything else to say.

"Are you okay?" She asked looking wary.

"Yeah, why?"

"Well your heads kind of bleeding"

"Oh nah it's fine" I didn't notice the pain.

"Looks pretty bad her let me help"

Before I could say anything she started licking my cut. It was weird I couldn't move nore breathe it's like I was paralyzed.

"I-I'm Zak"I stammered I was so nervous for some reason.

"Roxanne "She replied. "You new?"

"Yes and no; I was a member a while ago but I left."

"Why"

But before I could answer, the new Alpha of the pack showed up.

"Roxanne what's going on? "The Alpha snapped as soon he saw Roxanne licking my cut.

"Dad"

"Who are you?"

"I-I'm Zakery...sir "I said hoping he didn't think I was a stalker or something.

"So you're Zakary, your father told me about you when you were born, a so Pure was it?"

"Uh no sir it's Zak"

"Okay, hey Roxanne can I talk to Zak alone?"

"Oh sure, dad; see you Zak"

"See you"

She leaves me alone with her dad this is ganna be fun.

"Sir?"

"So your serius' son,not what I expected."

"What do you mean "Could this old man seriously doubt my father?

"I thought you would act more like your father well I guess that's the default in marrying an Omega."

"Leave my mother out of this" Son of a bitch.

"Why because you never even knew her; goodbye"

He left and I was pissed off who does he think he is he can't just say that about my family not to mention that he insulted me.

"Old Basted"

I then realized I was up all night everything happened so quickly; hard to believe it. So I decided just to head back to my den.