Hidden feelings

Story by Mewnaco on SoFurry

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This is a story about a young male fox finding out he's gay. Ya know...the regular stuff you find on here. Enjoy ^^


 You ever get that feeling in your gut? It hurts a little bit then it feels worse and worse with every passing moment? I'm feeling that right now...but not because I'm stressed, not because I ate the wrong food either, no no, this was the genuine gut pain of getting the shit kicked out of me. Now you may ask yourself "Why is this cute, young, red fox getting beat up?" You may also ask yourself "Why is this arrogant S.O.B still talking to me?" regardless of who is asking what, I'm going to start from the beginning. I was walking down my street, on my way to school, it's only a few blocks but here in Colorado the mornings always felt FREEZING to me, so those few blocks always felt like a few miles. It didn't help that my mother always had the barber cut my fur so short, she'd always tell me it looks great but I hate it. As I came to the top of the hill where my school stood my eyes fell upon and unfamiliar face, a vixen, stepping daintily off of the bus. Being that it was the middle of the school year I found this odd, but that wasn't what was mainly on my mind. "She's beautiful" I whispered to myself as I stood at the top of the hill in front of my school staring at her. I felt frozen, up until I realized the beautiful snow white vixen was staring directly back at me, her tired green eyes lazily scanning my scrawny figure. Before I could react I was pushed to the ground and a familiar laugh broke my trance. "Watch where you're going QUEER! Hahaha!" I looked up at the bear who had just pushed me and the hyena who proceeded to verbally abuse me afterward "Fuck you, Tom..." I muttered as I tried to pick all my books up and put them in my backpack. The hyena stopped laughing and started toward me "What did you say?" He reached toward me as the bell rang. He picked me up and pinned me against the fence that surrounds the school. His ears twitched around as one of the teachers yelled for him "You're lucky Ben. If you ever talk to me like that again, I'll have Eddie here rip your damn tail off, got it?" I nodded slowly, looking at Eddie the bear make a tearing motion with his paws then they both walked off. I straightened my backpack out and high tailed it inside hoping to see the vixen before I got to class. Of course being as "lucky" as I am, I didn't. Around lunch time I finally saw her again, standing in the lunch line talking to some other girls and laughing. God, even her laugh was beautiful....I took a deep breath and walked toward her, the closer I got to her the slower I walked until before I knew it I was standing only a few feet from her just staring again. She stared back for a bit then finally smiled and stuck out her paw "Hi! I'm Khari." I stared at her paw noticing how soft her fur looked and how nice her paw pads were soon after realizing she was waiting. I grasped her paw shaking it..."am i grasping too hard?" i thought "maybe too soft...i don't want her to think I'm weak...i don't want to hurt her though. Uugh why is this so hard. Oh god I'm staring again" I finally forced a smile "My name is Ben. Heh...um...its nice to meet you Khari." I stopped shaking and we stood very awkwardly. She finally broke the silence "Uuum is there anything i could help you with Ben?" I stood blushing "oh god what do i say?? This is awful." I thought as I stood speechless. "Uuuhh heh...no, no, sorry" Her friends all gave me dirty looks and I quickly walked to the back of the line, they soon continued talking and laughing after a few mumbles and glares at me.

  Finally I got my food and proceeded to my lonely lunch table in the corner of the large cafeteria. Luckily for me Tom and Eddie have a different lunch period, so it was just me and the low budget "doggy chow" the cafeteria staff served. After forcing down my lunch I scanned the room for Khari...."uugghh even saying her name makes me shiver" I thought. Unfortunately after nearly 10 minutes of looking I still couldn't find her. I finally gave up and decided to walk out the back door of the school and up the small hill to my favorite bench for my dayly sun bathe. I looked at my watch "15 minutes...plenty of time" I slowly leaned back and closed my eyes taking in the warmth of the sun. Soon enough my peace was broken, but not by the stomping of hind paws on the ground from the running team, and not from the echos of others insulting me. This time there was something on my leg...a c-claw...running up it. I jumped up and turned around growling only to see Khari, with a deviant smile and giggling "Jeez, scaredy fox! I just came to say Hello. We didn't get to talk much in the lunch room." I immediately stopped growling and blushed. I nodded then sat down next to her staring into her eyes once more. "Um...Hi I'm Ben" I smiled and waved . How stupid of me, I already said that! To my surprise she giggled and repeated her name as well. She leaned back and took in the sun while peeking at me somewhat "So, Ben...I'm uh...having trouble with our math homework, I know we just met buuuut...do you think you could come over today and help me with it?" I sighed and smiled weakly, I know how this goes. It isn't the first time a cute girl wanted 'help' with her homework, its either a prank or I'm going to be giving her all the right answers and leaving in a matter of minutes. Yet even though I knew what was coming I just couldn't say no, I mean, what if she actually wanted help? I couldn't miss a chance to bond with this fox, or maybe she wanted other things.....i quickly nodded at the thought "Yeah! Of course!" She grinned once more and held my paw "Oh thank you so much! Meet me at out front once school is over we'll walk to my house." I couldn't believe it..."Sh-She's holding my paw" I thought "I'm gonna faint. Ok ok be keep cool, she might just be tricking you...oohh please God don't let her being tricking me!" The bell finally rang and she let go quickly standing up "See ya after school!" she waved impetuously then walked off without another word. I sat staring at my paw, still warm, the light scent of her perfume still lingered and again I found myself in a deep trance...i could barely bring myself to stand, the throbbing warmth on my crotch pressing tightly against my jeans. I sighed, adjusted myself, then quickly walked inside and to my next class.

  For the whole hour of class I sat bouncing my leg up and down, twidling my thumbs, playing with my pencil, and thinking about that one cute vixen that got off the bus this morning....no focus what so ever until I glanced at the clock. "5 minutes....UGH that's like 300 seconds!! Hurry up time!!" I continuously mumbled to myself, utilizing the perfected art of staring at my book and not reading one word. After what felt like hours the bell finally rang and I was out of the room faster than a speeding bullet.

Out at the front of the school I scanned once more, only this time I found her, standing at the bottom of the stairs smiling at me, though it didn't seem possible her eyes were even more beautiful the second time, they looked brighter and more alive after a nice day of school. This time I managed not to stare and I casually walked down the stairs, unfortunately near the end I tripped....and face planted..."ooofff course" I whispered to myself as I lay on the concrete holding my muzzle and struggling to get up. Khari helped me up and stood smiling, I could tell she was holding back a laugh and I sighed. "Go ahead..." without wasting a moment she burst out laughing and had to hold onto my shoulder so she wouldn't fall "I-i-i hahahaha I'm so s-s-sorry hahaha are you ok?? hahahaa Martins gonna love you, come on!" Before I could even speak she pulled me along the sidewalk and began talking. "So I got us a ride if that's ok? I didn't feel like walking really." I was a little nervous but once again I just couldn't say no to her especially with the innocent look she gave me after saying that "Oh yeah that's alright! Hey who is this Ma-" She grabbed my paw once again cutting me off and ran to the Ford Focus that had just pulled up to the sidewalk. "Here's our ride!" She opened the door and crawled in back then patted the seat. "I thought you'd be a little more comfortable up here." She gave me that innocent look again, I just smiled at her and slowly crawled in taking a good look at the furson in the drivers seat. It was another snow white fox, only this one was male, he looked about 5' 7" but it was hard to tell with him sitting down, he held out a paw smiling and I grasped it. Strangely enough I found myself still scanning his body...he looked good, slender and fit....I mean he looked good for being a guy. I didn't have much time to think as he greeted me "Hi! I'm Martin." I smiled back and shook his paw "I'm Ben, nice to meet you." we stared at each other for a moment longer than got going as Khari started talking about her day. (To be continued...)