This is not a furry story but i want an opinion
Not a furry story just want an opinion...please help
My Story Anonnymus 04/26/2013
Staring down at the gun in his hand so peaceful, so calm, it had been a very long time since he felt this calm almost happy. He places the cold metal against his temple and.....
"Brennan wake up its time for school, come on little boy you'll be late for your first day if we dont hurry" My mother is a short woman, brownish greying hair and dark eyes, but she had the softest voice when I was young she would wake me everyone morning for school ever since the first day. She was not my real mother of course i had been adopted at a real young age after my father abandoned my birth-mother and she was far to young to keep me. Was her dicision to give me away the right one? Would I have turned out this was if she hadn't done something like this? Well that is to be left out for no one knows what may have been.
I went to a very upscale private school, i called it a church school because it was a episciple school. It was a very large brick building like a fancy government building almost with the way it was framed out and it had to be big it held grades Pre-K - 12th. We couldnt send me to a public school the city was full of corruption and crime, so my parents thought it would be safer. Well my father would drive me to school everyday because we were too far out of the way for the bus to pick me up, i remember everyday listening to the spin doctors or the beach boys and driving over that steel Mississippi bridge, it was fun me and my dad made game of it we would try to hold our breath until we had made it to the other side. It was when life was easy before all these demons found me, the demon of addiction was the first.
"Your son may have ADD..This will fix it....Ritalin." thats all the doctors had to say, years of schooling and advanced technology and we still have to rely on scripts of drugs that were testing on people from had great results some had fatal, but hey the good results happened in four more people than bad results so its ok right? Well back then pills were unfortunatly the solution to most of the problems of mental disorders, so it began i was now another statistic of ADD or ADHD or what ever they may want to call it.....well judging where i ended up I think that they would have been happier with a ADD child that what those god-forsaken pills turned me into... I mean sure in the beginning wow the miracle drug really lived up to its name i was calmer but my grades were still sloppy as ever but i was having a easier time studying in class. It began in 2nd grade.
"Brennan were going to move up north, you'll make new friends and daddy will start his new business" I hated them so much, taking me away from everything I had, my friends, my home, and bringing me to a new place where i knew nobody and thes schools would be different from my school. January,1996 The move was painful we drove all the way north to a small and simple town, it was a ok place we lived in a small community it had a pool and that pool had a swimteam, Awesome something like home after 2 years on a swimteam this would be great. Snow....I hate snow so much. My first friend, I had gotten a bike and I used to ride around the whole community and listen to music and try to forget the fact that we had moved, then i met Kevin, a history buff at only the age of 11 you could ask him anything about any war or piece of equipment and he could tell you everything there is to know about it. He moved away in 7th grade to Gettysburg, PA ironically.
A soon as i started middle school i began stealing from my parents, my friends they all had so much money, so many gadgets and toys and this was the very beginning of my corruption, Theft, my first poison I didnt like to steal from them but I was still so angry about being forced to move away. I cant even begin to comprehend how much i stole from them, and then when they would ask i would lie and say I have no idea what they were talking about. Why didnt they punnish me why didnt they enforce the rules on me, I saw the doctor today they raised my Ritalin script becasue they were having trouble controling me, "We just dont know what to do" they would say "he is stealing and lying and not focusing in school" I was in special education again because my grades began to fail again. Why do I lie, I aksed myself that all the time becasue my parents said if i lied so much that I didnt love them but that just wasnt true I loved my parents, But I was so angry and i could never figure out why. I had so much hatred built up inside me so i kept stealing and lying and taking this damn Ritalin as perscribed of course, well for now. And as for middle school well I barely made it through graduation, My mind was growing darker, I couldnt make friends because i lied to everyone and I wasnt very popular.
To Be Continued....