New Year's Resolution
I want to do so many things, but I haven't been able to find the motivation. I have had ample time, and I have been inspired so much, but it only lasts briefly before it goes to waste. I feel like all my energies are going to waste, that I am becoming old too young. Ever since I settled back down, I have succumbed to my greatest fear; becoming idle, and useless. I'm taking a look once again at the man in the mirror, and asking him to change his ways. This community should know just how much it has inspired, enlightened, and empowered me. I've taken in so many good things, and I've had enough of taking; I need to finally give back, in much the same way I have given my past year in the service of others, that they may be safer, smarter, and healthier in the future. My beloved friends, here and away, dear to my heart, now in my time of need, I have never been more glad for your company.
This year, I've decided I'm going to break out of the routine and the creative slump that I'm in. I'm going to create freely and without inhibition. I'm going to start drawing again, I'm going to play beautiful music, and I'm going to write myself down, for all of you. I'm going to remove all my unhealthy influences. I'm going to keep learning and sharing the facts of life, and what's really important. And no matter what anyone says, I'm going to continue to be there for my friends, without whom my heart would disappear. With your help, I'm going to move the world along to where it should be. Then, hopefully the one who embodies this new world for me, the one who gave me this great love in the first place, my guiding light, will reveal herself.
There are things I would like to happen- I don't care if it's me that makes them happen, if I have a role in them, or if I will even live to see them happen, just so long as they happen anyway.
This is my New Year's Resolution, and 13 is my lucky number.