Love, pain and depressed werewolves

Story by Aspie Wolf on SoFurry

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Sup this is a remastered version of my old work

Apologies for any mistakes im not perfect = P

Hope you all enjoy =]

Jess slaps me, my totally mad girlfriend, shouting how useless of a man I am and how I never amount to anything. She was a drunk and not a pretty one; she starts throwing stuff like vases and pictures of me at me. She wasn't always like this mostly kind and caring but on occasions just turns into a crazed woman, I can't blame her, her past has not been good well quite horrid in fact. She does love me as I love her; she was always fiery even when I first met her but lately she really turned for the worst, I tried to ask about what's troubling her so I could help but she just keeps it bottled inside. Jess grabs a glass and lobs it and hits my face shattering and cuts me, she stops, shaking, realising what she done, seeing the blood she fetches a wet cloth and start dapping my cuts. She tries to apologise with tears of remorse in her eyes but I turn my head away sighing saying.

"I better go you try and sleep off the alcohol"

Jess replies.

"No Nate please don't go I'm so sorry"

I look back and gaze into her eyes then turn away and walk out the door, I can still hear her, screaming how she loves me and she is sorry. I wipe a tear from my eye sighing walking away down though the park to my house, it was late at night, which was a worry cause of the disappearances and sighting of bloodstains around the city and the sightings of shadowy lycan like figures, but I'm not going to run home in fact I sit on a bench and start to roll a blunt to try to escape the commotion from tonight. I start to relax thinking how Jess should be all right, probably passed out on the sofa before she could harm herself or someone. Suddenly one blunt becomes five or six or even seven my head is a bit spaced,

I hear a noise and look back to see nothing it's probably the weed making me paranoid. I began to walk back to my house but I start hearing another noise the sound getting louder, I ignore it thinking its just the drugs. I hear a howl from the trees I think to myself I can't be that stoned so I head over to the trees peering over only to see a stray dog.

I laugh shaking my head I go to pet the dog to try and comfort him but as I do he starts to growl so I step back then he starts to bark so I try to ignore the dog but then he starts to whimper I realise he is scared of something I look back only to see a large wolf face as it head butts me and knocks me out cold.

I start dreaming or more like having a nightmare of flashing visions of wolves killing and howling also bloodstains over the city and then more visions of wolves snarling and mating then I wake.

I raise my head breathing heavily feeling my cuts but there are gone I realise I'm in my bedroom could I have just dreamt last night, but I look at my bed with a big bloodstain on it I get up to see a large bite mark on my shoulder and neck. I start to shake quite frightened of what happened last night, I can't remember most of what happened last night mainly the arguments with Jess. I head into the shower to clean myself off, while I shower my body starts aching and pulsating. I nearly finish having a shower but then I realise I'm taller now I ignore it thinking its just my imagination and go to clean my teeth grabbing the toothbrush and paste. I look in the mirror and gasp dropping my toothbrush glaring at my set of razor sharp fangs, what's happening to me I head into the kitchen to grab a drink feeling the pain in my skin intensifies I feel what is now long hair and growing body hair I realise I'm changing into a werewolf my heart starts to thump so sit on my sofa staring at my wolf like hands with my tear filled eyes and my stomach is sick with nerves so I close my eyes and let the changes happen. I feel my muscles build up with jet black fur sprouting everywhere, I feel my face form into a muzzle and ears grow long and pointed, I feel a tail sprout out from my lower back, I feel my bones and limbs bend and I let a loud howl as I convert into my new lycan form.

After all the changes have finish I open my eyes seeing the world in a new look I open my nostrils to smell in a whole new way. I sense my inbuilt werewolf instincts to jump at great heights and be stealthy like an assassin and all kinds of things. I can still do everything like a human can like talk and intelligence etc, but harder to control I feel. I head to the bedroom mirror to glance at my new body my muscles the fur my long brushy tail. I quite like it but I close my eyes and transform back into my human form in instinct.

I head out the door to see how Jess is and as I do all my new improved senses start going, my hearing and my smell is incredible I decide to run to Jess's house and my speed is brilliant but not superhuman in human form.

I reach Jess's house, I'm just about to knock on her door but I sense something's wrong I rush in to see her to find her unconscious, I see all the pill packets scattered around the house, time just seemed to stand still as I gaze at her lifeless body she has taken a lot, she must of wanted for me to come back she even must of looked for me that night and forgot to lock the door so when she couldn't find me she tried to commit suicide. The guilt I felt was almost unbearable I still picked up the phone to call an ambulance hoping there is a chance to save her I can sense a slight heartbeat off her. I'm waiting for the ambulance as it came the medics rush in, I tried to explain but my pain for her just wouldn't let me speak. We headed to the hospital and Jess was rushed into emergency ward and I'm waiting in the waiting room my mind clogged with the Jess and the werewolf thing.

I waited and waited, watching people feeling an odd urge flow through me an urge to bite these humans, to extend my new found kind. I start to feel uneasy, fiddling with my fingers trying to control this instinct I rush outside for a cigarette, my hands shaking as I try to spark up. I watch as all the people walk by I take deep breaths trying to keep the wolf inside at bay after the cigarette I head back inside and sit back down.

I look down at my slightly blurred reflection on the polished floor seeing a fang emerge I close my mouth as my body tenses up I'm slipping to my werewolf form I calmly walk out the hospital and rush home to transform in peace. Thankfully the sun was just setting as I waited all day at the hospital.

I paced around my house in my lycan form, restless; my control over my instincts is slipping away the urge is far too great the tension is crippling to finally I snap! I head out the door and start creeping in and out the shadows using all my instincts and senses to find my target. I find a man alone in the park so I lay low out of the wind; all human rationality has gone, I pace over closer, my body still covered by shadow, I could smell the blood in him and it made me more hungry for that bite. I glide over the grass getting closer and closer, after I'm about ten foot away I lunge at my target straight for the side of the neck sinking my fangs into him. The screams were ear piercing, the stench of fear overwhelming, he passed out as I release him from my teeth. I see a light and hear a shout from what looks like the police. I quickly dash off in the mist of darkness.

I reach my house carefully so I wasn't spotted I head to the bathroom, look at the mirror, my twisted hunter's gaze stared back into my eyes, blood, down the side of my muzzle down my neck and on my chest, making my hair all stick together an evil snarl as I was happy, hurting people. I see my eyes turn back to normal werewolf, human rationality sinks back in and I realise what I done. I break down crying, thinking what a monster I have become, I gaze at my werewolf state quickly changing back to human form, I punch the wall repeatedly, head into the kitchen grab a large bottle whisky. Drink after drink till it was finished and with that I smash the bottle over the table, in my drunken state I stare at the shattered glass, I am a monster and Jess is in hospital, I lose it, grabbing a shard of glass I finely cut my arms in a moment of despair as blood trickles down my arms and drips on the carpet then I pass out.

It was morning, I felt terrible looking around the living room the shattered glass and the bloodstains on the carpet and my hangover is agony too. I take some tablets and head over the hospital the pills working quite well. I enter the hospital walking towards the ward, which Jess was in, only to find she wasn't there. I go and ask a nurse.

"Hello wasn't a girl called Girl called Jess here last night?"

The nurse smiled and replied.

"Yes but she recovered and discharged herself from the hospital about an hour ago"

The nurse than looked at my arms her face went white and her eyes seemed horrified of shock, I look at my arms to see my cuts on my arms healing at a superhuman pace I had to think quick but thankfully I sensed the consciousness leaving her body so I grabbed in her stunned state and carefully placed her on the bed and made a quick retreat.

I rush over to Jess's house a quick paced walking down the street, I start to glare at people in a sort of alienated look thinking I'm not one of them, and feel sort of a resentment of them, it feels like I don't belong here no more. In fact an urge to meet and be with my own new kind, even deeper feelings and urges with mating start unearthing. I feel uncomfortable, alone; I can sense werewolves around me but cannot pinpoint individuals even if they're in front of me. I reach Jess's house and about the knock on the door but feeling restricted I think to myself.

"She's not one of me"

"How could she love a monster"?

"Could I keep this secret away from her"?

I finally knock on the door and enter as I usually do, I walk in the living room Jess just stood there, staring into my eyes, her face sort of emotionless I stare back take a breath an ask.

"How are you sweetheart?"

She just looked away like she was disgusted with me does she know? I ask another question.

"What's the matter Jess I'm here everything is going to be alright"

She's still looking away I ask again.

"Is it me have I done something wrong?"

Looking away she says.

"You're a monster"

My heart fell, in fact shattered, black clouds overshadowed my mind I try to explain.

"Ok please hear me..."

But before I could even start Jess looks straight at me, a mixture of love and hate filled her eyes with tears pouring down her cheek she raises her voice shouting.

"You're a monster for leaving me in my fragile state of mind I called for you to come back I begged for to come back I needed you to come back but you just walked away leaving me".

Her voice quietened with her crying she spoke again.

"Watching you disappear in the shadows while I poured my heart out; I know I hurt you but you know what I'm like I loved you no matter what and I know you love me too. Ok we have our problems but our relationship is what is keeping us alive so when I saw you go I wanted to end it all, it's not like you haven't tried"

I gaze back at her releasing a tear of sorrow she speaks again.

"Me and you we both the same we have had our problems we only human"

And with that note I lowered my head in shame, I'm not human, just wanting to fade away into dust watching Jess pour her heart out I go to comfort her but she steps back saying.

"Please leave me for a while I must be alone"

I sigh walking out the door looking back and saying.

"Please don't do anything stupid Jess"

And with that I walk home feelings of pity and shame flood through my veins I walk through the park it was midday so I sit on a bench and have a normal cigarette, watching the kids play thinking why did I waste my childhood? Growing up in a broken home causing trouble that's no life.

I look the other way my eyes catch something, police tape around the spot where I was robbed of my humanity the bloodstains, my bloodstains tainting the grass.

I think to myself if only...

...If only I stayed to look after Jess instead of turning away leaving her. She wouldn't have overdosed she would be happy and me, me not become the monster I am. I walk home, feeling guilty of turning my life into a pit of misery.

I open the door the night starts to fall I sit down obsessed by the pain and suffering I feel. Suddenly the pity and shame spoil into anger, hate and suffering I mutate in my werewolf state starting to claw and slash at the walls and biting into the furnishings completely trashing my home. An hour later I see the destruction I caused I realise I'm now a werewolf and always will be, I think to myself it's about time to look for others like me.

I head out jumping in and out of shadows trying to sniff out my kind but before I found one I see another human at a bus top alone. I lick my muzzle that instinct overrides my mind I slowly creep towards hiding among the buildings I peer over a wall behind my prey thinking of adding another to my race. I wait for the perfect time but all a sudden another werewolf jumps on this human sinking his teeth into to him and then runs away. I quickly run with him trying to catch him, wanting to socialise with my kind. I follow him to the suburbs, then into a field and finally into a valley, which he stops in, I stop behind him in some trees cautious hiding not knowing what others are like I stare over realising he is a she.

"Come on, Come out I won't hurt you we both the same you and I" says the wolfess.

I walk towards her as she turns around and my groin feels a tingle urges to mate flow through me as this beautiful wolfess before me:

Her long toned legs joined by an ass perfectly toned and round with a large brushy tail wagging along. Curvy hips followed by a slim stomach with two big and pert breasts. Her ears long and pointed even more than mine, and bright gold eyes that glistened in the moonlight staring into my eyes smirking.

She comes towards me I could smell the scent of her sex she comes within an inch of me and brushes her tail around my lower body smirking

And with that my cock unsheathes the wolfess smiles tracing her finger up and down my bulge of my jeans

She starts stroking me, hugging me, her fur feels plush as I start feel around her body. We kiss our tongues playing with each other, my hornyness starts to amplify. I stare into her golden eyes tasting her saliva as let our tongues play then we both release, she starts rubbing her tits inviting me as I start to kiss her nipples as she moans in pleasure I kiss then lick around her as more gasps of pleasure from this gorgeous wolfess. Her nipple is as hard as steel, as I suck on them.

She pushes me away smiling as she lies down holding on my cock and placing it between her cleavage as sway back and forth I growl lightly the sensation is amazing. The wolfess moans in ecstasy as she fingers her clit rubbing all around as she dribbles out her juices. She uses the tip of her tongue lapping at my end, I growl in pleasure as pre cum trickles out a the wolfess tastes it tracing her hand up my legs and starts feeling my ball sack I moan than howl a little. She starts the suck on my cock, with her hands caressing my balls, I sense her excitement as she enjoy my meat as she plays and teases me I stroke her behind the ears as I stand and let this beautiful wolfess blow off me.

She starts to harder and harder as she gentle squeezes my balls I grunt than moan than grunt again.

Suddenly she pushes me to the ground and her hand using her weight to keep me pinned then kisses me roughly while rubbing my nipples quite hard and then slaps my belly. I yelp then laugh our eyes locked with lust I flip her over with now me on top. We' re both panting as I place my meat in her slit, the wolfess growls in pleasure panting even harder.

We bounce off each other both creating waves of pleasure; her legs buck as I grip her cleavage to keep balance. The thrust in and out forcing my whole body weight into her making the wolfess howl immensely, she wants more and more so I give it to her, each thrust more harder than the last while wolfess lies there in a puddle of her own juice. My groans get louder.

I start to nibble on her ear as the wolfess moans even louder; I start to use all the strength in my legs as I yiff in a power crazed madness I feel the tension in my cock building to climax. I get faster for a big orgasm while the wolfess on the brink of orgasm, howling that is echoing through the valley. We both gush out our seed splashing over us as we orgasm, we fall on each other, panting, letting our tongue loll out trying to cool off from the heat of sex, we kiss again before getting up.

"How did you like your first werewolf sex then"? Says the wolfess

I smile place my hand on her face and reply

"It was fantastic" trying to get more words in but I was very tired.

We head to the river to clean ourselves off helping each other enjoying it as we clean each other interment areas. We get out the river go on fours and shake off the wet and sit down by a log watching the moon in its alluring beauty I turn to the wolfess and ask.

"So what's your name?"

She turns away then turns back, smiles and says.

"You sure you want to know me, what about your girlfriend?"

I turn at her confused asking.

"How do you know about Jess?"

She smiles a strange grin and explains

"I know all about you, your name is Nate and your girlfriend is Jess I know your past and I sense your disgust for the new species you now become. Do you think I'm a monster we can't help who we are, you will grow to love your new self and I love you and always will you don't have a clue what you are and what I'm am but I show you something".

I see the tears come from her golden eyes I go to hug her and she hugs me back. We hug for a minute than I feel her fur sink into her skin, I can feel change into a human I look at her human form and I choke to see the beautiful wolfess was Jess all along I look down but Jess brings my head back to her and explains

"It's alright we will be fine me and you, together as a couple of werewolves I admit I was a werewolf before I met you I know it has been two years but I always loved you even if you were human. I was only fiery because of trying to control my werewolf instincts I didn't want to hurt you. Also that's why I recovered quickly in hospital, please I know we can make this work there's loads of us out here hundreds we can start a family".

Jess goes to hug me so I go to hug her back even though I didn't want to, we both monsters in some sense, then Jess whispers in my ear.

"You were so scared when I bit you"

On hearing that I shoved Jess away teary eyed I look straight into her eyes shouting.

"You did this to me, made me into a monster and blood thirsty murder, an outsider to the human race forced to live in the shadows like a freak"

Starting to choke up on my tears I said

"I thought you cared about me, not fuck me over"

I turned back to walk home and Jess shouts.

"You can't escape it, it will stay with you forever you can't commit suicide you won't die now please come back I will make it better you are not a monster you a werewolf you have a new species to integrate with a start a new look life, your human life was awful, worst than mine I can sense you love me and I know you sense that I love you too you deserve a second chance you have one, now please I beg of you come back to me please I can't go on without you I did this cause I want to be with you forever"

I look back to see her to a river of tears streaming down her face.

I love Jess I can't live without her either I sigh I look back tears running down my cheek I walk back to her I breakdown in front of her hugging her crying my heart out before kneeing down crying in my own self pity. Frightened of my new life scare of hurting people but I must go on as a werewolf. Jess raises my head kissing me saying.

"You be alright you like yiff anyway, you still not a monster just misunderstood now come on lets go home".

I stare into her gold loving eyes and kiss her and then we walk in the shadows to start a life as a pair of werewolves.