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The whistle blew loud signaling the third quarter ending. It was our home coming game and almost the whole high school was here it seemed. My team and I ran off the field and the varsity gathered around while the seniors grabbed their parents or partner and headed towards the locker room. My friend Willie had his mother with him and the other four had their fathers and dates. Today was our last game and I was nervous as hell, most of the seniors were still wearing their uniform. I was too and I was still sweating from the defence, I had to cover for the some others in the team. I sat on the benches and one of the players came and sat right next to me.

"'sup Khile, where's your parents?" it was Zackery our rottweiler quarter back, he wasnt buff but he could get a girl.

"Hey Zack, my parents are away so I have no-one."

"No you don't." I heard a familiar voice say.

I looked in front of me and I saw Jon he was wearing a red V neck shirt and faded blue jeans. I literally smiled big and got up and just reacted. I came up to him and hugged him to death. Thats when I stopped and looked around. Zack looked like he found the meaning of life but then went back to his normal face and just said.

"No-one will judge you Khile, this is probably the first time I have ever seen you like that so yah we won't judge."

I looked around and the rest of the seniors were just looking at me some with thumbs ups or just nodding. I guess I could go out and show them the real me.

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I was walking with Khile holding hands the whole time, I looked at Khile and he seemed to be happy and I was too. I just loved it when he wore his uniform and he knew I did too, with his white jersey with his number 52. I could hear girls talking to other football players "Khile's gay?" or like "Holy shit." I kinda felt uncomfortable but I heard some of the players whisper back "So?" or "Dont judge."

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I started to feel more comfortable till I heard one of the coaches came in and start speaking loud.

"Listen up seniors... they will call your names in alphabetical order so when your name is called walk half-way up to the football field and line up with your parents or date." He looked at me and Khile and went back to calling out.

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I could hear the loudspeakers outside of the locker room.

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"Good evening Ladies and Gentlemen.... I would like to welcome you to Fort Osages last game of the season and today we would like honor our seniors for giving us a one hell of a season.... First one up is Joey Smith...." then a big Rhino walked out with his parents and he was smiling the whole time. Five more were called and then I heard a familiar name "next one up is Willie Penamon III..." the otter came with his date a thin cougar and walked right out and I began to shake a little but then I felt Khile's hand gripping mine and I looked at him.

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"Its ok, we can go through this together.."

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"And finally we have Khile Richmond...."

Khile began opening the doors and I followed him and all I could see was bright lights and hundreds of furs watching us I looked at Khile and saw a brave face on him and which I did too and walk with him side by side and listened to the speakers.

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"He has been in JV teams for a year and three years playing Varsity he is our right defender and been our best one so far he is planing of going to Southern State Missouri University. and with him to-day is his boyfriend Jonathan Shapley..."

I looked at the bleachers and some I saw some furs getting on their phones and even my friends were giving concerned looks. I was a little scared and so I walked a little more slowly and I started to breathe a little faster. Then Khile started to yank me and he gave me a warming smile and I couldnt believe it even the other seniors were encouraging me by showing hands and waving me toward them. Though I was still scared I walked the same pace as Khile and finaly we were right next to the other seniors and finally the spokesperson said

"Thank you seniors for the best year of football and we wish you the best in life." The whole crowd began clapping and we stood there and began walking back in the locker room.

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Khile

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After the game at home.

We had a great game this season and too bad it was my last one, well at least till next year in college. I unlocked my door and looked around and saw that there were boxes full of things and I just ignored them. I started to walk up the stairs but till I heard my dads voice which scared the hell out of me.

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"Khile in the kitchen now."

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I did as he said but he didnt sound happy so I was wondering what chore I didnt do. He was waiting at the counter still in his office uniform but his tie was untied and he began to speak

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"So I was listening to my voice messages and I happen to hear about you having a boy friend." already my head was saying "shit." so I just told him straight up.

"Yes. Dad I'm gay, I have a boy friend name of Jonathan and I love him. I was going to tell you too later, but I guess I have no choice but to tell you now. So yeah I hope this doesn't change you from loving me."

"Oh I love you...I'd love you to get out of my house." right then my heart exploded.

"What?"

"No fag is going to be in my house I already packed all of your things. So get out."

"But dad...I'm your only son, you have loved me and now your just going to dump me out like shit."

"Get out!"

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I did and after 15 minutes of loading the truck with boxes I drove off and tears started to fall from my eyes, I couldnt believe it. I'm homless I couldn't think about anything 'til my phone began to vibrate and it was Jon calling me.

"Hello?" I said sobbing a little, while stopping on a stop light.

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"Khile you ok you dont sound good something happen."

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"Yeah I'm fine."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I'm fine...sniff."

"Khile I know your lying what happen?" I knew there was no way to lie to him. I love him to much to lie to him.

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"My dad knows and now I have no place to live."

He didn't reply and he didn't speak for a while and I was wondering if he had hung up but I wanted to make sure.

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"Jonathan?"

"Thanks dad...Come over here you can stay here. My dad says you can stay here."

My body became warm, and I drove right toward Jonathan's apartment.

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5 minutes later

I looked for the number on the doors and I found it and knocked on the door and a wolf opened it. He wasn't Jonathan so I assumed he was his dad, he was shorter than me and Jon had his dads eyes and the smile Jon gives me.

"Are you Khile?"

"Yes Sir."

"Come right in and stay as long as you want I'll go tell Jon that your here."

"Thank-you sir." I looked around, the apartment was small, the dining room looked like it was ten foot in length and so was the living room. I heard Jon and he came up to me and led me to his room. I thought his room was small and there were two beds which made me assume he sleeps with his brother.

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"Sorry it's not much but its all I got."

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"Are you kidding I'm glad I have warmth tonight.....oh and your dad is very nice."

"Hehe thanks, he always is no matter what he's changed ever since he was diagnosed."

"Diagnosed?"

"Oh you don't know, I forgot. He has cancer.."

I felt horrible asking him about it. I didn't know what to say or anything, but Jon already spoke.

"Relax I'm over that Khile. It's been like 2 years now that he has had it and trust me he's getting better."

"Ok, I just didn't know what to say after that."

"You don't have to, you need to sleep"

He went to get another pillow and he handed one to me then he turned off the lights and went to bed. I followed him and, since his brother sleeping with him, I couldn't cuddle with him and it was hard sharing a twin sized bed. Jon poked me in the back of the bed and said

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"My brother isn't sleeping in here tonight, he's sleeping with my dad so you can sleep on his."

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"Thank God" I said in my head and walk over and went to sleep.

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2:00 am

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I woke up from my nightmare and looked around and just saw Khile, I looked around some more but there was no one else. I got up and went to the bathroom and locked the door, I opened the toilet lid and took out a small cutting knife. I sat on the tub and looked at my left wrist, revealing my previous cuts under the fur, cuts I made in earlier years. I began to shove the knife in my wrist and it stung and burned, red liquid began to come out.

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I let it bleed for a few minutes and let the blood drip into the toilet till I heard a knock.

"Jon?"

Shit it was Khile, I quickly put the knife back in the place I always put it and got my bandages and tried to cover it up with gauze.

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"Just a sec."

I almost unlocked the door but I realised I forgot to flush the toilet. I did that then unlocked the door and put my left wrist behind my back and looked at Khile.

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"Mmm what are you doing in there?" he said wiping his eye.

"I'm uh just using the restroom."

I saw his nose wiggle a little and he then began waking up and looked at me straight in the eye.

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"What are you cutting?"

"What are you talking bout?"

He grabbed my left arm and I yanked it away from him and fell on the floor. He saw my wrist and literally freaked out whispering

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"You're cutting your arm, what the fuck. Are you crazy?..."

I listen to everything he is saying and the whole time I was crying from what he told me. What an idiot I was cutting myself.

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"I dont want to lose you and what would your father think Jon?"

I finaly lost it I walked to my room and just went to my bed and cried into my pillow I heard the toilet lid open and heard tape getting peeled off and I saw Khile with the knife throwing it in the trash. I could hear his footsteps getting closer to me and he sat next to me and looked at my wrist. He shut the door, turned on a lamp and inspected it.

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"Luckily it wasn't deep but please no more cutting. I will help you get through this I promise."

"I'm sorry Khile."

"It's ok, just dont do it again promise?"

"I promise."

"Now lets go to bed. Is it ok if you miss school tomorrow?"

"Its up to my dad."

"Ok I'll ask him."

I felt his lips on mine and I kissed him back.

"Now go to bed and I'll be up tonight so if you wake up and cut yourself again I'll make you stop. Now good night Jonathan, and remember I'm here for yah."

With that I felt a lot better but I still felt down and I fell asleep slowly until finally I fell asleep.