Regrets and Retribution
#4 of Winter Break
I woke up, feeling downright groggy, and a bit sore. But well rested. I was beginning to wonder how long I was sleeping. As well as what had happened last night, or what I perceived to be last night. It seemed like a dream, really. A really bad dream. One that my mind had started to forget about. I sat up, with some difficulty. Must have been groggier than I suspected. Or my bed really had turned to jelly... wait. This was a waterbed. Then that would mean.. Why was I in my parent's room? I didn't have long to think about it though. "Awake already? I was starting to get worried."
"T-terra? What.. what's going on? How long was I asleep?" I rubbed my eyes sleepily, and winced in pain as my left shoulder started to burn. "Augh, what the hell did I do to my shoulder?"
Immediately Terra set down the tray she was carrying that held a bowl of something hot, as well as some bandaging and a hot, wet cloth. "Careful dear, your shoulder's still healing. You've only been asleep for 12 hours, but..." She carefully unwrapped the bandages on my shoulder, and began to wrap fresh bandages around the wound. Getting a look between changes, I noticed there were... bite marks? What the hell happened? A quick glance at my sister showed concern in her face. Something was bothering her. And the wound seemed to have something to do with it. She tried to hide it, but I could still tell.
"12 hours... haven't slept that long in awhile. ..Are you alright, sis?"
"Hmm? Oh, yeah. I'm alright. Here, eat this." She handed me the bowl, which smelled like it contained chicken soup. "What about you? Wasn't sure how you'd be after last night.."
"Last night? What happened last... night. Oh.." Slowly it came back to me. The burgers, the dessert, the sex... Shit. "Um..." She bent down and hugged me tightly.
"I'm really sorry, Firman. I never expected things to... to.."
"It's alright, sis." Brushing a tear from her eye, I hugged her back. "It's not like I was seriously hurt, at least. But... really, what happened last night? It's, really.. kind of hazy."
Sitting down next to me, she wrapped her arms around me in a soft embrace. "Please, don't be upset by this, but... I think I may have overdone things a bit last night... I had bought this really nice incense some time ago. The incense contained an aphrodisiac, but not a very powerful one... well, so I was told... It was supposed to just heighten our senses, making the evening much more enjoyable.. I was saving it for a special moment with a special someone, but I felt last night would be that special moment, and you really were that special someone.. I never meant for things to get so out of hand.. It was meant to be a special moment, not.. not a.. my gods, I don't know what to call it..."
I rubbed her arm softly, reassuringly. "It's alright.. I had.. hoped that this was the case. It's not your fault."
She nodded softly, getting up and taking the old bandages with her. "I know, I just can't stop thinking about it, what happened..." Shaking her head, she headed for the hallway. "I'll be back in a bit. I need to wash these, and my sheets." She chuckled a bit. "I didn't think you had so much in that small body of yours."
Merely chuckling, I toss a pillow at her playfully. She'd be alright. The event had her shaken up, sure. Hell, it had me shaken up a bit, to think that we could have so easily lost control. But she seemed to be coping alright. Besides, not like anything bad came out of it, right? It could have been a lot-
_ RING! _ Phone.. right. Where wa-_ RING! _ "Geez, that thing is loud" _ RING! _ "Alright! I hear you! Geez! ..Hello?"
"Hey sweetie, how are things? Is everything alright?"
"Mom? Hey! Things are.. alright, I guess... Why do you ask?"
"Your father and I was worried; we tried to call the house several times last night, but nobody answered"
Oh shit! Did we fuck through that? No way in hell can I admit we were screwing each other's brains out while they tried to call.. Think fast.." "Oh, uh.. we had gone out for, burgers that night. Didn't stay up long after that.. uh, we probably missed you between calls.. Didn't mean to worry you!" Not exactly the truth, but I certainly can't lie to my parents..
"Ah, alright dear. We were afraid something bad had happened to the two of you. We were about to end our visit early and head home to make sure nothing had happened, is all!"
"Oh, no need to do anything like that! Terra and I are just fine really!" Oh shit this was bad.. Change of subject! How was the funeral?"
"Oh, it was alright, as far as funerals go anyway.. Was nice to see some old friends again at any rate. Is your sister available? There's a couple of things I'd like to talk with her about."
Uh.. shit, does she suspect something? "Uh, sure, hang on a second... Terra! Phone call! It's Mom!"
"Mom? Alright! Be there in a sec!" She came jogging into the room, her hands slightly damp. She must have just taken care of those sheets. I moved to get up, walk around, perhaps see just how bad it really was in there. "Be careful dear, I don't want you tearing that shoulder open again." She picked up the receiver. "Mom? Hey! How are things over there? Yeah, funerals aren't all that great unfortunately. Glad you got reacquainted with some old friends though! Hmm? Oh! Yeah, everything's alright here. We went for burgers and probably missed your call, then went to bed before you called again. Firman? Yeah... he had a bit of an injury. No, nothing major! A few days of rest, and he'll be alright! Don't worry! When you get home, you wouldn't even be able to tell anything had happened."
I didn't stick around for long. I needed to get away for a bit, let them talk in privacy for a bit. She sure acted pretty cool though. She controlled herself better than I think I did. I shook my head, mulling things over as I walked aimlessly about the house. How on earth did I not hear the phone ring? Was I really that out of it at the time? I found myself wandering into Terra's room. "Geez... what a mess.. Did this really all come from last night?" The whole room wreaked strongly of sex, and incense. Even after over half a day, the smells were still strong, even for me. There were stains on the carpet, and the bed. Geez, I thought she had laid plastic out on the bed.. then again we were all over the place, weren't we?. And they were big stains too! "Holy shit..." Some of the stains were spread far from the bed. What little I could remember had us near the bed. Some of these stains look like they had been sprayed. Damn.
I shook my head, and walked out of the room. Either there was still some aphrodisiac in the air, or the smell of sex was getting to me. I was getting aroused. Any longer in there and I'd end up adding another stain. I walked to my room, and realized that even though we had fucked hard, and made such a big mess, I was rather clean. Terra must have washed me some time after I passed out. But then, I seriously doubt she would have put me in their bed while I was still coated in our own fluids. Oh man.. we really dodged a bullet this time...
I walked around, and found myself headed back to my parent's room. "Ok, I'll talk to you later. Enjoy the rest of your visit! Love you too, bye!" Terra set down the receiver, and smiled at me. "Hey you. How's the shoulder?"
"My shoulder? Oh, um.. it's.. fine..."
"Are you alright, dear? You didn't tear your shoulder again?" I shook my head. "No? Well, that's good. What's bothering you? Geez, you're shaking. Sit down hon, before you hurt yourself."
I sat down on the bed next to her, my legs almost ready to give out. "I-I-I.. I've been thinking... about what happened, last night? We... we really.. cut it close... We never even heard the phone ring the entire time we were out of it. What, what if they had someone come over to check on us?"
"I was thinking that myself, bro. I had no idea the incense was that powerful. But Mom and Dad figured we had been away when they called. That's why they called this morning, to make sure. Though we were in a bad situation, we lucked out this time, thankfully."
"This time, yes. But what about next time?"
"Don't worry; I'll never let us get that out of control again. I'll throw out the rest of that incense as soon as I can."
"I suppose.. but still, what if our parents decided to have someone check up on us without any kind of warning whatsoever?" I suppose i was being paranoid, maybe even irrationally so, but still, we did get through that by the skin of our teeth.
"Well... I suppose we could..." She stopped to think a bit. I didn't want to say it, but her cool attitude towards this was actually starting to piss me off. We were doing something that could get us both in a lot of trouble, and were almost caught in the act! How could she stay so cool about this? "It wouldn't be like we couldn't just stop and make sure they knew everything was alright. Not like last night."
Last night... the mess.. the smells.. "I, guess so.. but for how long? I mean, sure, we might be able to get away with it now, but what about later? How long can we keep our relationship a secret?" Tears were starting to well up in my eyes. I was really scared that everything we worked for would come crashing down upon us. I didn't know what would happen then. "Eventually someone would be able to figure out we've been fooling around.."
Terra merely grabbed hold of my chin, and gently turned my head towards her, to look into my eyes. Through the tears, I could see the same worry in her eyes that I felt. "I know dear, I know.. But it will be alright, I promise."
I don't know what happened, but I just snapped. I know she meant well by staying calm and cool about it, but I just couldn't handle it anymore. "Alright? Alright?! How can you stay so calm about this? If you haven't noticed, your room is full of the evidence of our actions! There are stains everywhere! The scent.. the scent... even if we could explain the stains, how the hell would we explain that?! I seriously doubt that our parents would have difficulty figuring out that we were fucking like animals in there!"
"Firman..."
"Do you have any idea just how close we cut it? ..I'm sorry, but.. I can't.." I never finished. I just took off running to my room. Locking the door, I lay down in my bed, and cried. Hard.
It must have been hours before I stopped. My pillow had become rather wet from tears, and it wasn't feeling too nice on my face, so I decided to head out, not having much else I could do to take my mind off of things. Opening the door to my room, I walked into the hall, headed for the kitchen. Maybe some food will help... Grabbing some bread, and peanut butter, I make my way to the dining room, stopping short when I reached the doorway. Sitting at the table was Terra. She looked like she had been crying, herself. I felt responsible for that, and felt really bad. Now though she was just staring somewhat blankly at the table. Her tail was slowly swishing back and forth; she must be deep in thought. I entered the room, nervous about how she was going to be, given my outburst earlier. She must have heard me, because she looked up at me. The blank look she gave me creeped me out for a second, before emotion returned to her eyes. "F-firman? Are.. are you.. Are you alright?"
I nodded, and sat down next to her. "Yeah.. I will be." While making my sandwich, I could feel some tears returning to my eyes. I thought I had dried them up by now. "I um... want to apologize about earlier.. I was just scared and-" She put a finger to my lips, quieting me.
"Shh.. think nothing of it." She smiled softly at me. "Heh, in all my life I can't remember you ever shouting at me like that. I have to admit it hurt a bit. But that's behind us now. I forgive you."
Hugging her tight, I could feel the tears flowing again. "I'm really sorry.. I.. just, it was something that nagged me since our first, intimate relationship, but I ignored it. After last night, and the call from our parents, I just couldn't ignore it any longer, and it just burst from me. I don't think I can ignore it anymore.. We probably shouldn't be having sex anymore. It's just too risky!"
Nodding, she held me while I cried once more. "I know, dear. We both knew it was a risk. Though I think we could have kept it a secret. But last night.. I admit I screwed up big time. Hell, I never even heard the damned phone ring, I was so lost in lust. But I promise you, I will never let that happen again."
I shook my head, the tears still flowing. "No.. we shouldn't risk it anymore. Yes, I knew it was a risk. A big risk. A risk we can't take anymore. I'm sorry.. I do admit it was nice.. Very nice. But.. I love you a lot, Terra. A lot more than I should even... As painful as this is, I can't afford to see you hurt because we were doing something we shouldn't have."
She smiled softly, but I knew she wasn't too happy... I couldn't blame her. It was hard to just suddenly ignore strong feelings like we had. "I know, I love you too, Firman. Very much." She kissed me softly on the lips. I half expected it to be as passionate as we used to. And it almost was. But no, it was just a friendly kiss, nothing more. "Don't worry, love. Everything will be alright."
Mmm.. the comforting arms of a sister can heal a lot of emotional wounds. We continued to embrace each other for some time, nuzzling each other (well, I nuzzled as best as I could) soothingly. Eventually we broke the embrace, and got up. The sandwich ended up being forgotten about, lying on the table as we walked out of the dining room. "We should probably tackle that mess we made. At least try to get it all cleaned up before anyone finds out," I said. She nodded, and we gathered various cleaning supplies we would need. Rags, bucketful of soapy water, a few brushes, carpet cleaner, and air freshner.
Upon entering the room, Terra opened a window to air out the room, and hopefully get rid of the stench of sex quickly. I immediately tackled the carpeting, scrubbing hard to get the stains out of them. Terra grabbed the soapy bucket and water, and began washing the walls. Everything in there had to be washed to be sure the stench was gone. Even though I couldn't smell it after awhile, I knew Terra, as well as our parents, could tell that some form of sex had taken place in here. The scent of sex and aphrodisiacs had coated just about everything in the room. Terra would get in a lot of trouble if our parents thought she had sex with a guy in their house! They probably couldn't tell it was us, but they could tell it was a male in here with her. It took several hours for us to have everything wiped down in there. We were downright exhausted when we finished late at night. I was too exhausted to do much more than collapse on Terra's bed. She giggled at this.
"Guess I worked you too hard, huh? Aww, you just look so adorable!" She laughed as a pillow nailed her smack in the face. "Ooh, you're asking for it now!" She lept into the bed, and began to tickle me! I couldn't fight back when she tickled me, and she knew it! I was completely defenseless against her merciless assault, but thankfully it didn't last too long. Unfortunately it did end painfully when my shoulder wound opened up again.
"Augh, shit! That hurt.." I rubbed my shoulder gently, and tossed another pillow at my sister, letting her know it was alright. She giggled, and rewrapped my shoulder with some bandages she kept in a drawer in her room. "Geez, you sure are prepared for almost anything, aren't you!"
"Heh, you could say that. Hmm.. you really are adorable, you know?" I merely rolled my eyes and giggled, which got her to giggle in return. "Oh come on, you are!" She crawled into the bed with me, and snuggled up to me. "Mmm.. you're quite soft too." Chuckling, I cuddled up against her, blushing softly at her comment.
"Mmm, you're soft too. Ooh, very soft!" She had pulled me up so that my head rest upon her breasts, and she stroked my hair softly. I wasn't sure if this was such a good idea, even though we had cuddled like this quite often before. It was still rather soon since we... agreed to stop our newest development in our relationship. Well... sometimes I wondered about her. It could just be my mind playing tricks on me, but I swear during times we were cleaning her tail would get... friendly. Not obviously so. Could have been accidental. I didn't think too much of it though. Instead I began to rub her belly, which she always enjoyed when we cuddled. She purred softly, which really helped me fall asleep faster.
"Mmmm.. sleep well my love.."
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