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Depression

Fuck, depression man

That's what's going on here

It makes you do some fucked up shit

Now I don't usually curse like this

But what do you expect I'm in low, pitiful state

I'm listening to break up songs and trying to see straight

It doesn't help without my glasses

And an empty wine glass

But heck at least it's not too extreme

At least you haven't found my body in a stream

The insults I get are just fuel for the fire

But they will get replaced by desire

The desire to be accepted because I'm different

I've met many mean people in life

And all they do is just push me over the edge

Sometimes I just take it

Then when my family asks what's wrong

I fake it

I fake happiness and play ping pong

I fake glee and act like I'm free

I'm not free

I still have to deal with their shit

But that's life right?

Wrong

Because you can be what I once was

A taker

A cutter

A target

Or you can stand up to them

Only to realize that when you do

It causes more trouble

That's what happened to me and they call me a pussy

If they saw the scars on my arm from the pellet gun

I bet they would think differently

Now, my fursona is a fox

So, most people associate me as being submissive to everyone

Well that's not the case

I think I'm free spirited

Determined

Mind strong

And lovable

You laugh

I knew you would

Not because you are like them

But unlike them you actually care

And that's all I ask for

No one likes depression especially when it nearly causes the end of your life

But I've found a way to help me with it before it gets to severe

No, I don't eat grass like a deer

I write about it

I watch lion king

Because there is adversity in it

I talk to people

And try to stay afloat so I can see through the peephole

I drink sometimes and lay in bed

I shoot my bow and arrow

Instead of myself

I don't think I would get to the point where I killed myself

Because I know there people who love me

And to those of you going through the same thing

Do something fast and you will be fine

P.S.

Don't think no one loves you because that's not true, your family loves you and we do too.