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"i thought i was the only one who as like this. the dreams keep apering to me. my friends keep dying..." i said to myself as i sat on the bed thinking about the dreams. "i wish i could stop them... but i cant stop worring about hayden... if i lose him i..i dont know what i would do." i said and put my head into my paws and tears fell down my face. "dam it why wont they just stop." i said outloud.

"jeremy are you ok?" sakia said walking over rubbing my back.

"what. oh hi sakia. and yes i am." i said giving a fake smile.

"dont lie to me." he said smaking the back of my head.

"fine i keep having really really fucked up dreams...." i said

"ohhh i have had thos before." sakia said putting his arm around my shoulder and pulled me into a hug.

"any idea how to get them to stop?" i asked.

"yeah... you just have to get away from everyone.. you need to just take time off of your life..." he said and licked my ear.

"ok thanks... i think im ganna start now. im ganna tell hayden ... ill see you later." i said and rubbed his head making him purr.

"ok... be carefull." he said as i left.

"hey hun where are you off to?" hayden said walking out of the elevater.

"im ganna be going somewhere for a while.. i will be back. i love you." i said then hugged him tightly.

"ok be carefull. i love you to." he said holding me tightly against his body. i purred lightly and kissed his lips. after we parted from the kiss i huged him again getting his musk one last sniff then walked into the elevater. once i was out of it i walked over to the car and drove intill i felt like it was time to stop. i drove into a motel and got a room. when i got into my room i laid down and fell sleep.

_"sir are you ok?" a young dog asked picking me up. his eyes were like hydens but at the same time they were really diffrent. his didnt sparkle like haydens. _

"yeah... yeah im fine.. do i know you?" i asked the pup.

"erm no... but my name is hayden.. yours?" he asked.

"erm im jeremy.." i said. his voice was just like haydens and everything looked like him.. he even smelt like him.

"nice to met you." he said smiling and put out his paw. i smiled as he helped me up. we talked for about a hour then a girl came over. "hey hon." he said and kissed her lips.

_"hey love. whos this shepie." she said putting out her paw. _

"im jeremy. nice to meet you." i said smiling.

"nice to meet you to." she said smiling then turnd towrd hayden. "come one we have to go somewhere. nice meeting you jeremy." she said turning back to me and smiled.

"nice meeting both of you." i said and smiled back.

"see ya aroung jeremy." hayden said and walked back. i dont know why but i was smiling as i walked away.

We are flying high, saying farewell would be a lie There's no need tonight to spend a sleepless lonely night We are flying high, There's no way to say goodbye You're denying, why? I'll be back and then you'll be mine

Time is passing by, you gotta make it through the night until the morning you say "Goodbye, for now darling." Maybe you will come back, on another day you'll do that Go away with the wind, it takes you now

my ipod sang out from FLying High by DJ splash. i woke up and smiled. i felt like a wight was lifted of my shoulders. that i could do anything now. but i couldnt help but wonder why my dream told me hayden was straite.

"well better then a nightmare." i said and grabed my room key. i walked to the front desk and gave her the key and said thanks. when i got to the car i turnd my ipod to Time Out by D.D Allance. i drove to the club to start my shift. after i got changed into my uniform i walked to my normal spot.

"S-Shep here."

"hey shep." blue-wuff said.

"welcome back pup" golden said.

"yeah welcome back." boss man said.

"hey hon." purple said.

"hey shepie." red said.

"thanks all." i said.

Take me now baby here as I am Pull me close, try and understand Desire is hunger is the fire I breathe Love is a banquet on which we feed

rang out as Because The Night by Patti Smith started playing though out the amps. hayden looked over and smiled at me.

Come on now try and understand The way I feel when I'm in your hands Take my hand come undercover They can't hurt you now, Can't hurt you now, can't hurt you now Because the night belongs to lovers Because the night belongs to lust Because the night belongs to lovers Because the night belongs to us

Have I doubt when I'm alone Love is a ring, the telephone Love is an angel disguised as lust Here in our bed until the morning comes Come on now try and understand The way I feel under your command Take my hand as the sun descends They can't touch you now, Can't touch you now, can't touch you now Because the night belongs to lovers Because the night belongs to lust ** *Because the night belongs to lovers * **Because the night belongs to us

as the song played my tail wagged to the beat soon i was dancing with Aaron and Sakia. some of the others were dancing as well because no one was causing any problums.

"sakia thank you." i said hugging him tightly.

"what fur." he said looking at me his green eyes look innocently into my soul.

"ohh you know what." i said licking his nose. he chuckled then licked my chin. i let him go and he pounced on aaron who had found seth. i smiled seeing all my friends happy. and that i didnt have a nightmare last night.

"you shep i need you over here." red said. i quickly made my way over to him in the smoke and fur filled room.

"yeah red?" he pointed to a guy holding sakia up onto the wall.

"HEY! back the fuck off him." i said pulling the bear off him.

"yo nega i ant got shit with cha ba diss fag here gotta deal wif." the bear said. i wanted to punch him in the face.

"you. out. NOW!" i said pushing him towrds the door.

"yo bitch dont be putting your fuckin paws on meh. do ya know ho da fawk i am bitch." he said pushhing me back

"no and i dont give a shit OUT!." i said and thew him out the door.

"oh fuck no." he said and pulled out a gun and pointed it at me. "now ya ganna die to." he said. lee ran from the side and tackled him to the grown. as the bear fell his fingger pulled the trigger. the gun shot off and i heard a scream. i took the gun and unloaded it and put it into my pants. i turnd back only to see sakia on the grownd.

"RED CALL 911 NOW." i said and ran over to sakia. their was a bullet hole going though his right pec. "sakia speak to me.

"st-orm.. hayd.. play afterlife.. a7x.. ple.fa..song" he said gasping for air. i nodded and got out my radio.

"hayden.. afterlife avanged sevenfold.. play it now please." i said crying.

"sure thing hon.. sakia.. i love you like a brother... good luck." hayden said.

Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen So unsure but it seems, 'cause we've been waiting for you Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be Arrived too early

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear Escape from this afterlife 'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on Far away from here

the amps played as hayden turnd on Afterlife.

"i.. lov. thi.song.. lov.you.. storm." he smiled. gasping for air lightly

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear Escape from this afterlife 'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, Far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might Take me back inside when the time is right

"sakia i love you to." i said hugging him he griped tightly around my chest. "thank you for everthing... we new eachother a little but you helped me more then you could ever believe." i said tears falling from my face.

"you. do good. tak. this cros. i got it from my boyfriend he dyed 2 week ago du to cancer. its yours... lov you tell hayd bye... bye storm.." he said and his arms fell from my body and his chest moving... his eyes closed and i slowly set him down. i looked at him and he was smiling. he was going to see his boyfriend again. i took off his necklace and put it over my neck.. i looked at his body and shook my head. hayden ran over and pulled me into a tight hug.

"hon hes. in a way better place now...." he said i could feel his tears falling down onto my shirt.

"i know.. im just ganna miss him." i said crying into hyadens bare shoulder. aaron and seth walked over and hugged us to.

"aww da fag dies.. good." the bear spat. hayden could tell what was gonna happen and he let me go. my eyes went red with anger and i walked over to the bear

"YOU LITTLE PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT." i screamed then punched him right a cross the muzzle. his eyes rolled back and he fell straight to the grownd and didnt move. the cops came over and put him in handcuffs then put him in the police car. i walked over and the cops looked at the body and sighed and shook their head.

"im sorry for your loss..." the cop said then patted me on the back. 2 doctors walked over and set sakias lifeless body onto a strecher and wheeld him away.

"hon... we are going to his funeral..." i said holding him tightly and looked at the blood that was on the floor.

"i know hon." hayden said and hugged me close. i looked up and i saw a fadded image of sakia. he was smiling and i saw a young cat walk up and kiss his cheek. i smiled and waved while hugging hayden. he chuckled and waved back and walked into the crowd and disaperd. when we got home i noticed sakias hoodie i picked it up and hugged it close to me then pulled it over my arms. it was the perfict fit, a little skinny but it felt good to wear and i wouldnt rip it. i smiled as the scent of his body filled my nose. hayden walked behind me and hugged me tightly.

"im ganna miss him so much..." i said and hugged myself in sakias hoodie.

"i am to..." hayden said and turnd me around and kissed my lips.

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry These streets we travelled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while I can move on with you around I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live In No longer needed here so where do we go? Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of Death? But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna Die alone without you here, Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? Whoah, so I never want to leave you, and the memories of Us to see I beg don't leave me

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then Continues in the background]

I'm stuck here alone Falling away from me, no chance to get back home [x2]

my ipod rang out Seize The Day by Avenged Sevenfold. soon me and hayden both fell asleep in each others arms smiling knowing that sakia would finly be with the man he loves. he would be in a much better place now.... but we will never forget him.. not in a millon years.. he was one of a kind. his green eyes always sparkling with hope and love... I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU...!

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LT4bvsvFQaw (video to the song Sezie the day... plese watch)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIRNdveLnJI (video to Afterlife... please watch)

.... like, fav, watch, comment... R.I.P SAKIA

[Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/avenged_sevenfold/seize_the_day.html ]