FSE

Furry search engine

formerly SoFurry search engine

_ once we got to the top we opened the car doors and he lead me down a long path though some trees. we came up to the mouton side that over looked the town we lived in. the stars over it were so beautiful, the moon was a full moon giving the town a glow._

"wow... its... its beautiful." i said with my mouth open holding haydens paw.

"i know." he said slightly looking over the town."my dad and i use to sit up here when ever i felt sad. each time we did i felt so much better... like life didn't matter anymore.. i could just be myself." he said smilling and looked at me and hugged me tightly. he sat on the grass and i did to, we nuzzled into each other then fell back landing in the soft green grass. the firefly's flew around us as we looked up at the sky in silence.

"i love you jeremy... i always and forever will." he said looking at me smiling.

"i love you to hayden... always and forever." when i said that he opened a box the held a ring.

"will you marry me jeremy." he said.

"yes, oh my god yes." i said getting on top of his body. i hugged him tightly and kissed his lips for what seemed like hours. i felt like i could fly, my body was nothing... all that was left was me and haydens spirits holding each other. the warmth from his body sank into me as we both fell asleep. i was holding onto hayden tightly as we slept licking his neck once in a while.

The only way out of here is the way I've avoided for all my life. There's so many things I wanna say, but there's too many things still in the way. I'm lost, please help me find my place. You're the only one, please lead me out of the dark. Please lead me out of the dark. Please lead me out of the dark.

I'm moving on, I'll promise change, if you will let me in again, I swear today, I'll be a better man. I'll be who I was then.

It's been a long two years, I can't change the past, I've shed so many tears, Can't believe I've lasted this long. I see now that I'm wrong.

(Crown the Empire - Lead Me Out Of The Dark)

Here i was again. same old spot, same thoughts, same everything. Hayden was in class working on a Project with his friend Niki. I looked out the window of a dorm, out to all the fur's running around, having and just living life. But here i am, stuck in this room.

The door of the the dorm clicked and opened reviling Hayden. I looked over, than back outside, my ears pined back, and my tail hanging limp off the side of the bed.

"Hon, are you going to be ok?" he asked, and sat down beside me.

"Yeah." i said monotone.

"you sure?" he asked.

"Yes, im sure Hayden!" i yelled and stared at him.

"Sorry." he said and walked out to room.

-Codey-

I walked up to my bro's dorm, but stopped when i notice him sitting out in the hall way. he had his knees up to his chest, and his arms folded of them with his head resting on his arms. "Bro you ok?" I asked and knelled down next to him. All he did was nodded his head. "Hayden?" i put my paw on his back, but got a loud growl. i quickly moved my paw and the growling went away. I looked at him and slightly whimpered. i looked at the room, back to hayden, than just started to walk away.

"Codey." he said gently. i turned around and saw his tear stained cheeks, matted fur, and red eyes. "im sorry." he said lightly.

"its ok." i smiled and walked away.

-Jeremy-

I know, I no longer must walk through this world alone; We must resist to be a part of their insolence; We must start the resistance; Follow no one; I've run out of all that I was, and I'm searching' for the meaning and ended up lost; But I see light at the end of the road, it's guiding me home where I'll heal all that has left me bleeding, while their words still burn, these scars are another lesson learned;

(Crown the Empire - limitless)

Hayden walked in to the room and looked at me. he ice blue eyes were stabing my sole. "Jeremy." he said and sat next to me, not once braking his connection with my heart.

"yeah, Hayden?"

"We need to talk. Now." he said with a slight hint of anger. i looked at the screen pausing my song. setting the laptop down, i sat up next to him.

"I agree." i said and looked down. he took my paw into his, and pulled me close to him. "im sorry hayden, its... its just been really tough for me right now."

"Its ok, you dont have to tell me, I already know about whats going on. Sorry to hear about your grandpa having only 5-6 more months left on this earth." he said and kissed my cheek. i lean into to more him, wrapping my paws around his waist. Barring my muzzle in his furry arm. i could not stop my tears, they just flung out. Haydens fur acted like a towel and just took all the moister.

"Hayden, im so sorry 'bout growling at you." i cried harder. he laid down pulling me ontop of his warm body. His muscular arms wrapping around me creating a tight hug. slowly my tears stopped flowing and i closed my eyes. all i did was listen to his heart thump, and i fell asleep.

--next day--

-BEEP,BEEEPPPP, BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE-

"NEVER! BUYING! THIS! ALARM! AGAIN!" hayden yelled and un-instaled his ring tone.

i chuckled, and kissed his lips. "Than why did you buy it?" i asked.

He shrugged." Yolo, ya know, my swagga just dat big, homie." he said trying to act gangster. I just shook my head and got up, putting on my pants and a shirt i picked his tail up. We both walked out into the cold world in search for some food. we walked paw in paw down to the Cafitera in the school. once we got their he ordered two Mtn Dew's. we found a table in the back where Aaron, Till, Seth and Leon were sitting. "hey guys!" hayden said as we both sat down.

"Hey." Aaron, Seth and Leon said.

"hallo." Till said in his normal German accent.

"So what you guys up to today?" Aaron asked us.

"Meh, after we wake up we have to get to the recording studio, and record First Date by Blink 182." i said and drank a little of my drink.

"Sweet! i love that song." Seth basicly meowed.

"yeah, going to be fun fur me, all the mixing!!" Till barked and face-tabled.

"Have fun..." leon paused and looked around. "hon."

when we heard Leon call Till hon, we freaked out. "WAH!" we all yelled getting half the room to look over at us.

"Vas? my boyfriend can't call me hon?" Till said and licked Leons ears.

"no.. ye.. n.." Hayden said confused.

"He is just stuned. we didnt think leon would ask you out." i chuckled.

"yeah!" Aaron added in.

"You to fuck yet?" seth asked.

"SETH!" Aaron barked.

"Oh like you dont want to know, bitch please!" Seth said.

"Sorry 'bout that guys." Aaron said. "So have you sucked that D yet?"

"AARON!" seth said mimicing Aarons voice.

"Shut up!" he said.

"No, not yet. i dont want to do anything till i know we will be together for a long time." Till said. Leon just nodded, than rested his head on Tills shoulder. after a while of talking, Till, Hayden and I said our goodbyes and went off to record.

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