Saying Goodbye
Yes, looks like after so long the fox posted something new. That and it seems so dreary and short, well recent events took a toll on me. My father died a few days ago, I'm holding onto that sealed envelope with the signed card inside he'll never open. All my heart and all my regret for what we held between us went into this little piece. A final farewell to the man who brought me into this world. He left it at such a young age, and while we never had a good relationship.....some part of me thinks he wanted to step forward like I did and fix that. This is my Father's day gift to you Dad, rest in peace. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWY1vFMdma0 play this while reading )
How hard is it to say goodbye?
When we never truly got to meet.
In my mind it's not fair at all,
In my heart I beg and cry.
It's not that hard to say goodbye, especially when you lose the chance.
Regret boils up inside my soil, it burns me to the core.
Of all the times I could have or would have.
I never once was the stronger man, I never spared you a passing glance.
It's hurting pretty bad, this lost goodbye I hold.
Everyone around me smiles and consoles me.
Their words lost in the dark enveloping my soul.
I'm surrounded by warm intentions and hearts so cold.
Your gone without a word now, a goodbye was to much for you to spare?
Every effort made by me to you, it's useless now.
You went and broke my heart this time, I built it back up for you.
My concience tells me to love and forget, my soul tells me not to care.
Today I took some time to myself, goodbye is the least I can say.
I won't like it, I'll despise it.
That single word that seems so hard to form, but you deserve it.
With a heavy sigh and limbs of lead I get to my knees this day.
A tear falls to the ground as I look up to you and pray.
"We never were the closest, we never tried to get along."
"I'll always miss you and regret I never took the step we avoided."
"Goodbye Dad, you left too soon. I already signed your card......for Father's day."