Author's Update - I Can't Go On
I'm sorry you guys.
Hey guys... I know it's been a while, and there's something I want you let you know.
I... I can't do this anymore... at least not for now. shudders and tears up I feel like I lost everything, I don't know what to do, think, or feel anymore; the fact that I was the reason that messed up makes it that much more hurtful. tears up even more Un-... Until things settle down I won't be writing as much anymore. I'll try, but... I don't have that drive in me to keep going.
I seem to screw everything up and I try fixing things, but it just ends up becoming worse. I guess there's no such thing as a second chance... because what I learned that when given a second chance, there's always some sort of consequence that will follow you until you get hit by it like running into a brick wall tries to contain my sobbings.
As I look back and think, I've been beginning to hate myself more and more from the things I screwed up on. I... just wish I could of change things... If I didn't have to be so... blind and if I would think things through more... I wouldn't be in this situation, just like all the other heart broken individuals who wanted to make things right.
So much emotions are mixed inside of me; I don't know whether to scream or cry my eyes out. I know that wouldn't do any good, but what can I do? Just, 'move on'? Yeah... easier said than done guys.
So... I'm terribly sorry yet again that I won't be able to write for you guys for now, it's just that I've been going through a lot this year; with all the drama, heartbreaks, and even going to the hospital to get rid of an infection last month was hard for me. Although keep an eye out for the next chapter of "David's Start of a New Adventure" it's in the works, just don't know when I'll be posting it up due to everything I've been through lately.
Before I go, lastly I wanted to apologize most of all is the one I love. With the bottom of my heart I am turely sorry... I never wanted this to happen, and I hope you will live a happy life.
Goodbye everyone... for now. walks away with tears flowing down
- TripleX