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April 19th 2009

It's mid morning and I am all alone in the living room with only my laptop to keep me company. Hoping to reach Ray on the yahoo IM I wait patiently as I play a computer game. In January he had told me about his car no longer working. Sometimes I wonder if it's actually him that doesn't want to work, and that he is using the car as an excuse. Wouldn't that be typical. All there seemed to be between us now is a computer and or phone. Which is fine, but I prefer some physical contact too, I am only human.

Early this morning a little after two Boone showed up. He woke me up by tapping on my shoulder startling me awake.

"Boone."

I said in a low voice.

"Hello sweet honey, let me lay next to you."

He said in almost a whisper.

Moving my body over to the let, he moved himself in next to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me close to him. The warmth of his body was both soothing and comforting at the same time. My breath though could be seen too. Every time he entered my bedroom the temperature would drop significantly for the most part. This didn't matter as long as he kept me warm.

"I am glad you're here."

I whispered.

"You may be glad I am here, but a big part of you wishes Ray was lying next to you."

He was right I thought to myself. Missing him hurt, I didn't realize how much that hurt would only grow over time, I never anticipated I would see my Ray for a few days in September and that would be it for the year. This was only temporary I told my mind.

"Ray will be lying next to me soon."

Boone scoffed at me.

"You're not beautiful enough for him to make a true effort."

Boone said.

My chest tightened painfully as he said that, Words have never hurt so much as they did then. I honestly thought my heart was literally breaking.

"Ouch."

I cried out louder than I had meant too, as I put my hands to my chest. What I didn't see then was Boone smiling in the dark his pearly white fangs exposed. That didn't mean though that a smile couldn't be felt. I was too ignorant all the time to realize how much he got off on seeing me in pain and hurt. Down the road he would make this fact more and more apparent.

Grabbing me from under my shoulders he laid my body on top of his, I could feel his big swollen penis slip inside of me. This made me cry out too. My head rested on his chest, my heart beat quickened. Relax I told myself. His strong clawed hand rubbed my head. My heartbeat began to settle down.

My eyes closed and my body relaxed. While I slept he held me close to him and gently moved his pelvis back and forth. This is something he would do often so that I could sleep. Sleep because my form of escape during the very hard times of my life. The dreams I had of being in my Ray's arms would leave me yearning for him; my body would crave his body. Other times I would dream of us living under the same roof. Boone would always find a way of slipping into my dreams, showering me with love, with presents and sometimes even making me his wife for all eternity. Sometime I would be pregnant with his children. My bell round with demonic child when my eyes opened around seven that morning I looked up into his eyes, still lying on top of him.

"Good morning."

I said.

"Good morning love, and to answer your question yes you will still be living in this Hell for another two years."

I frowned at that response. What in the name is going on here?

"No I won't, he'll come around. Just be patient."

My voice said brimming with fake confidence. No my heart screamed I will not be trapped here another two years. Goals big and small will be set and made along side my Ray. Paitents would be needed by the truck full as the weeks gave way to months.

"Who knows, maybe the flake will turn around."

Boone said in mock surprise. I giggled a little at that. He smiled at me.

"I have to go now."

He announced as he lifted as he lifted me off of him. Lying down in bed I watched him crawl off from underneath the covers. A necklace magically appeared magically in his right hand. The necklace was a beautiful silver chain with a clear stone attached to it, inside the clear stone was a bright red fluid.

"It's called a blood stone, my gift to you."

He said.

I sat up while doing so he clasped the chain around my neck, when the stone touched my skin, I could feel my chest immediately tighten up significantly. Then suddenly my chest relaxed. I looked up at him a little frightened.

"Your mine now. You will eventually marry me, not that pathetic human Ray."

He said as he grasped me around the neck and pulled my face close to his. I could tell by the tone of his voice he wasn't playing around.

"That stone you wear now, holds my blood, you will be tied to me for eternity."

At a loss for words my head nodded. I looked away from his face, the room suddenly felt like a prison and I was the prisoner. What have I done? Was my fate sealed in evil because I had lost faith and lacked confidence to pull through? Boone disappeared into thin air and left me all alone with my thoughts.

Doing my best to go through the day as normally as possible, I acted like it was just like any other day. My aunt and grandma commented on my necklace asking me, "Where did you get that?"

Part of me was tempted to through it in their face, about how and why I had the necklace. I knew better, with all the tension and stress that had been going on for the last two years, I knew better than to make more. So I lied.

"I bought it at a yard sale inNapa, I paid one dollar for it."

"Hmmm."

My aunt replied in disbelief.

Wanting to get out of there and fast I made sure I walked out the front door and fast. Find better surrounding I told myself. Better surroundings came in the form of the library. There I logged onto a computer and played computer games as the minutes flew by my worries and anxieties were forgotten, but not for long. .