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(Castiel's view)

I-I can't believe what I've done. I just walked over to Yuuta's locker with my letter in hand and placed it on top of his books. It was almost routine as if no difference as usual in appearance but my heart...my aching heart was torn to shreds, my dreams crushed and my mind given a new look at reality in a cruel harsh way.

Philips was right...I couldn't be with Yuuta...this-this had to be done. I had no choice, I needed to protect him...even if that meant from myself. If we got caught together it will only mean the worse for him rather than me.

Yuuta's parents might exile me from Riften but would that really be that bad? If Yuuta hated me what was the point of even staying in Riften? If I was exiled I would have a new chance somewhere else.

But even still-...I-I don't want to leave. My parents put so much effort and care for our little house and to just suddenly leave it-or all their and my hard work for many years to be simply left it didn't make sense nor did it make me happy in anyway.

I think back to the note...god how could I be so cruel to him? Just too simply write "I'm breaking up with you" rather than a big story of explanation...but yet I still feel connected to Yuuta in some way.

No one told Yuuta the truth and the dangers of our relationship. Yuuta was probably so deep into his love for me that he got blinded by it, couldn't think straight and was just going with his gut and feelings.

A small part of my heart was happy with that. That he loved me without care, that he would love me without even considering of being unfaithful...

A sudden lightning bolt hit my mind.

...and that-I would never have to worry about him breaking up with me.

Should-Should I tell him right up front? That note was cruel without explaining but Yuuta-...knowing Yuuta he would probably try to deny it. He would shower me with kisses and affection in attempt for me to forget all about it.

But dammit! My heart! M-My dreams!...it wants just that! I want my worries to disappear with love and care but-...I couldn't care for him back! If my house burned down Yuuta could maybe let me live secretly with him or let me be hired as some servant but-but if his family suffered from a fire...I-I couldn't take care of them.

I-I want too though...I want to give him all the love I could possibly give him but-look at me, I couldn't give him any at all...

I was walking back to my house and as I opened it up...it felt emptier than ever...like there was nothing without Yuuta. Nothing to be proud of, nothing to show off. Nothing worth loving...Yuuta...

I want to take care of you but I simply can't! If I can't care for you than what's the point of even having the relationship?! If only I was a bit richer! If only I could find some artifact or find a mine I-I would go straight back into Yuuta's arms.

His arms that would protect me and give me all the comfort and 'wealth' I ever needed.

I looked back at our confession for the others admiration in the park so long ago. I was poor...I was pathetic, a figure completely the opposite from Yuuta. It makes some sense now.

Yuuta was rich and simply didn't have many options in Riften. He didn't like the girls or boys from high town so he turned to me. He said that he was bored in his castle nearly all the time so having a relationship with not only with his arch rival, but a farmer seemed like an exciting challenge for him.

Yuuta for all I know probably doesn't "really" love me...it was just a game to him. A little joy in his dull life, but wouldn't the farmer feel used? Wouldn't the farmer like to leave? Wouldn't he be glad that he would be breaking up with the prince if he was just being used?

But why?...why does my heart get heavier? Why does it think otherwise....if he was just using me wouldn't I be upset?

I severed the relationship, I told him what we need to do but...wait...no I haven't.

Yuuta is a prince and a noble. What he wants he can simply have. Yuuta will just show up after school and demand me to come back still oblivious to reality. Yuuta is stronger though...if he wanted he could beat me up and force me to stay...

I want to be with him! Oh gods my heart only desires him! Yuuta's love and affection! His body and charming personality but-...I am me...a farmer with nothing.

I looked around at my house and remember what Philips said.

"Even a butler might have a decent house for a noble..."

A house...but there's no butler positions open now, at least not here. But I don't want to be a butler. I am a warrior at heart, a fighter. I recall the tales from which I was a child...the tales where the farmer defeats the villain and gets fame and riches...riches...money...fame.

I-I needed these, in order or me to be with Yuuta I needed wealth and fame...but there is none here in Riften. It would be difficult, I could only bring what I have on my back-...wait no...this-this may sound greedy but-but low town people do owe me some money for services!

I won't charge much! I know for a fact I would have nowhere near enough to afford a better house but I'm sure I could afford a ride out of Riften and somewhere new! But I won't be a farmer...no I-

I looked around at my house again thinking back to myself as I imagined myself repairing the walls...I would always think about the ways I could be richer and famous...All this work...it may be for nothing in the future but there was no future to be had right here in Riften...

I-I know what I should do...my parents may not have wanted this for me but my love for Yuuta my desire to be with him will not stop me and his desires will not matter until I have enough to present to Yuuta's parents to date their son! Until then Yuuta and I must stop dating and I-

I will leave Riften and travel elsewhere....as a hired swordsman, a mercenary.

It will be a difficult job. It will test my abilities for sure but I have to do this-to be with Yuuta! FOR ME TO SHOW HOW MUCH I AM WILLING TO WORK FOR HIM! Mercenary work is dangerous...and Yuuta will no doubt be entirely against that. He constantly says that he'll protect me and keep me from harm but-...right now Yuuta we need to keep each other safe by not protecting the other.

When I get enough gold and fame as a mercenary I could apply to be a knight here or somewhere else and get even more fame and money! It is possible that knights can get enough fame to become high town citizens! I have to be a war hero somehow...I will find something to make my name known, even to the Michaels!

My mind was made up. I had some preparing to do and favors to ask but it will be worth it in the future. If Yuuta really does love me...with all his heart then he'll stay loyal. It will take years for me to get the money and fame but if he really does care for me enough he'll be here when I come back.

Already I was thinking how he might react to my future arrival, for all I know he could slap me and declare hatred of me for leaving him or maybe we'll kiss right on the spot. I know I will be loyal to him, I know I can stay faithful to him so he'll be the one to mate with me.

I only wonder if he can.

Yuuta...I can't tell you that I'm leaving either. You might think at first that it's a simple misunderstanding and break up...one you'll accuse on me, which it is, but when I come back I'll make it up to you. I'll work in anyway needed in order to be yours.

You're the one I want to be with Yuuta and I'm nearly certain that you want me too but this is much a test for you as it is for me. Oh well....back to work.

I started to pack my bags and take out what little money I had with me. I removed a partially sticking out floorboard to see a little dusty jar where I would put what little money I earned during the harvest into. I opened the top and let the small sum of gold coins drop onto my bed.

Most would think they would hear a little fountain of money fall but mine was more like a quick splash...I looked at my gold coins to see only about 50...not even enough to get out of Riften. I would need at least 100 to hire the carriages to take me away not even including the cost of my weapon, some armor, and food supplies.

Everything I have hear will barely last the trip....I need to collect on some gold, whatever the merchants and inn keepers can afford to give me will suffice but the more I can have the better and easier it will be to start.

It's hard to believe...days ago I was wanting to bed Yuuta. To let ourselves become one with each other's heat and touch but now...now I'm thinking about how far I should run away and how to avoid any possible wrath he might try to give to me before I leave. I should disguise myself.

I quickly started to comb my hair in a different style and wore another hooded robe I didn't give to Yuuta and hid my face with it. I'll show the shop keepers my face and ask if they can spare any gold coins....gods...I wish things were different.

I wish it would be simpler. That it was simply however claimed the others heart could live together regardless of social position...but this is reality Castiel....cruel....harsh...reality....you know what it feels like.

The reality might be that Yuuta might move on the second he sees the note. That he might claim some other person as his own...It-it infuriates me...That-That someone else would have my Yuuta! If I could afford it I would hire a person to make sure no one else can get to Yuuta until I get back but...again...I am so poor.

Yuuta might not even bother to come after me, he might respect me so much and be so full of his pride that he would go back to his castle as if nothing happened today...he-he might not even notice that I'm gone.

I placed the gold I had into a little coin purse and headed outside. I remembered something about my land and knew I would have no time for it when I'm gone but it should still serve some purpose to someone.

I decided to go over to my neighbors who were elderly people named the Righots but I think they would appreciate some extra gold for the harvest. I calmly knocked on their door and was answered by an elderly lioness.

"Oh hello Castiel! What brings you hear?" Mrs. Righot asked in that sweet grand motherly tone.

"Hello ma'am. Listen I need to tell something to your husband." I said trying my best to smile but I think she saw through my worry.

"Is something wrong? Tobar! Castiel is here!" She asked me before calling for her husband. I heard some footsteps before an elderly lion came to the door standing beside his wife.

"Oh hello there my boy! What can we do for you?...why do you look like you're doing something you've regretted?" Mr. Righot asked me as I was somewhat stunned he saw through my smile.

"H-Hey...is it okay if you tend to my land? Until I get back? It's yours until I get back and whatever profits you earn from it it's yours alright?" I said as both of them started to worry and act confused.

"O-Of course mi boyo. Is something wrong? Why are you-" Mr. Righot asked before I interrupted

"I'm leaving Riften for awhile...and...I'm not sure when I'll be back..." I said not even hiding my regret and worry but even they knew they wouldn't stop me.

I knew the Righots since I first started out on my own. They didn't help me plant or harvest but whenever I needed advise and tips for farming they were there for me, I wished they had enough of their own money to take care of me but I could never force them to take care of me when I was a child.

My father and Mr. Righot were friends apparently, they worked together cutting wood at an old mill that got torn down years ago. I liked the Righots because they also knew what I went through as a child, the plague hit his family hard too. He use to have 5 kids but three of them died during the plague. The other two moved away and he hasn't heard from them in years.

I respect him though, he may be old but he took care of his land despite his age. He was a nice inspiration to me and I couldn't help but slightly admire and respect his spirit of this old lion. Age doesn't slow him down yet he isn't the sour old lion anyone would expect him to be. He's actually a very kind man...you just have to look beyond him...

My thoughts started to go back to my Yuuta. He was exactly the same, when you take one look at Yuuta anyone including myself at first saw a proud, strong prince and he acted like he showed little care for the low town people.

But if saw beyond him he wouldn't care who you are...he would consider you as a friend as long as you were nice and held him every so often. Maybe-Maybe I was the same in his eyes, a tough, proud farmer of his heritage yet secretly desperate for love...

I went into a little day dream before I said turning around.

"Thank you....for everything." I said not only to the Righots...but to my once to be mate, Yuuta.

Yuuta is far too proud to come after me, causing a scene here would be disgraceful to him and only get him in trouble with his parents...if only there was some way I could convince them to let me be with their god like son.

I have 6 hours to collect some coin before I leave anyway and coming here without changing his clothes would only lead into disaster for him so getting properly dressed would take about another hour...

What am I even saying? Yuuta probably won't come to see me at all! He may not even get the note until tomorrow even! Either way leaving the sooner-....the better....for him and his dignity.

Hours passed as I started to go around to all the people who I worked with through the years, collecting whatever coin they could spare and saying my farewells. I wish I could say goodbye to Yuuta but it would just be too difficult...

I probably couldn't even tell him the whole truth anyway. I would maybe break down to tears as I could imagine giving me a harsh glare of anger for dumping so fast and attempting to leave. He'll yell at me, curse me, he might even punch me but it's all my fault...If I hadn't been born, if only I was richer...if only I hid my secret admiration and feelings of him he would be so much better off

So much better without me.

I collected all the coin I could gather and I felt my coin purse cling with about 900 coins in it knowing it was more than enough leave Riften and start out somewhere else. Maybe there was a good reason to work so hard here...so that maybe you can leave somewhere else and have a new start.

I went to everyone I worked for, the inn keeper, the stables, the stall vendors, and all the shops and other farmers I assisted in all sorts of odd jobs and it was paying off. I had my clothes bag behind my back and I looked at the time.

I still had about 4 hours until school ends and Yuuta will maybe start his search after me but I'll be miles away before that happens. With everything checked off in the list in my mind all that was left to do was to go over to now of the carriages and ask for a ride somewhere else.

No wait...maybe I should get some alcohol for the road...it'll make the ride go faster and my body that was aching for Yuuta to go numb. Drinking for a lost mate...like a story...but that's only where our love could ever exist....in stories.

I went into the beer shop and bought a bottle of Ruffling Riften Mead and headed out the door. My mind shut off as I took a few steps listening to all the other peoples talk about their day...I use to do it so much when I was looking for work but now...whatever these people say will be the last words I hear in Riften...I relax and listened carefully to all their mess of words.

"I'm telling you my back is killing me! Planting Season just gets rougher and rougher every year I tell you!"

"It's just old age father..."

"Come buy our vegetables! Half priced special today!"

"Tag you're it!"

"Hey no fair!"

"I heard terrible news from the south, war and such, the worlds gone to hell and we still fight each other."

"Castiel? Oh yes he's been around here collecting money for something but I don't know where he is" A sudden female voice filled my ears as I turned around to see who she was talking to exposing my face as I turned to see.

There were two people about 25 feet away from me. The woman was a human with black hair in her mid 20's but that's not who stood out between the two. It was a hooded person with a tiger tail sticking out at the back with an orange color I was familiar with and-....oh no.

"Oh wait! There he is." She said pointing to me seeing my face as my heart stopped praying it wasn't the person who I thought it was. My face turned in their direction as the hooded person turned to me and I saw his face.

A gorgeous tiger face that looked wrecked with worry and fatigue as if searching for something and his search has turned up nothing...nothing until now. His tigers eyes were fixed on me unblinking and showing absolute attention to me. It was Yuuta.

We both froze there for a moment, waiting to see what the other one would do. I wish I never turned around! I began to panic in my heart thinking at any moment he would tackle me and start pummeling me, or perhaps curse me from afar.

Dammit! Dammit! I should have kept walking! I should have pretended to act like some old man which would have made him go away from me!

Yuuta you fool! Why are you after me?! Aren't you going to be in trouble with school and your parents when they found out you skipped out?! I-I'm trying to save you, you fool. If you're around me it will only lead to you hating me!

Part of me wants him to be angry, that I would prefer to be cursed or beaten rather than searched for, to cause him pain. To have someone else have to panic for me...me such a worthless person.

My mind wished he was that uncaring prince, that he was only using me as a tool but my heart and soul, it was calling for him. It was overjoyed to see Yuuta looking for me, that I was so special to him that he was willing to get in trouble.

NO-NO! This is bad! This only makes what needs to be done worse! He might not fight me or try to stop me at first but he will if I keep trying which I intend to. I won't let the lover of my dreams be hurt for me, I am to worthless too pathetic to be risked over.

Maybe he doesn't think it's me. Yuuta is looking at me as if I wasn't really the person he was looking for. He's just staring right at me only with wide eyes, no mouth open in shock or anything. I have my hood up and all he could see is my face, maybe the sweat and dirt of low town makes me look like a different person!

Just walk away casually and act like you really haven't seen that person in your life Castiel, your one of the best liars and actors in the Riften School!

I turned back to the road and took only one step before I heard-

"Castiel! WAIT!" Yuuta said running over to me as I began to panic.

There was no way I was going to pretend it wasn't me anymore. Maybe I should just ignore him! I heard Yuuta run right next to me as I quickened my walking. I could hear the panic, shock, and confusion in his voice and I could tell he was both tired from looking for me and that he was both glad to see me...but the bags on my back seem to worry him...I think he knows what I'm planning to do but he sounds like he doesn't want to believe it. That there was some mistake or something.

"Castiel! I got your note! I-I panicked and went straight home the second I read it! As soon as I got dressed I ran to low town as fast as I could and went over to your house. But you weren't on your fields or inside so I decided to ask around."

J-Just ignore him Castiel. K-Keep ignoring him and-and dammit lies! I need to find lies!

"I looked around for hours! I had to see you again and find out what's going on?! Please tell me!" He begged causing a small scene around him and I

Dammit you fool! I'm trying my best to at least make you come out of this looking okay! I'm beyond saving Yuuta! You only need to take one look at me and realize I'm not worth all this! Just walk faster Castiel! Head towards the carriages! G-Get on and tell them that Yuuta isn't coming with me! Yuuta doesn't bring much gold when dressed up in low town clothes.

"Please Castiel! I nearly died in fright as I read that letter! Is this some sort of misunderstanding?! Did someone else write it?!" Yuuta asked begging me for some sort of explanation...don't say anything! Nothing at all but-but he-...he deserves-!

I didn't realize we walk 2 blocks before my heart forced myself to speak.

"Y-Yeah I wrote it." I said as Yuuta gasped still keeping up with my fast walking.

"W-WHAT?! SOMETHING IS WRONG! I KNOW IT! PLEASE CASTIEL! PLEASE! YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING!" Yuuta begged as more people started looking in our direction. Even guards looked at us but thankfully since both Yuuta and I had hoods up they couldn't tell it was me or him.

I have-I have to tell him something! Why does this need to happen?! I had it all figured out in my mind! I thought of millions of things I could say if this happened but I can't think of a single one right now! I know what I did Yuuta! I KNOW WHAT I DID!! JUST LEAVE YOU IDIOT!

"Um-Y-Yeah well-...that's just the way it is!" I said knowing that was a pathetic excuse and it only seemed to strengthen Yuuta's desire for an answer and an explanation.

"B-BUT! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! I-IS IT SOMETHING I DID?! DID I SAY SOMETHING OR DO SOMETHING WRONG?! PLEASE JUST TELL ME!!" Yuuta shouted nearly screaming and begging me for something.

How can it be your fault Yuuta?! You, the most handsome and charming prince of the continent and somehow you rather blame yourself rather than the pathetic lying farmer trying to leave you?! What do you see in me?! I'm not worth anything but trouble to you! How can you not see it! Look at the future for both of us! I-I

"I-I-I wrote that letter because-um-because-I realize how foolish this whole thing was! This relationship between us!" I said offering a simple explanation almost knowing for certain that Yuuta wouldn't by it-but...a gasp in shock told me that-maybe, somewhere in his heart and mind he feared this too!

I hate having to do this! I didn't want it to be like this Yuuta! I just wanted to leave and go somewhere else! I have no choice though! I-I need to tell lies! I have to break down the once purity and ecstasy of the whole relationship! I-I NEED TO SEE THE FOLLY IN THIS!!!

"W-WHAT?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!" Yuuta begged as we had walked nearly 6 blocks now.

"I-I mean think about it! We're both guys! I-Its unnatural! I mean for a tiger to love a human?! Trust me I know about impossible things! B-Be honest the only reason why we kissed and dated was because you liked my admiration for you!" I said opening a whole new door of lies I can use and it was succeeding in my upset Yuuta more plan...but it doesn't look like he was ready to give up. I couldn't bare to look at him this whole time. I-If I look into his eyes he might hypnotize me to stay....with those lovely eyes

"N-NO, I LOVE YOU! THE REASON WHY I LOVE YOU IS BECAUSE-!!" Yuuta said looking at the ground as if stunned that I would even think such a think much less actually say it.

"Come on! I know you found it frustrating! You probably only liked it for the thrill of how forbidden it was and-"I said before I felt a sudden strong force against my shoulder followed by the slam of a wooden wall to my back.

I flinched as I closed my eyes expecting a volley of punches against me but I only felt Yuuta's grip on my shoulder get tighter. I opened my eyes slowly to look at him right in the eyes as he growled lowly.

"Castiel! I never thought any of that!" He yelled looking at me right in the eye...he-he wasn't lying. H-He really did love me. He never doubted my love for him but-but the reality! The consequences! Society will tear him apart with ridicule if they knew this! He-He has to know...and I-I must say it out load. My heart braced itself for what I was about to say.

"B-But...with you being a prince...and I, a farmer. I realized that...Our relationship was doomed from the start." I said as Yuuta once furious and demanding eyes widened in shock and horror as if he was experiencing a nightmare...the words that he never wanted me to ever say.

So taken aback from shock at my answer that he grip on my shoulder loosened and I slipped out and began to ran! I didn't care what it takes now! I just wanted to be away! I want to hear him curse me from afar! Just leave me! My lover...just know in your mind that I'm not that perfect boyfriend you think I am! A few seconds passed before I heard!

"WAIT! PLEASE! CASTIEL!" Yuuta begged running after me as I began to fully sprint away from him. We were both running through the roads of low town as the people and guards looked onward at our drama.

Since one of us wasn't holding a weapon the guards would simple class this as a personal dispute between lovers. They wouldn't be able to help me, but even if they could and that they say Yuuta saying all those things to me-...the damage I would be trying to protect himself from would be pointless!

I forgot all about my plan before as all I could think was simply run away, get away from Yuuta, run to the new place if I have too. I ran past the carriages as more people could only stare at a helpless tiger in love chase after his lover...his pathetic...cruel...running away lover.

I am such a horrible person but it only fuels me to run more! Since I'm such a horrible boyfriend to do this wouldn't it be easier for him to give up?! We both started to run out of the low town limits and along the river.

I heard Yuuta catching up to me as I started to drop my bags hoping that it would increase me speed...it did but Yuuta kept chasing me. Both of us were tired, with me searching for handouts before and him searching for me for hours made us tired before now both of us were drained and our only energy left was the hope that I could escape him...and his was the hope he could catch me.

"PLEASE CASTIEL!!!PPPLLLLEEEAAASSSSEEE. COME BACK! WAIT!" He screamed after me and I could hear the crying beyond the call for me to come back.

"JUST GET AWAY! I'M NOT WORTH THIS! LEAVE ME YUUTA JUST-AAHHGGH!" I said before I felt something grabbed my leg as I was about to take another step in my run but it was sturdy enough to hold on and make me fall. It was a damn tree root sticking out of the ground...and as if fate hated me it looked like the only tree for miles...and I happen to trip on it. I landed face first into the earth and my face was covered in dirt.

I was stunned for a moment by the pain but I quickly remember my situation knowing Yuuta isn't far behind. I wiped my face and was about to stand up again but I felt something as if a giant rock hit back and I felt arms wrapped around my waist.

I could hear muffled sobs and cries as he practically dug his claws into my shirt and skin determined to not let me go as if hanging on for dear life. Both of our hoods came off as we were on the ground but-but!

I tried again to stand but Yuuta was using all his body weight to keep me down as I only managed to crawl a few steps as Yuuta screamed into my back.

"PLEASE! PLEASE!!! DON'T LEAVE ME CASTIEL! DON'T GO! PLEASE JUST TELL ME WHAT I DID! WHATEVER I SAID OR DID I SWEAR I TAKE IT BACK! I SWEAR!!! JUST TELL ME WHAT HORRIBLE THING I DID TO YOU TO MAKE YOU WANT TO LEAVE LIKE THIS AND I SWEAR I'LL CHANGE!!! I LOVE YOU!!!PLEASE COME BACK!!!I LOVE YOU!!!" Yuuta begged screaming as I felt my back getting wet from his tears as if they were tossed in a river.

"Just let go...I'm begging you Yuuta...Just-....let go..." I begged getting tired and I guess Yuuta was too as I felt his grip loosen once again and I managed to slip my waist out of his hold but he held onto my lower legs still making me unable to run.

I gave one last pull for control before my body gave out and-...and I knew that I couldn't escape...that Yuuta had caught me. Yuuta had his head in my legs as they were the ones getting wet with his tears...and over and over again in a hoarse voice he said.

"Please....don't leave me....please....don't go..." He said panting heavily as we both just sat there for a moment trying to rest but Yuuta regained more energy I could to ask.

"Please Castiel...I know-I just know somehow...this is all my fault...I feared this as we were dating that I would maybe say something or do something so terrible to you that you would do everything in your power to leave...I-I cry at the thought of it, of being alone again...knowing that the person I want to be with was insulted by me and wanted to go away. I don't know what horrible thing I did to you that made you want to leave but-I swear I'll change! I take back anything I did or said and if necessary you can hit me and berate me all you want in the middle of class, whatever it takes for you to forgive me. Or at least even...Please....you're the best boyfriend ever Castiel, I know compared to you I'm nothing but whatever you ask! No matter what you order me to do! I'll change! You can break me down and shape me into the perfect lover you want! What faults I had before will be erased and you and I can be together!" Yuuta said looking into my eyes tearfully...he-he meant everything, he wasn't lying and there was no sense of hesitation or doubt in his voice...he-he so loyal, so committed but-but that...it just shows-

I grabbed onto his arm and held it up wanting to toss it aside but I lowered my head...realizing I had to come out-...with everything.

"How could it be your fault?" I asked as he looked at me confused by what I meant.

"W-Wha?"

"HOW COULD IT BE YOUR FAULT?!" I shouted out as Yuuta was taken aback by what I shouted out.

"How could it be the magnificent prince's fault? How could the tiger who every girl and boy wants be to blame here? H-How can such a prince-...fall in love with such a loser like me?" I admitted tearfully as Yuuta looked at me and his tail twitched.

"How can prince Yuuta-heir to the Michael throne, one of the richest princes on the continent, one of the strongest and noblest people in the world possible see anything in such a pathetic farmer...such a failure...such a faker and liar....a-a horrible boyfriend how tries to run away from his problems? How can the most amazing person in the world see anything in such scum and filth like me?!" I yelled knowing all of it was true crying out with tears of sadness. I know the truth, I know the harness of reality. I am simply not good enough for Yuuta.

"How can the most amazing boyfriend-who can give me everything I ever needed, all the love and attention I could ever ask for, all the comfort I needed since my parents died...how can you...fall in love with such a shame like me?" I asked him as Yuuta almost looked offended by the question.

"HUH?! I'M ASKING YOU YUUTA!!! ANSWER!!! HOW CAN SUCH A GORGEOUS PERSON LIKE YOU EVER SEE IN SUCH A FAILURE LIKE ME?!" I demanded.

"You can offer me the world Yuuta! I know that! You never have to doubt that you're the bad boyfriend in the relationship its always going to be me! You don't have to think hard about how to charm me, what gifts to give me but I have to work so hard just to give a little box of chocolates!!!" I screamed out as both my mind and body gave in

"What can I offer you?" I said softly coming out with the truth as Yuuta gasped.

"What could a low town farmer possible give a prince of legend what he wants? A prince who has everything...a prince who's parents wouldn't dare let a stain like me ruin their honor...A farmer who can't offer anything to their family...I-I can't give you anything Yuuta that you already have...I can't give your family a nice home...I don't have much land...I don't own a mine and-...I don't have any lost Michael artifacts in my possession."

"I'm so pathetic Yuuta...I couldn't give you anything...I have nothing to offer...that's why I was planning to run away. I was going to go to some other kingdom and become a mercenary. If I survived I would then become a knight and then hopefully get enough gold to come back here and finally offer something to you and your parents...to show that I could be something and someone in their-and your eyes."

"I broke up with you because I was afraid, afraid of-...this. I didn't want you to come after me but now it's ruined! I didn't want to explain myself! I-I didn't want to say it in front of you but it's the truth! I can't offer you anything...but by risking my life and leaving...maybe within 10 years I could become someone..."

"But now....you caught me...I really almost expected you not to care but...you've shown yourself once again to be the best boyfriend anyone could ask for...how can I offer anything close to that?" I ask before I broke down into sobs and tears. I cried like a baby, I just couldn't think of anything else to say. Yuuta was motionless and staring right at me but I didn't even have the mental balance to guess what he was thinking....

(Yuuta's view)

T-That's why?...Thats why he did this?

A felt a sudden flare in my heart like a door opened but yet lead to a place I was familiar with. That's why?!

That's why he wrote that cruel letter?! That's why he ran from me and lied to get me away?! That's why he made me create a scene in low town and made me chase him as I broke down into tears?!

I thought all this was my fault that somehow I offended his parents and that he hated me but...THE REAL REASON IS BECAUSE HE'S AFRAID HE CAN'T OFFER ME ANYTHING?! HOW-....HOW COULD HE THINK SUCH A SILLY THOUGHT!

I decided a long time ago it didn't matter what he could offer me or my family! I loved him for who he was! Not what wealth he had!

I almost wanted to slap him making me panic for such a little and needless concern I was already decided on...but...

As I looked at him...I heard my beautiful boyfriend crying and sobbing. Ruining his handsome face with stress, sadness, and tears. He-He really takes this personally, he wants to give me things, and he wants to show everyone that he's capable to take care of me but-...no

Despite everything I went through...forgetting all about the hardship and worry I experienced hours ago I-I smiled. I smiled that he actually wanted to care for me and that he was prepared to go to such extremes to please me and my parents but it was unnecessary.

I know what to say...of course I haven't said it before but it-it makes me happy that he thinks of me so much...about a future together...no one-...no one ever gave me such thought it makes me-

I stood on my knees letting go of Castiel's legs as he looked up almost expecting me to hit him or yell at him but...he was stunned at me smile.

"Castiel...of course your wrong...if you ran away...if you left me I would sent hunters and bounty hunters after you to bring you back alive...'I' would have came after you and drag you back to Riften if I had to."

"Castiel...I know you think you might be nothing to me but you aren't. You're everything to me. You gave me joy for the future and happiness every day, something to look forward to and something worth keeping."

"As a child Castiel I trained hard but was also given everything...it was because of this I never really felt attached to anything, that I could lose my room and simply move to another but when you said you loved me...I-I was utterly stuck on you and all I could think was "This....Him...I need him...I must have him....I need him no matter what." I did what every noble did and become totally obsessed about having you as my own."

"Castiel...I came to terms a long time ago that you couldn't give me or my family any physical items but look at my castle! It has everything! Everything anyone could ever ask for but one thing..." I said as I lifted Castiel by his arms and pulled him up to his knees as he was entranced by my words.

"There was one thing that you...of all people that you could offer me. That no amount of money, fame, or pride could ever give me. Something that no noble, no servant or butler and not even my parents could give me..."

"W-What? What can I give you?" Castiel asked completely lost in my words as I leaned in

"Your love Castiel...all I ever need you to give me is your love..." I said as Castiel gasped.

I cut off his gasp when I held him close and pull him close so that our lips could touch. Castiel was shocked at first but with his shaky hands wrapped them around me and we both kissed as deeply as we could.

On our knees with grasslands to the north, south and east of us and the calm shiny river that runs into Riften to the west we kissed as if in a fairy tale setting. My face felt numb as all I could think was ravish him...kiss him so much that he becomes drunk in love.

This was all I wanted...All that I ever needed from my lover...I feel the bad one not being able to offer him anything except useless decorations and coin...hopefully my kisses and touch will make up for it.

(Castiel's view)

I was completely blank in my mind as my heart raced all I could do was apologize through my kissing technique...by letting him completely dominate my lips for putting him through such horrible emotional problems.

We kissed and held each other tight as I felt Yuuta's tail wrap around my waist pulling me further into the kiss. We must have kissed for minutes because when we parted lips I was entirely out of breath and I took in Yuuta's breath as my own.

We looked into the others eyes happy for the others love but-but there was still something in my heart-

"but what about your parents? I-I don't know what to offer them..."

"Then I'll just by some land or mine..." He said as I was taken about by the blunt answer.

"I'll wait for a perfect opportunity and buy something that my parents would like to have and give the deed to you...then...we'll be together...Then we can love each other in public with no worry." Yuuta said as-as I felt foolish now for ever worrying about what to give his parents.

It was so simple and perfect...with just that I could really be with Yuuta, t-that I-I...I

I-I just couldn't hold back anymore-I-I need his-!

I pulled Yuuta back into a kiss but this time...my mouth was open and I let my tongue swirled in his mouth for a second as Yuuta was cut off guard by my sudden advance in romance but then...then Yuuta's tongue attacked my tongue then as if our tongues were in their own fight started wrapping and twirling around the others.

I-I could feel Yuuta's saliva...the saliva of a tiger...and it tasted...good...as if it were some water after a long time workout. It was only a matter of time before my tongue was utterly defeated and exhausted and Yuuta's tongue started to explore every corner of my mouth. His tongue felt like sandpaper yet the saliva made it soft and wet enough to smoothly lick across my mouth

I felt some saliva come out of our mouths but we continued as I felt Yuuta's tongue brush against the roof of mouth causing me to flinch as he continued by licking my own tongue and underneath it...then the sides of my mouth.

Every place you could ever imagine a tiger using its tongue to kiss your inside mouth was touched by Yuuta. The sudden rush of warm was so much I swear either I died or I was completely numb in ecstasy.

Yuuta began to purr as his tongue continued its relentless attack my mouth as it became his playing ground and all I could do was moan in defeat but feel like a total winner. To have this tiger...this prince dominate my mouth it was an honor...such an amazing honor that he would choose to dominate me of all peoples mouth out of everyone in the world...Yes...all of me...Touch and dominate all of me Yuuta!

I must have once again got lost in time as Yuuta was the one who pulled away from lack of breath and I guess I was too but I would definitely allow him to choke me like that...by letting his tongue cut off my air way...as long as it was his mouth that did it.

A thin trail of saliva left our mouths as we once again looked into the others eyes and-and I felt something completely different take over me...as if a different person but yet a part of me started to control my words and mind.

"B-But Yuuta...I-I think I'm starting to become horribly greedy now when I'm around you." I admitted sounding childish and womanly but I simply couldn't care anymore...forget my damn honor it never gave me pleasure like this!

Yuuta gave me a few quick kisses asking with each breath.

"What do you mean?" He asked each word following after a kiss and a nuzzle to my neck which made me moan before I knew I just had to say it...my body just couldn't take the teasing anymore!

"Y-Your kisses...and your touch their-their simply not enough! I-I want more I-" I said as I looked at Yuuta who giggled in slight confusion.

"Kissing and touching not enough? Ha. But how much further could we go? I mean the only left for lovers to do after that would....be..."he said before his eyes went blank before looking right at me again...shocked if I was saying what he was thinking...which I was.

"Y-Yuuta....I-...I want to have sex with you."