Complications (Jo)
#18 of Alternatives
I giggle as I tiptoe across the room to his bed. I don't know what's so funny, but I can't help but feel excited over it. Slipping in is way too easy for me. After all, I'm his best friend and his parents know me that well enough. I woke up early today and had this fun surprise thought up in my mind all of a sudden. Within minutes, I prepared myself to give Typh's home a little visit. Okay, maybe a little more than just a few minutes; I took my time to make myself presentable, don't want to look too sloppy in front of the one I like, do I?
Well, I went out of my house and took a morning walk to Typh's house. Hmm, I've always enjoy the morning sun; soft, warm and comforting. Just like the way it feels when I'm cuddling him. Thinking about it just got me grinning away. I have no idea why I felt this way, so lively and upbeat... My guess is the fact that Typh is no longer stuck to that Gerrald guy makes me want him all the more.
Last night, he just told me that he don't want Gerrald anymore. And that, is awesome. Or at least to me. For once, Typh can finally be mine! That blue wolf might be denying it yesterday, but I know he won't mind us to be boyfriends; it's just a matter of time. Still, I don't want to rush into things. Typh has just given up on Gerrald, he won't have much of a mood to think of someone else immediately. The next someone else, will be me.
At least he had the mood to joke with me. He knew that I was a little horny last night, and still teased me with those words. I'm not going to hide but hell yeah, I was pent up yesterday. Hey, I'm a healthy male wolf, that's to be expected. And I'm constantly near this blue wolf that I wanna be with, such desires are just normal. I don't know, but after I've told him that I want him, I begin to have more daydreams of explicit nature. I usually can control myself by waking up to the lesson or talking to someone else, but there are other times when things got out of hand and I resort to hide my tents using my bag on my lap. Ahh. I've never been so dirty minded before. I guess the urge to mate, when it hits me, it hits me hard.
Luckily I didn't embarrass myself yesterday in front of Typh. I ran home and took a cold shower, showering off my libido. My little Jo was swollen and peeking out of its home before the shower. That's how much I had gone before I remembered and stop myself. Damn the raging hormones. I wonder if I should just give in and rub one off... Will there be a difference? Oh Typh, if only you knew what kind of stress you are giving me...
Anyway, I knock on the door of his house and was greeted by his mom, surprised by my presence. Well, who visits on and early Saturday morning? I made up an excuse by telling her that we are hanging out soon and wondered if Typh is awake. I didn't let her shout across the house and ask if he is awake, I asked her nicely to just let me check out myself. I know Typh won't be awake. He is never a morning person.
Gently I turn the knob of his door and tiptoe into the room. Just as I expected, that blue wolf is sleeping on his bed. I shut the door as quietly as possible and try to settle my euphoric heart. The wolf on the bed looks so vulnerable and innocent, making me want to just hug him already. Typh is in his clothes, sleeping on his side with his head resting on the pillow and his right arm underneath. I know he sleeps in his clothes, funny since it should be pretty uncomfortable and restricting. But it's just because Typh never has much privacy in his house compared to me, he can never sleep nude even if he ever wants to.
I wonder if his single sized bed can fit me in as well. I just have that urge to have him in my arms now. He's just so cuddly right now! I supress a squeal and slowly move up to his bed, not wanting to wake him up at all. Trying to be as light as I can, I sit down on his bed and sneak under his covers, pulling his blanket slowly over my legs. It's too small to cover the both of us, but it's okay. And the bed is able to hold my weight along with Typh's after all.
Reaching out my paw, I touch Typh's arm, sending jolts of excitement to my body. The sleeping creature feels so small and warm. I want to protect him so much; I want him to be mine. Slowly, I roam my paws over his fur to his waist, and snake in my arms around it. Typh shifts about, and I thought he is going to wake up. But luckily he didn't. I let out a small growl of satisfaction and spoon him to me, breathing in his scent, cradling his vulnerable body. Giddy with happiness, I close my eyes and let myself drown into this sensation, with my tail flicking about in joy.
I growl in delight I feel his warmth seeping to me, and his blue fur against my grey one. I rub my digits against his white tummy, feeling his soft fur as he squirm slightly, but not waking still. I smile as I feel his heartbeat thumping slowly, telling me that he is safe and alive in my arms. Slowly I put my leg over him, hugging my favourite blue wolf entirely. I just want to stay like this...
I don't really care if any of his family members burst in now and see me embrace Typh like that. Heck, it will just help me tell them how much I want him and how close I am with him right now. I don't mind that, because I won't have to convince them. In fact, I want to let them see. But I think Typh will kill me. Maybe even kill me for sneaking up on his bed. This is a little too fast but I just can't help it! Oh why can't we be together already... Then I can enjoy this without ever having to feel guilty. Oh Typh...
I flick my ears to a distant ringing. It must be Typh's alarm going off. Well, good morning, Typh.
As I open my eyes, I am no longer looking at Typh, but at my window in my room. Surprise. I groan at the thought of it being just a dream. The so-called distant ringing ends up to be my phone vibrating on the table. Gosh. Why couldn't the dream be real?! I wriggle and trash about on my bed, throwing a tantrum like a small pup. In the end I buried my muzzle under a pillow and admit defeat.
Rise and shine. I get out of bed and washed myself up, tapping on the phone as I went along. Apparently my tiger friend sent me a text telling me the time and place to meet. My parents aren't at home and I didn't see breakfast, so I agreed to meet out at Simon's Sizzling.
I stretch and let out a yawn, wondering how my blue wolf is doing. I know he isn't mine yet, but the word is yet. Well, it's only a matter of time... right? I know this counts under the heading of 'rushing into a relationship', but I just want to make him mine before something else takes him away.
I dress up as I prepare to meet the tiger. What's Jin going to say later? I can't help but get curious at it. What can be that hard to stop him from saying it over the phone? I wonder as I wear a simple white singlet, a short cargo pants and tied a blue zip hoodie around my waist using the sleeves, before leaving the house.
I chew and stare at outside, watching the world from inside as I grab a bite of the breakfast combo consisting of eggs, ham, a butter bun, a cup of warm milk and a medium waffle topped with butter and maple syrup. As I look at the world going on outside, I think about what to do with Typh. What should I do to get to him? Getting the things he wants is not really easy to work with, since he doesn't like many things. I don't really know anything about courting people... I've never done this before. All I know is just that I want him. Damn this relationship stuff. Can't I just be with him and be happy?
Then there's this thought of whether he is ready for me, for all this. I mean, isn't all this a little too fast for him? Giving up a crush is somewhat like a breakup, there should be a resting period where he doesn't want to touch any of this lovey stuff? As much as I want to advance, I want him to be okay with all this too.
Tasting the sweet maple syrup in my maw along with the fragrance of the salty butter, I wonder how long more it will take, before Typh will be seated in front of me, with one of this arm outstretched, feeding me with his fork.
Then a white paw rests on the table before I see my striped friend's hulking figure sit down opposite me, letting a loud huff as he landed, "Hey," he greets, but without his usual cheer. He is wearing a grey tank top, some brown shorts and a small black bandana on his head, not tying the top flap with the sides.
I swallow down and look at him, concerned. Jin may not be my best friend; there's only one slot for a best friend and now it's currently filled by Typh, but Jin will be next in line when Typh finally becomes my boyfriend. Jin can be loud, naughty and even nasty at times... but he is still a good person. Well, good enough for me to suspect him to snatch away my blue wolf.
"Hey, is everything okay? You wanna grab a bite first? I'm not in a hurry," I say.
The tiger frowns as though thinking about something, before agreeing and leaving to queue for food. The tiger is rarely bothered by things. Jin won't snarl at you unless you touch something dear to him. He can be hot-headed, but it's just to protect the things dear to him. Seeing him being like this just isn't him. Could it be his family problems?
I've heard about his family, they are rumoured to be the descendants of a certain tiger clan in history. That's why his family, the Tygirfs, are wealthy and strong. But it's just a rumour. Jin never says much about it. He admits that he is well-off, alright, but not to the point of living in mansions, having butlers and everything. As for being strong, well, he had his punching bag long ago, so he doesn't think it counts either. Furthermore Jin doesn't keep track of his family tree, but he knows that all of his relatives are all tigers, and that he is the only one that's a white one. Still, that doesn't mean he comes from some tiger clan, his parents would have told him by now.
Jin sits back down in front of me with his tray, but it only contains a bagel, a muffin and a cup of chocolate. The tiger adjust his bandana knot before catching me staring at him and goes, "What?"
"That's all you're eating?" I ask.
The white tiger sighs, "What to do, I don't have much appetite... At least I'm eating, you know."
I blow at the cup of milk and take a sip, "So what's troubling you? Guess it's pretty serious, considering that you won't tell me through the phone."
Jin nibbles on his bagel and looks outside, "I don't know how to say this... it's just weird."
I frown at him, "Well, that's not a lot for me to work with, bro. Hmm, at least give me a genre to start with. Family? Friends?"
Jin ponders over my words, "A little bit of family, a little bit of friends... But most probably about relationships... How do you know whether you like someone?"
Wow, that's really surprising. I mean... Jin too? I cough and reply, "Err... I'm not exactly the most experienced in relationships... you know I've never been attached before."
Jin sighs, "I thought so too. But you're my closest friend... I don't know who else to tell. The other guys probably won't understand and be serious about this."
I take another drink from the cup before saying, "Still, you can tell me what happened to you. I may not be much of much help, but at least you won't bottle it down."
"I've been thinking about it for a while. There's this girl I've met recently, just last weekend while I was clubbing with Jack and the others. She's a beautiful tigress, and was like the best looking girl in the entire dance floor, all the guys agreed on it. Many guys tried to approach her, but she won't entertain them, apparently she had an eye for someone already. I wasn't really interested in getting to know her; I just wanted to chill out that night. But the guys won't let me go. They urge me to go for the girl, just once for luck. I just shrug and went for it, just to stop the guys from pestering me. I thought the girl won't care about me too, show disinterest like the way she show those guys....
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"Hey," I call out to her.
I walk and approach her as I see her tail swaying lazily with an occasional curl. Hmm, I've known tiger tail signs, and I can tell you that she's not completely uninterested. Those occasional curls are just an accidental slip of her pretence of her disinterest. She ignores me while I slowly walk to her.
When I reach her table, she remains disinterested by drawing random lines on the table top using the water droplets that condenses from the small cup of ice.
"Can I sit with you?" I ask, just doing all these out of fun.
"Sure," she replies, but still not looking at me.
I take my seat and take a sip of the Kool Kitty drink that I've brought along from my table. "So," I begin, "Name is Jin, Jin Tygrif. What's yours?"
"I know who you are. Your friends all told me about you," she says, look straight at me for the first time, "I'm Kayla by the way, Kayla Illuva. I didn't expect to meet a Tygrif here."
That's when she reach out and touch my arm, "And a strong one too. I'm sure you know I've been waiting for someone..." she continues, slowly letting her paws run up my arm to my triceps, kneading at it.
Sadly, I just want to chill out today. Have a relaxing drink and rest later on. I don't know why, I never feel like hooking up anyone. I give her a smile, playing on, "Hmm? Ah, is it someone I know? It's surprising that I'm still here and not rejected yet..." I reach out and touch her paw on my arm.
"I don't know if you're acting or not, but I guess the answer is rather obvious, isn't it?" she says, before reaching out to touch my cheek, stroking it slightly.
I don't know why, this girl is pretty, wants me and is wanted by many, but I just don't have the urge to just take her already. This could be the start of a relationship for me, but I... I just don't want to.
I grin at her, "Oh, this is flattering. I'm actually the one that this incomparable beauty in front of me wants?"
She smiles shyly, dropping her paws to my chest, blushing a little, "That's sweet of you."
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... ends up that she had an eye for me. We danced, drank, and made out a little, but I didn't let it go too far. We exchanged contacts and we're still talking now..." Jin ends.
I frown at Jin, "Well, so what's so bad about that?"
The tiger replies, "I don't know whether I like her or not. She looks good, but it feels that something is missing. She likes me, that's one. She's always the one to contact me first. If I don't feel the same way, I should tell her, I shouldn't let her wait."
I let out a sigh of relief, "Well, this isn't really complicated..."
The tiger cuts in, "Do I look gay?"
"Huh?!"
"I don't know," Jin says, "I think I have feelings for another guy. It can't be true, right? Please tell me how liking someone is like..."
So that's the problem. I think Typh can better explain to him, but... I'll just try.
"Hmm," I reply, "It's not that hard to decide... When you like someone, you should know already. I'm just going to repeat what you've probably heard by now, but it's the truth. Liking someone is just feeling happy being around that person, wanting that person to stay around you, wanting to meet up with that person... You just want to be with that person, and take things to another level where you want to commit yourself to that person..."
"Anyway," I continue, "You can't really look gay. Being gay won't change any part of you. It's just an innate preference."
I hastily added, "That's what I think... and what I've heard from others."
Jin groans, "Oh gosh, no. I obviously don't feel that way for Kayla. As for that guy... No, I can't. Do you think I can force myself to like her?"
I grip him by the arm and speak to him seriously, "Don't be stupid and try too hard on things that are not meant to be. You're my bro and I don't want you to get hurt. Please, forcing yourself is not going to give you any happy endings. I won't hate you if you date a guy, you're my buddy."
Jin looks down on his plate, "But the other guys won't think like you. I don't think they will be that accepting. I... I can't. Fine, I admit that I like that guy, but I'm scared of bringing more trouble to him. And he might not like me at all."
I growl at him at shake his shoulder vigorously, "Don't be like that. You're strong, you're a Tygrif. You're brave, and I know it because I've seen it. Stop being like this, you're far stronger than this, Jin. Anyway, what's there to be afraid of? That guy can't be that scary, you should probably be able to win him physically. Who is it?"
The tiger slumps down and look at me like a child that has been found guilty of something.
"It's your best friend."