Everlasting Distractions
I really can't write anything creative, so this is just a vent really. Feel free to ignore it.
So I have this crush...
They don't know that I adore them to the extent of love, but they know that I care about them as a really good friend. That's what I throw myself out to be. The part of which they don't know is how much more I care for them than what they think I do. If I were to tell them how I really felt, a friendship would be in jeopardy. I have known this person long enough to know how they work and what they are feeling by how they're acting.
My heart bleeds though. I hear almost every aspect of their life when they want to talk. But what hurts most is when I am told that they like someone else. I respect their decisions enough to not intervene; let them follow a path they feel is right even though I wish they would come to me. Each day becomes slow and progressively harder to endure. I get a sense of hopelessness and un-want.
So I sit and watch as they are blinded by their own emotions and I begin to drown in my own. I know that somewhere in the back of my head, a voice is telling me to move on. That there are many others in the world. But experience has told me that it isn't that easy. So I sit there on my pedistal in the darkness as the spotlight moves onward; it just wasn't my part to play in this script of life.
So I have this crush...
Never will our friendship be the same.