Ian the Illusionist
Just something I thought up quickly, while thinking about a special someone.
"Friends...I hope you understand...we can only be friends"
His words...all of them, echoed in my head as I laid with my wings covering me. Another love lost...but that should have been expected, shouldn't it?
I had always known, he would never be for me, yet... I had some hope he would agree to be with me. How could I be so stupid? I should have known...
"I can't give you what I want from someone else, please understand!"
What kind of petty excuse is that? All I wanted was to be able to be close to him, to feel his warmth, to cradle him in my arms, feel safe and loved, and make him feel safe and loved too...I never wanted anything more than that...was it too much to ask?
Once again I lie here in my room...crying to pass the afternoon...I wonder what my dad is thinking right now...could he be worried about me? I doubt it...he works extra hours...he doesn't see me at all. Oh, if he knew the pain I'm going through...how would he react? What would he tell me to do? I feel like I can't go on...
The night is slowly approaching, and I'm crying my eyes dry...all the tears I have spent on him...and what has he ever spent on me? A few bucks on the silly plushie that lies next to me as I cry... why do I have to be the one to suffer the most? All I wanted was to have a chance...to love him...to make his life easier.
Good guys finish last it seems, the nice guys will always be friends, and all kindness is rewarded with sorrow. From now on...I shall love no one else...I will let no other guy break my heart...
Without prior notice, the dragon stood up from his bed, extended his iridescent wings and stared directly at himself in the mirror. An eerie light coming from his eyes, with his weak and long arms, he leaned on the wall, staring closer at the mirror.
"If I can make illusions to myself and feel better...I can give illusions and false hopes to anyone else...no one shall love if it can't be him...from now on, I am Ian, the seductive Illusionist."
And then, the white dragon fell back on his bed, his tears silently streaming from his eyes, as he tried to fall into the oblivion of sleep again...