Musings of a Rat: Pas de Deux
#3 of Musings
I've been wondering, about these two and now is the best time to actually put it down.
Journal Entry 40
I finanly have a moment of peace, who knows how long it will last out here. I can't help thinking that this thing with Zeke will only lead to pain, as to whose I do not know. Getting attached can only lead to either two things out in the wildlands; death or pain. The first two things taught to me when I was rescued, luckily a situation has never presented itself where someone or myself would fall in love. It has always been an emotionless release of sexual tension and nothing more.
I worry for Zeke, he has already been through much and I fear that in his case the old proverb is wrong. What did not kill him left him damaged, and you can only break something so far before you cannot put the pieces together again. For the life of me I cannot call off this...this tryst, I can only watch as we spiral ever closer to the end, wether the end is in Zion as heroes, or in the afterlife returning to our maker.
P.S. The sex is phenominal.