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please mind my spelling errors... im getting better at spelling... but i know i have a few words that i misspelled.

also... i don't know if i want to create a second part of this series... but i will take comments and other things... im gonna leave it up to the communitiy! should i create a second part?

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sitting in my third period in my school, i waited for the bell to ring. twiddleing a pencil in between my furred fingers, i just sat there, lost in space to see what i could come up for an idea for later on. i looked at the clock, the ticking seeming louder as it was near the time to go. i look back at the pencil, the yellow covered wood now just resting in my paw as i held it. idle, yet quiet talk was heard in my perked ears, the restlessness of the class becomming more noticable as the time ticked on, nearing the end of class and a loud bell to signal it. i smoothed the white fur on my head, it only to puff back up. i tried over and over again to make it lay down, but it resisted and won, my fur like a lose bun in between my ears. i just sighed and looked back down at my pencil, wondering what i could with this if givin the chance. i looked back up at the clock, the hands not seeming to move. it's like time froze all round me, but i pushed that thought off to the side as i saw the seconds hand slowly tick on. i became restless for a moment as i shifted in my chair, looking around at all of the furs and scalies in the room with me. the room was packed full in my chemistry class, no one looking at me as they socialized with the furs or scalies next to them, behind them, or infront of them. seeing how i was much like a loner, i kept to myself, haveing close to no friends. i never really had friends... no one to hang out with after school. i honestly didn't mind it. i would just go home to a loveing family that cared for me, that's all i really needed. mother and father, i am an only child of two foxes, both artic foxes, thus makeing me the breed of the artic fox. i heard the door opened so i looked in that direction, seeing an officer padding into the room, a black wolf. his fur matched with his uniform in color, almost makeing it seem he was wearing a whole body suit. i watched him pad up to the teacher, another wolf, one of the timber breed, his fur all diffrent types of color, from grey to brown. they exchanged words quietly, trying to make it almost look like a secret. when they finished, they both looked around the room, the teacher's eyes falling on me. "Keith... please... come here..." the wolf said to me. i gave a confused look, i never did anything wrong. so why was i going up there? i looked around, every eye locked on me, some of the students going "ooooooooooooo!". i moved from my seat and slowly padded up to them. as i now stood infront of the teacher and the officer, i had to look up at the big black wolf. he at least stood two feet taller than me, and i was guessing he was six-three. his yellow eyes looking down upon me like i was a criminal. his voice boomed at me when he spoke. " Keith...Keith shilders...?" he said to me. "y-yes?" " please... come with me." i looked at the teacher, his face and muzzle showing no emotion. i looked back at the class, hearing one murmmur "what did he do?" i looked back at the black wolf again, nodding to him. he nodded in return and turned to pad out the wat he came, and i had to follow behind him. as i padded behind him, my paws in my jacket pockets. i looked at the wolf's back and legs as i padded behind him, the way one side wold move then the other, and the way his tail stayed still the whole time i was padding behind him. we soon were in the front office, heading to an office i did not know. seeing how i was never hear before in my years of being at this school, it all seemed so new to me. i followed the wolf into an office and he shut the door behind me. i looked around, various placs hung on the walls, strips of newspaper and a few post-it-notes pinned on a cork board, and a few inspirational pictures hung on the walls to give the room some life. i looked at the fur in the room and saw it was the head principle. she was that of an otter, a female otter. normal brown fur covered her head as she sat, waiting. "please... have a seat." she said to me. i did as instructed, sitting down in black and soft seat, my paws still in my jacket. i watched the female otter's face change into deep sarrow. she looked at the officer, nodding to him. i looked at him, he was standing next to a corner of the otter's desk. "son... your... parents... were in a accident... and... they did not survive..." he said more... but thats all i heard from him. my ears stopped working, like listening was forbidden. my muzzle hung open, disbelife in my eyes, or so i would assume. my body began to respond by shakeing vigerosly, my head going down, tears filling my eyes. i began to sob, everything i had, gone. my family, my mother and father... and their love... just gone. the horrors of reality came crashing down on me as he said that. my ears bagan to work again as i heard the rest of what the wolf was saying. "... and we will have to put you in foster care." all i did was look up at the wolf, just watching him through my teary eyes. he turned to the otter. " may i take him... i have everything ready..." " by all means..." she said to the officer. "Keith... please... come with me." i did as he said, standing up and padding behind the wolf. we padded out of the office and out of the school, going to a cop car the was parked next to the front doors. he opened the passanger door for me and told me to get in. i did and when i sat down, i moved my tail so i could hold it in my arms as i continued to cry, life seeming to end in me. i closed my eyes as the whole trip began to where i was headed next. as the car drove on, my body couldn't take all of the stress that built in me quickly over that period of time, makeing me pass out. i was later woken up by the wolf who drove me. i slowly woke up and looked around, seeing a white building infront of us. the bright blue paint was chipping off in a few places that i noticed. i watched the cop get out and motion for me to exit the car as well. i got out and followed the cop again, going through the double doors that led into the building. i was greeted with a blast of cool air, still following the wolf to a door that had a counter on it. behind the door was a female, another wolf. see looked back when the officer knocked on the door gently. she quickly got up from her seat and padded to the counter, her actions in a frenzy. the door opened and she came out. she stood infront of me. " you must be Keith... i am so sorry dear..." she said before she hugged me. she let go of me and looked back at the officer. " i'll take it from here." she said. the officer nodded and left my and her alone. she motioned me to follow her " i am ms. rosey, the care taker of this orphanage. i manage everything from breakfast, lunch and dinner, to play times and bed times. if you ever need anything come talk to me or your roommate." after she said that, i was kinda thankful for a roommate. but i didn't want to talk to no one right now. she stopped talking and led me to a room. " room A2... remember if you need anything, talk to me or jordan, your roommate. i think he is out playing with the others, he'll be in shortly." she said. she opened the closed door and i padded in. she closed the door behind me, leaving me to myself. i looked around, seeing one bed with the same wall the door was on, a tv on a platform up in the far corner of the room, and a window that looked out to a playground in the distance, seeing all ages of kids moveing around. i sat down on the bed and put my face in my paws, the sobbing slowly continueing. i thought back to this morning, the last words i ever said to my parents. " i love you and i will see you later." now half of that was a lie, i was never going to see them again, the emotional trauma slowly setting in again. i began to sob deep and hard, slowly going into hyperventalation. as my body spasmed with each deep breath i took in, i wailed hard, letting all of my emotions out in my cries and screams. i clutched my head fur in my paws, pulling out paws full of fur, the emotional pain too great to feel the physical pain at all. my eyes became sore and my throat became dry and cracked with my screams, my body begging for all of it to end. i layed back and rubbed my closed eyes as i continued to cry, feeling my cheek fur soaked and my paw fur soaked as well. i heard the door open but made no movement to see who it was. i felt something sit next to me, pulling me up and pulling me close to them. the touch felt like my mother's when i was like this, which was only once of my life. i felt a head rest against mine as the fur slowly rocked me back and forth, saying soft, gentle, and kind words. "shhhhhh... everything will be okay, i promise this to you.... shhhhhhh." i kept my eyes closed as i cried harder, pressing into the figure that held me close to them. my body begged for this connection and needed more. i cluched the shirt of the figure, now knowing it was male due to the fact that there was no breasts. i just continued to press myself into this male, not careing if this was wrong or not. i slowly began to calm down, my hypervetlation slowly comming to a stop and my tears drying up before my spasms quit. the rocking quit and i felt a paw under my chin now, lifting my muzzle to look up at them. i opened up my eyes and looked at the face of the one who comforted me. it was a husky, a siberian husky. he looked like a traditional one, his peirceing blue eyes gazeing down at me. still clutching his green shirt, i stared at him, a smile on his muzzle. " it's okay... feeling better?" he asked me in a soft voice. i gave a slight nod, trying to look away, but his paw held my muzzle firmly in place. he let go of my muzzle and i cuddled close to him, not wanting to let go of him. he held me close and nuzzled the top of my head. "thank you..." i said in a quiet voice, but enough for him to hear me. " its the least i can do... " he replyed back. i looked at his shirt and saw my tears had wet his shirt a little. "i-im sorry... " " don't be, i know what it is like to lose your parents... `just let it out... im here..." his words... so kind and gentle, so soft and... and... loveing. i just snuggled closer as i needed him to help me, letting me know that everything will be all right. i felt his embrace on me tighten as i felt him nuzzle the top of my head again. but that embrace was soon broken as he let go of me and looked down at me. " hey... so your my roomie right?" he asked me noticeing now that he had a slight russian accent. i nodded to him. " well... like ms. rosey said... and im sure said it like five times, if you ever need anything, go to her or me, okay?" i nodded again. " and try to speak more... it will help." "o-okay..." i watched him smile. " good... now... how a little bit of lunch? im sure you must be hungry after this whole ordeal." i shook my head, i wasn't hungry at all. " well... i could bring you something for later on then, okay? you need to eat, trust me." i just nodded. "i want to hear you." he said. "all right..."i replied. " good... i wil be back with something... if ms. rosey will let me." i watched him get up and pad out of the room, seeing his husky tail all curled up like it's supposed to be. as he left, i laid back down, takeing deep breath after deep breath, trying to regulate myself once again. i could feel myself want to cry again... but there was nothing i couldn't do about it now... its all done and over with, they were gone from my life forever... and again... there was nothing i could do about it... i just have to move on. after some time, i heard a muffled noise. i sat up to see jordan standing at the door way with a tray in his muzzle, another in his right paw, and two soda cans in his other. i quickly stood up and took the tray from his muzzle. he gasped and chuckled lightly. "thanks." i nodded to him and placed the tray on the bed. jordan closed the door with his foot paw and moved to the bed. " you wanna watch some tv?" he asked as he placed the sodas on the bed with the tray he had in his right paw. i gave a shrug and just sat down again, placeing the tray on the bed next to me on the floor, so not to make a mess on my first day here. i looked at the food, it seemed to be fries, a cheese burger, an apple, and a few carrots. i looked at the sodas and saw they they both were pepsi. jordan had move to turn the tv on, then setting back down on the bed. i just stared at the floor as i heard the sounds of what seemed like a cartoon. "hey... come here." jordan said as he rubbed my left shoulder. i looked back and saw him sitting aginst the wall with his tray in his lap. i crawled over the bed to lay aginst him, my head on his chest and cuddleing close to him. his left arm embraced me in a hug as he looked down at me. " how are you feeling, and i want to hear your answer." " a bit better..." i said to him. " that's good... but we need you to feel one-hundered percent better, okay? oh... and i hope you don't mind sharing a bed... its the only one we have in this room." i shook my head and cuddled into him more. "heh heh, someone likes cuddling." jordan said with a hint of teaseing in his voice. " im sorry..." i said as i tried to move away from him, but his arm locked itsself around me. " don't be, i don't mind." he said before he ate a frie. "why so nice?" i asked. " i know what it is like to lose your parents, so i want to help you get through it." " thank you." " like i said before, its the least i can do." i looked when the door opened and ms. rosey peeked her head in. " how is he jordan?" " slowly talking again." i watched her smile. " and it would seem that he might not need a room change... thats good." i looked at jordan. " i hope not... i don't need another scene again." the husky said to her. " well make sure he eats, or he goes no where, got it?" " got it MOTHER..." she smirked and left us alone, closeing the door. " jordan... ?" he looked down at me. " yes?" " what was she talking about another room change?" i watched him tense up and sigh, rubbing the back of his head. "well... see... the thing is...i'm gay... and well... i didn't know if you were okay with that..." " i don't know... never had a friend of either gender... i'm a loner...." " so... you never felt love?" " only by my parents." " so you've never dated?" " no..." " so i am also guessing you never kissed a girl... or guy...?" i shook my head. " no." " and how old are you?" "seventeen." i replied. his eyes went wide. " you sir, are overdue." " w-what do you mean?" "well... seeing how... you never exsperinced either side... maybe... i can show you one side?" " one side of what?" jordan let go of me and placed his tray on the floor and the two sodas the sat next to us, then moveing to sit infront of me, crosslegged. he made me sit infront of him, crosslegged like him. " so, im guessing the closest you ever have gotten with anybody would be me then?" "i guess..." " now tell me... would you be willing to... try... a kiss with me?" "i-i don't know... sure?" " are you sure you want too?" i just looked at him. "i guess?" "not a guess... i want a for sure answer, yes or no." i looked at him, wondering what it would be like to kiss another person. so with my curosity winning over me, i nodded to him. "yes." i watched him lean in a bit. " all right." he leaned in a bit more, stopping to hesatiaite. i moved and made the connection, gripping and holding his shirt in my paws. i watched him close his eyes and he placed his paws on my shoulders. i could feel him deepen the kiss, my eyes closeing as i felt his tongue press against my lips. i opened my maw some and feeling his tongue slide in, moveing my tongue to meet his. as our tongues danced in my muzzle, his paws moved to my neck and then my cheeks, pulling me in some to deepen the kiss even more. after a few more moments, he broke the kiss and panted lighly. "wow..." he said. i tilted my head at him. " what?" " that was fantastic..." i blushed, my white fur slowly going pink as i blushed hard, or so i would assume. "r-really?" i watched him smile. " yes." i gave a slight smile and looked to the side. his paws had moved back down my neck to my shoulders again, them moveing all the way down to my crossed legs, rubbing my thighs some. " whats wrong?" he asked me. "n-nothing... im fine." i said as i looked back at him. "am i makeing you uncomfortable?" he ask as he moved his paws from my legs into his lap. "no, not at all." i replied back to him, moveing my paws to his chest. "m-may... we cuddle again?" " if i get to feed you." i gave off another blush. " all right." i seen him smile and move off the bed and grab both trays off the floor. he motioned me to sit against the wall, and i did so, him putting my tray in my lap. i held onto the sides of my try and watched him move to sit next to me. after putting his tray in his lap and moveing mine to the bed next to his legs, he pulled me close to him, my head on his chest again. almost curling up into a ball, i cuddled close to him again, me on his left side. his right arm holding me close to him, my right paw was on his chest and my left paw on his side. he looked down at me when i looked up at him. he nosed me, both of our noses touching and a light blush on my muzzle again. i looked up at the tv and watched it for a bit before grabbing a frie from his tray and looking down at me. " open up." he said with a grin. i did what he said and opened my muzzle, him placeing the frie in my muzzle. i chewed and swallowed, jordan just watching me. i looked at him still and tilted my head. "what?" i asked. " makeing sure you eat... you know what ms. rosey said." i nodded and told me to open my muzzle for a carrot this time. him feeding me went on for quite a while. i yawned and could feel my eye lids grow heavy. i felt the arm around me tighten and i looked up. " yeah, you must be wore out... get some sleep and i'll leave you be." he siad as he grabbed both of our empty tray as moved to stand up. " please... come back..." i whimpered. " you want me to come back?" he asked. i nodded to him. " well all right." he said as he looked at the floor. " and drink this." he said as he picked up a pepsi off the floor and handed it to me. i nodded to him again and took the drink into my paws. " and if i don't see it open with at least half of it gone, i will walk right back out and leave you be." i gave a whimper and layed my ears back. " okay." he left with the trays and i was left to be alone for a few minutes. i pulled the tab and made the pop as the drink opened up. drinking some down the carbonated liquid, i felt the can grow lighter in my paw as i held it again, the carbonation stinging some in my throat. i gave a firm "mmmh hmmmm" and made the sting go away. i drank more of the soda, then placeing it back down on the floor. i waited for the husky to come back, and was striving for the phisical connection again. as i waited, i began to think. why do feel connected to this husky? is it because we share the same demise? we both lost our parents and found each other... is it luck... or is it something in the far beyond showing me that all hope is not lost? were me and jordan supposed to meet? i had so many questions rise in my mind. i tried to answer as many as i could, but there was some i could not answer... not with out help. " i hope you drank something." i looked at the door and saw jordan leaning against the door frame. i nodded to him. " show me then." he said as he padded up to the bed. i leaned over and picked up my open can, handing it to the husky. jordan held it in his paw and smiled. " good. go ahead and lay down." he said to me. i moved to lay on the bed, my head resting on the only pillow, faceing the wall. i felt jordan crawl into bed behind me. i looked back and saw him get as close to me as he could, one arm around my waist and the other arm lifting my head up and moveing under my head. as i laid on his arm, presumeing it was his left from the postion we were in, i cuddled and grinded back into him, letting a gentle murr escape my muzzle. i felt the husky's maw take the tip of my right ear into his maw, sucking down and gently nipping and nomming. i gave another murr and moved my right paw to hold the back of his, pressing his paw against my belly. i felt him rub against me and murr some around my ear. i moved my body to turn in his arms, now looking at him. i leaned in and nosed his nose, giving off a small grin. " how are you feeling now?" jordan asked me. " better." i said. " how much better?" " i don't know.... maybe a little more than half-way?" "we're getting there... but i still see that your really tired. maybe if you actually went to sleep, you would feel so much better then." he said. " then please... stay..." " you want me to cuddle with you while we both go to sleep then?" i nodded and licked his nose. he smiled and pulled me close to him, our chests touching and our noses touching as well. i felt sonething... something that made me lean in just a bit and kiss him. both of our eyes closed and i felt the kiss deepen. but the kiss was short lived and broke after a few moments. " you need your sleep... and if you do feel a whole buch better tomorrow, then maybe we could go further, but you need to sleep okay?" " go further?" " well... i want to show... you know what, don't worry about it, it's just something this side has to offer... and i'll propose it to you tomorrow, okay?" i just nodded and turned around again, my back against his chest once more, leaning and grinding back on to him as we were in the same position before. i closed my eyes and gave one more murr before the darkness of sleep over took my mind and thoughts, sending me off to a very deep sleep.