What I want to tell you. Part 2
A MLP Appleshy Fic that I write.
What I want to tell you Part 2
By Jessy Toph
Second part of my story and could be the bounce board for more. Once again the characters and places in this story belong with Hasbro and its respective parties.
Fluttershy felt better when she awoke, Angle was still clinging to her front hoof. But she had made a decision during the night and that decision was that she was going to tell Applejack her feelings and then sweep her off her hooves. But first she had to feed and care for her animals. And thus she spent the next 2 hours doing just that, all the while thinking about how she was going to confess to Applejack. The thoughts ranged from a direct confession to writing it in the sky with the help of Rainbow dash but sadly any idea was shot down quickly and effectively by the voice of her shyness and mother. But she never did doubt that Applejack felt the same, what with all the subtle hints, such as dragging her by her mane to the cave of the dragon she had to confront, to the smile Fluttershy swore she saw every time Applejack met up with her. No, there was no doubt in her mind that Applejack felt the same for her, our little Fluttershy, so all that was needed was a good confession that would allow for Applejack to also confess and for them to gallop off into the future of their relationship, at least that's what Fluttershy thought.
And so it came too pass that by the time, Celestia's golden orb hung high above Ponyville, our brave little hero had her mindset and a game plan ready, for the confession to her beloved. She walked all the way to the Apple orchard, her mind clear, always watching out for creatures she may have taken care of and the one mare that did what no other mortal or immortal did to her. But she found no such pony or critter on her way until she entered Apple Acres. She imiditiliy felt self-conscious for entering uninvited and possibly unwanted, but she had to remember what Rainbow and Twilight said about being more assertive with the things she did. But she still didn't believe all she heard, and as always in her mind was her mother's voice.
'She'll never feel the same for you, just accept that and move on to a nice stallion. Perhaps her brother, what was his name... that's right Big Macintosh, he propyl be more than ready to help you and your 'problem'. Just think of that big stallion rid...'
'No' the yellow Pegasus almost said to no pony, 'I will never allow my self to fall for it mother. I like mares and that is the bottom line, I will never feel for a stallion.' She suddenly remember what she was doing "Talking to your dead mother, in your head?" the Pegasus asked herself quietly, " You saw her die for Celestia sake, saw the illness take that hated out of her, saw her pass on to the next life. But you still can't let it go, can you, how pathetic is that?" she asked loader than before.
"What's pathetic Sugercube?" Came the voice of her dearest. Fluttershy froze, her limbs locking, causing her to fall over. She hadn't realized that during her internal monolog. Her hooves had carried her, seemly by magic, to her most beloved and wanted, Applejack.
Applejack's day had been quite pleasant; she had gotten up early, had had a good breakfast of apple fritters and was ready to buck some apples. She of course had no idea of what was coming her way or how much her future would change with that day. She had started in the south fields and was moving up towards the north when she saw Fluttershy. This didn't in the least surprise Applejack, what did surprise her was the fact that although Fluttershy was here, none of her other friends were. "Hmm, wonder what she wants. Maybe she needs some more apples for her animal friends?" she quickly dismissed this idea because although Fluttershy did often order lager quantities of apples for her animals she usually had Angle with her. As Applejack neared Fluttershy she over heard the last of her conversation with herself "...how pathetic is that". " What's pathetic Sugercube?" She asked, rarely did Fluttershy talk to herself or say the word pathetic.
This sudden amount of noise from Applejack caused Fluttershy to freeze and fall down. Applejack rushed over, "Ya'll alright sugar? Ya gotta be more careful," She said as she leaned down to help Fluttershy up. "Oh, um, I'm alright it's just that you startled me and no pony likes to be startled" "Oh okay. Why were ya talking to your self for?"
"Oh you heard, Oh this is just going so badly already," Fluttershy said as she slid into monolog. "Just slow down sugarcube, what's going badly, and why you here, are the rest coming?" Applejack was concerned, Fluttershy never acted like this, all strange and nervous. "Why don't you tell me all ya troubles over a class of apple juice?" "NO! I have to say it in the open" Applejack jumped back as Fluttershy screamed; now she was even more concerned as Fluttershy only yelled in situations of extreme stress. She was also intrigued, "What, ya have to say darlin'?'"
Fluttershy took in a deep breath, this wasn't going very well, and the plan was falling to pieces. First she had fallen over, and then she had been heard talking to her self. 'Maybe I shouldn't say it.' A part of her screamed at this 'No we have worked to hard and too long to give up now, just say it and everything will be all right, just say it and live.' Her mind calmed it's self 'Okay'
"Applejack there's something, something I just have to tell you" "What is it, sugarcube?" Fluttershy took in a deep breath, trying to calm herself.
"I...I love (mumble)"
"What's that?" Applejack was confused, what did Fluttershy love and why did she have to tell her. I didn't make sense. "I, I love you Applejack!"
Applejack was touched "Aww I love you too sugarcube... but as a friend right" Fluttershy started to fell the world fall around her, Applejack didn't feel the same or 'maybe she just doesn't understand' her mind offered, it's voice sounded hopeful. "No, I love you as I have never love anyone or anything else, I see you in my dreams and nightmare. I want you, I need you. Please say you want me too, please say you need me. I can't live with out you, my mind screams for you. When I go to sleep, I wish so much to have you by my side, please say you feel the same for me. Please say that these feelings are not falling on deaf ears, please I need you, say you need me!" Fluttershy felt used, her whole body was trembling, and her face was heated and red.
"This is the moment, this is when she says those perfect words, those words I wish for every night" "No! No it's not, she doesn't feel for you, no pony ever will, your feelings are wrong, you yourself are wrong. No one ever loved fillyfoolers...' Then a part of her exploded 'SHUT UP MOTHER, you are dead, you are wrong, I love her and she loves me, no one cares about you, that is the reason you hate, no pony ever cared about you, well some pony cares about me so SHUT UP!!!!!!'. Through this conversation with herself, Fluttershy had done nothing more then blink twice, and so as she came back to the present time and place, nothing had changed, nothing had happened and then Applejack spoke up.
"Are ya telling me that your a fillyFOOLER!" Applejack's voice rose as she said the last of the word. "Are ya telling me that ya belong to that rank of varmin, that like to be taken by other mares in their depravity. Are ya'll telling me that you defile the natural order of things, that you want me to join you in your depravity. ARE YOU INSANE. How dare you...ect!!!" Fluttershy bowed her head 'She hates me, she hates me' her mother's voice broke into her thoughts, laughing 'HA HA I told you no one loves fillyfoolers, your sick Fluttershy, your sick and depraved. No one will ever love you, no matter how much you think they will, no one will ever love you, you sick twisted spawn of...' 'NO!'
"and how dare you come, here infecting mah sister with your sick, perverted ideas. Ah bet you came here to induce her or ah into yahur perverted cult. Ah...". Fluttershy's rage broke, flooding her mind with hate, burning it to its demands. In doing this it woke up her lust and they combined. She roared in to the sky as her wings unfolded and jolted her up. At the shout Applejack had stopped talking and looked to the place where Fluttershy had been moments before. Fluttershy was in the air, her lust and hate mixing, turing over what to do. She looked down and saw the object of her affections, and with this the feelings ran. 'Love her, make her see our way, love her, rape her, make her love you. Take her body for your own, do it, DO IT!! Rape her!' Her idea chosen she raced down. Applejack own had a moment to contemplate what was going on, when Fluttershy smashed into her. She heard a crack, singling the braking of one of her ribs, as the world slowed down.
She was being pushed through the air, Fluttershy face contorted in rage. Applejack was scared, more scared then she had ever been before. But she had no time to dwell on the feeling as she smashed into the ground. At first it felt like she had hit a wall, but it soon caved as Fluttershy pushed. She felt more then heard her back crack and started to feel pain. The skin on her flank felt like it was being flayed by thousands of knifes as she was pushed through the ground. A depression was forming in Applejack's wake, until she collided into a tree, hitting her head. Her head hurt, she hoped it wasn't cracked as she raised her head to look at Fluttershy but she was stopped as she felt her lips meeting Fluttershy's in mid turn. She clamped down her teeth, as her lips were violated by Fluttershy.
Fluttershy was in heaven as she kissed Applejack, but she wanted more, her lust demanded more. She pushed her tongue past her lips on to Applejack's, then through those, but she then felt the wall that was Applejack's teeth. Her rage screamed 'How dare she keep what is ours'. But then a plan, a most wonderful plan. She moved her right hoof from Applejack's side and moved it to on her neck. She pushed down, her eyes closed. She felt Applejack resisting to open her mouth, knowing that if she did it would be invaded. But the pressure became to much, she had to breath. She opened her mouth trying to take as air as possible. Fluttershy felt her chance as she plunged her tongue into Applejack's open maw, taking her hoof from the same mare neck. Applejack tasted just like apples, Fluttershy loved it. She devoured Applejack's mouth, clamming dominance with her tongue forcing Applejack's to the bottom of her mouth. But Fluttershy's lust still wanted more, it wanted Applejack's vagina. It wanted those soft folds of flesh, to taste, to eat, to truly show Applejack how mares made love. Her left hoof started to descended.
Applejack's mind was in turmoil, every rule her father had set down was being broken. Each of Applejack's senses was telling her to enjoy it, but she resisted, she had to. Fillyfoolers was wrong and to participate in it was worse then being one. 'But you are one' her subconscious said, 'NO AH'M NOT!' Applejack's mind screamed 'Ah hate this, ah hate having her skilled tongue violating my mouth, hate her flower infused hair in my nose. Ah hate this, ah am not a fillyfooler, I do not like mares, I don't stare when Fluttershy walks past or Twilight. I don't fantasize about what it's like to kiss a mare. My daddy would be so disappointed that his little girl turned out like this, this monster, this pervert.'
She felt Fluttershy's hoof move down digging into her broken rib, she wanted to scream but her mouth was occupied at the time, desperately trying not to fight against the other mare's tongue, to swirl around it, to become part of the kiss. She knew were the hoof was headed, this was the end. Where Fluttershy felt the truth, that the mer kiss had taken her to heights she had never squalled before expect in her sleep. Applejack's body was ready for Fluttershy, ready to be taken in a moment of blazing glory, to be taken as Fluttershy's plaything.
Fluttershy got there, to Applejack's nether. It was wet. Her mind collected it self, 'She wet, she's turned on. She wants me to do this. She wants me to take her, to rape her. Oh I can't do it, She wants it, she wants it.' Her rage subsided as her mind tried to comprehend what it was being told, then in once instant it was back to how it was normally. 'Yes, yes she likes me, she likes me.' Her true mind cooed. Fluttershy opened her eyes, then had been closed the entire time. She was hoping for love or even lust, arousle. But instead she saw fear. The situation came rushing back. What had she done? What had she done to her love? She felt tears well up in her eyes. She couldn't look into those green pools of sadness.
She was flying home, flying back to where things made sense, were she wasn't a monster, back to her kind deeds and gentle nature. And so she left a bruised and aroused Applejack under an apple tree, staring into the green of the leaves as she cried and finally accepted what she was and what she liked and the monster she saw herself as.